Run Away Part 1 Anger And Frustration
Summary
Eren's been experimented on by Hangi for three days straight so he's weak, frustrated and angry. So when Mikasa comes to check on him he snaps and says the wrong thing causing her to drop her scarf and take comfort with another man a man who also likes her his names Jean and when Eren sees how close they get he shuts down emotionally and moves back into the basement he starts harming himself on purpose. When he sees Mikasa and Jean share a kiss he runs away.
Eren's just got back to his room he hates these damn experiments it always leaves him sore, frustrated and so angry most people leave him to it unfortunately Mikasa seems to ignore it and he snaps at her.
He sits on his bed he punches his pillow "Why do I have to be experimented on" He's so frustrated right now three days straight it's ridiculous he sighs "Why put me through so much and for what" Just then there's a knock at his door he knows who it probably is he'd rather not have company right now. His suspicions are confirmed when he hears her voice "Eren it's me can I come in."
He sighs "Go away Mikasa" Of course he knows she'll ignore him and just come in and that's exactly what she does he sighs "I said go away not come in" She sighs then looks at him she hates seeing Eren so sad and frustrated and sad she cares about him so much more then he knows "You OK" He sighs "No I'm not OK why would I be OK after being experimented on for three days straight."
She sighs "Why did they do that that's never happened before" He snaps "Will you stop nagging me it's really annoying you know sometimes I wish I never saved you when we were young".
She's shocked she pulls off the scarf and throws it on the floor then bolts from the room. Eren doesn't do anything he knows what he said he didn't mean it but he's so sore he can hardly move right now. Mikasa runs down the corridor crying. She runs past Connie and Sasha they look back but just shrug and move on. She avoided Armin when he saw her.
It's now later and she's sitting in the main room she's still crying. She hears someone come into the room and touch her shoulder then sit down. Jean sighs "What did he do now" She says nothing he sighs again "Why do you put up with him he treats you like crap he doesn't appreciate you not like I do" She looks at him "What do you mean" He smiles "I like you Mikasa I always have since the moment I met you let me take care of you as you should be."
Mikasa then hugs Jean and this makes him happy this is what he's always wanted Eren doesn't deserve her. They talk for a short while then they split up and go to bed. He turns back "Goodnight Mikasa" He goes back to his room and sees Eren asleep and smiles no more Eren in the way he doesn't know what actually happened but she wasn't wearing her scarf.
The next day Eren's confused he feels much better but he knows something's wrong he looks down and sees Mikasa's scarf in his hands and is confused she'd never take this off she only does when she's sleeping or washing it. He looks around the room and sees he's the last one up.
He slowly gets dressed and makes his way to the main room he looks for Mikasa and finds her sitting with Jean she's never done that before she won't even look at him Jean does though and he doesn't like that look. He sighs then gets his own breakfast but he doesn't stay he'd much rather be alone. He hears his name being called and it's not Mikasa's voice but Armin's "Eren wait where are you going".
He ignores him and keeps walking. Armin catches up to him they take their trays outside and sit next to a tree they start eating without talking at first then Eren sighs "What's going on why is Mikasa sitting with Jean she's never done that before". Armin shrugs "I know she wasn't wearing her scarf either that's just weird" Eren sighs "I woke up with it in my hands."
Armin looks at him "That's not normal she never takes off her scarf unless she's washing it why would you have it when you gave it to her." Eren sighs "I don't know my minds all messed up you know about the experiments right" Armin nod "Yes that was wrong to do that three days is a bit excessive."
Eren sighs "I felt so weak so frustrated and so angry like usual I vaguely remember Mikasa coming to my room I don't remember anything else the next thing I remember is waking up in my bed with the scarf in my hands" Armin sighs "Do you think you snapped at her your moods aren't easy to judge after you've been experimented on."
Eren sighs "I hope I didn't but I don't even know what I say afterwards I know I used to argue with her a lot but I've changed a lot but I must have why would she ignore us and be with that horsefaced arsehole and why else would I have her scarf she won't even look at me". Armin nods "Or me I have a bad feeling about this I'll try and talk to her the bad feeling is about Jean he seemed so happy this morning and now he's sitting with her."
Eren looks at him "Oh shit Armin studies him "What" Eren sighs "Oh nothing I have to go and think just leave me alone for a while OK" Armin sighs "OK" Eren then walks off Armin watches him go and sighs "What's going on".
Mikasa saw Eren arrive and then leave followed by Armin her heads a mess right now did he really mean what he said he's hard to read at the best of times but is far worse after being experimented on. Just then Jean puts his hand on her shoulder "Just ignore them Eren doesn't deserve your love" She doesn't look at him but just sighs "Maybe."
Jean sighs "Mikasa you deserve better someone who really appreciates you someone like me" She ignores him and continues eating. She sighs maybe Jean's right does Eren even care about her what he said was UN called for but did he mean it.
A few hours later Armin's walking looking for Eren he hasn't seen him all day when he spots Mikasa alone he jogs up to her "Hey Mikasa" She tries to walk away he grabs her arm "Are you OK" She sighs "No I'm not" Armin sighs "Talk to me what happened last night" She sighs then tells him everything" He sighs "Mikasa he didn't mean what he said you know what he's like when he's been experimented on."
Mikasa snaps at him "Eren doesn't appreciate me unlike Jean" Armin's stunned "Jean what has he got to do with this" She sighs "Jean appreciates me he likes me and I've realized my love for Eren wouldn't be returned" Before Armin can reply she walks away he closes his eyes and sighs "Dammit Jean what have you been saying worming your way into her heart you arsehole."
He knows Jean's been waiting for Eren to slip up Eren's said nasty things in the past but he's changed anyone can tell that but he's never said those words to her before what garbage has Jean been telling her. He sighs "I have to find Eren."
He finds him a few hours later he'd missed training he jogs up to him "Where have you been I've been looking all over for you" Eren sighs "I've been thinking trying to figure out what I said to Mikasa" Armin sighs "I know what happened and you're not going to like it" Eren sighs "What did I say."
Armin tells him everything and Eren's stunned he rests his back against the tree and then slides down it and puts his head in his hands "I didn't mean what I said" Armin sighs "I know you didn't mean It I know you he then tells her what's happened since then Eren looks even more distraught "Jean what the hell does she see in that horsefaced arsehole."
Armin sighs "I don't know Eren but I think this is what he's wanted all along you finally said the wrong thing" Eren looks up "But I didn't mean it I love her Armin a part of me always has it just took me a long time to realize it" Armin's surprised "Really then why treat her how you did."
Eren puts his head in his hands again "I don't know I never wanted either of you to join up with me I wanted you both safe within the walls I was going to find her when the titans were gone and tell her how I truly felt" Armin sighs "I'm sorry then Eren but come on you know she'd never agree to stay within the walls she won't leave you alone."
Eren sighs "I know but now look what's happened I told her the most important person in my life that I wished I never saved her I've lost her Armin to him that horsefaced arsehole."
Armin sighs "Damn Hangi and her experiments" Eren sighs "She might be partly to blame but she's not the person who said that hateful thing to Mikasa I did" Armin sighs "This must be tearing you up inside" Eren sighs "It is I hate this how can she think I don't appreciate her I love her more than anything."
"Of course I appreciate her she's amazing she's so strong and fast and beautiful although she probably doesn't think it yes the recklessness is something I hate but everything else is what I love about her I appreciate her more then she'll ever know.
