This is a re-write of my other story 'Going Solo' and I am hoping to improve it. If you have not read the other story, then don't worry this WILL make sense, and I hope you enjoy it, and if you have read the other version, just bear with me whilst I re-write these, and I hope you enjoy these better than the last ones! I am re-writing up to Chapter 7 of Going Solo, then I will copy those chapters into here and carry on from there. So, read, enjoy and review. [this is from Katniss POV, not 3rd person as the other one was]
"How can I marry one woman, when I love another?"
~ Captain Von Trapp, The Sound Of Music.
Katniss POV
I watch from the top of the hill as the train leaves the station. Not that anyone comes here anymore. Although the Victor's Village stays standing, the damage to the town and the Seam is beyond repair, and old District members have long since given up trying to rebuild their lives. So it's just me, Peeta, Haymitch, Greasy Sae and little baby Prim who live here now. No one comes, no one goes.
But the trains still come and go, twice a day. Only rarely do we get a visitor. Someone from District 13 checking up on us, an old resident paying respect to their lost loved ones or a Capitol reporter trying to get a story out of me and Peeta. But every day I still watch the trains come in, only wishing one person to step onto that platform.
He's in 2 now, with his fancy job, living the high life. But I can't help but miss our days spent out hunting, ranting about the Capitol, thinking of the future and trading in the Hob over bowls of steaming hot soup.
"What do you want from me Katniss?" I feel a hand on my shoulder, "I give you a home, and life, and family, and you still want more?"
"I don't know what I want Peeta." I watch way over the hills, thinking somehow I'll be able to see District 2.
"How do I keep you happy then? How do I know that you still love me?" His voice starts to crack, and tears come to my eyes to. The truth is I don't think I do love him anymore. I love the boy with the snares.
"Maybe I don't, I ju-" He reaches round and turns me to face him, his blue eyes shining with tears.
"We have a child now Katniss, we're a family, you vowed to be with me forever. You can't leave Katniss, please don't leave me, you're all I have," He's crying uncontrollably now, begging me to stay, but all I can see in my head is Gale wishing me to come to him.
I hold her in my arms like the most precious thing I've ever held. Her baby blue eyes are so familiar and her features so defined. This proves my and Peeta are together, a family, and now we have our child to bond us forever.
"Katniss?" Peeta pokes his head round the door. The hospital in 13 is reminds me oh too much of our days spent here during the rebellion, but Dr. Aurelius insisted I come here for the birth. He also used it as an excuse to monitor my mental health and Peeta's recovery whilst we were here.
"Look little baby, daddy Peeta is here," the baby makes some noise in return and Peeta and I chuckle lightly. He walks in, his shoes squeaking on the polished floor.
"She's beautiful. Just like your mummy aren't you little mite?" I kiss him on his cheek to say thank you, as the lump rising in my throat has made it impossible to talk. He squeezes my hand as to say that he's never going to leave us; we'll be a family forever. "She got a name yet?"
I look up to see a familiar face peering through the glass, with a vague smile on his face. He nods towards Peeta, reminding me that he has just asked me a question. Instantly, I know what to answer.
"Primrose, she's called Primrose." Tears start to roll down my face, my hormones and memories getting the better of me, but Peeta knows how to calm me down. He runs his hand down my cheek and turns my head to his. He leans in a kisses me, not a passionate kiss, but soft and gentle.
But when I look up again the face at the window has gone, leaving just the condensation of his breath on the window.
"I want to give you and Prim a good life, I really do, but I can't stay with someone I don't love Peeta, I wouldn't be fair on you, me or Prim. And it wouldn't be fair on Gale."
"How would it not be fair on Gale? He's got a new life, started again; he's probably met someone new!" The grasp Peeta has on my wrist tightens, making it impossible for me to get away. "Ever since the day we got back to District 12 after Prim was born, you've come up here to watch the trains, you've not been the same in conversation, and you've lost that sparkle in your eyes when I look at you. I want the old Katniss back, where is she? Why did she leave?"
"Gale came to 13 Peeta. He saw Primrose and me in the hospital. You know when you first saw her, and you asked what her name was? Well he was at the window staring at us. I took a while to answer your question because I was so surprised he had come, but he reminded me that you were there, and that you mattered right now, not him. When I looked up again, he was gone. And I've been longing him ever since then."
Peeta's grip loosens, and I pull away. I sit in the grass, playing with the dandelions. He leans against the nearest tree, eyes shut, trying to calm down.
"Go to him Katniss."
"What?"
"You evidently love him. So you have to go and find him." I see his fist clenching, his nails digging into his palm, I see how hard this is for him.
"But I'm being so unreasonable?"
"I still love you Katniss, and that means I want the best for you. So I'm letting you go. But there's no second chance. If you get there, get together, have a family, and realise you want me back, then I can't do that. I'm not going to let the same thing happen to Gale as it did to me, and I'm not going to risk it happening again with me. So this is your last chance Katniss. I want you to make the right decision." He walks towards be and sits down next to me, putting a hand on my leg to make me listen.
"I know you'll always be there for me Peeta Mellark. And I will always be there for you." My stomach aches and flutters at the thought that this is my last chance for either of them. I've got to play it right this time. "What about Prim? How do we decide who keeps her when?"
"I'll keep her whilst you go to 2, then when you and Gale are sorted out, we'll have to arrange something. But for now, you need to go; I think the next train comes at 6pm?"
I can't believe how much he's helping me with this. But that's always what Peeta did, helped others, even if it meant hurting himself. I smile at him, and we both laugh. No matter what happens, we'll always be friends.
The train glides into the station with its usual grace. I turn to Peeta who is holding Prim in his arms. I lightly kiss Prim on the forehead, scared that I don't know how long it will be before I see her again. I give Peeta a quick peck on the cheek, pick up my luggage and move towards the train.
"Bye my darlings," I whisper, but the train sounds the last minute call and my goodbye is silenced. I step onto the train, and the doors shut behind me, leaving me just to wave at the figures blurring into the distance.
I make my way along the corridor, and stop at the first room I see. I peer through the small glass window on the door, and it seems empty, so I turn the handle and drag my luggage into the room behind me.
The room is exactly the same as it was 3 years ago. Same duvet designs, same wallpaper, same desk. But somehow all my memories from here are fading, but I try to hold onto them in my head for some reason. Not that I want to remember the days I spent thinking I was about to die, I just don't want to forget them.
The door to the bathroom swings open, and a small girl in a robe sashays out singing to herself. I jump and stand up, starting to walk out the room, as if she hasn't noticed me.
"Hello? Who's that?" I drop my cases and turn around. A smile spread across her face. "Oh my god, it's you! Katniss Everdeen. The Mockingjay, The Face Of The Rebellion!"
"Guilty I guess! Sorry I was in here; I thought this room was free!" I laugh to myself, and she smiles again, a big grin showing off her clean white teeth.
"Oh no, don't leave! Please, we can pull the bunk bed out in here and share, I hate sleeping in here alone anyway." She shakes, nervously.
"Thank you, umm…"
"Leesa, Leesa Steller. Honoured to meet you." She puts her hand forward and I shake it.
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