「Regret」
Pairing: KuroShin
Warning: Possible spoilers for vol.4 of the novel.
And then, I faced you. You with that ever taunting gaze; you with that mocking smile. You, who loved my despair and never stopped wanting to see it. I wondered, why did it have to be you…?
Maybe when we meet again, it would be less painful. Of course, that'd be impossible.
That's what you told me on that day many time loops ago. When the both of us were on opposing sides. You, the one who killed all my friends, and I, the one responsible for your appearance.
Would you loathe my existence for having done such a thing? For having destroyed Konoha's initial state of mind and letting the snakes take control?
Of course not.
You revelled in my despair. Called it a masterpiece as I lost my friends one by one, again and again. You said it had been my fault. I refused to say such a thing.
But I knew it was true.
Had you-no, it wasn't you at the time. Had Konoha not jumped after me when I fell...none of this would have happened.
It was funny wasn't it? Falling all because a bee had gone and chased after me. And for me, who was nothing but a coward, ran away from it and hadn't even notice the cliff's edge and had fallen.
Falling and falling…
As I fell, I could only think of Ayano. Was this what she felt? Was the harsh blow of the wind against my back and the feeling of blankness that encompassed my being the same things she had felt? Had she thought, at the end,I don't want to die. I don't want to die? At first, I really thought I was going to die. But then he came after me. Reached out his hand and grasped mine before shielding me and landing on the ground with a sickening thud, dying it with red. The color I loathed; the color she loved. I asked him why he did it, why save someone who's rotten like me?
Because you're my friend.
Was what he told me. And I knew. I knew I didn't want to lose him.
I didn't want to lose another friend. Not like how I lost them. Not again.
I closed my eyes, begging, pleading for Konoha to live. I got that wish…
And it was then that you and I had finally crossed paths.
...yeah, how long has it been since I last wrote something? Okay so I got involved in the Kagerou Project fandom. I regret none of it of course. The story's complex, the characters lovable, it's just so great not to love!
So here we have a KuroShin drabble. It's actually a twoshot and I'm still working on part two (which obviously centers on Kuroha and we can get to the pairing). Anyway, I tried first person because hey, it wouldn't hurt to try to think like the character, right? Any mistakes or whatnot, please don't hesitate to tell me. Critiques are quite welcome too!
