UTTERLY ALONE?

Author: ReiaGZ

Rating: PG 13 (language)

Summary: Tess makes a few choices after facing the ultimate rejection.

Disclaimer: I do not own Roswell and it's concepts.

Author's Note: The idea for this fic came to me while writing my part in an RPG… In that RPG Liz and Kyle actually slept together. No flames or else. I love constructive feedback or even just worshipping feedback. I don't care about spelling mistakes. If you're anal enough to point them out then go ahead and do so. Just be prepared to receive an eye roll email.

***Prologue***

I have no family, at least not on Earth. You see I'm not from around here. 'There's no such thing as aliens', you say. Well let me tell you that that is a completely false statement. I am an alien and I came to this Earth over fifty years ago, though I'm only a girl of sixteen.

Four of us were sent to Earth with our protector. We don't know our purpose here all we know is that we're supposed to be together. The others don't believe that. I doubt they ever will. They can't accept that our destinies were mapped out for us. I don't blame them for not believing me. I hardly believe it myself anymore. How I wish I still believed in that destiny. It would have made my life so much more bearable.

We first arrived in Roswell in a stasis like sleep. We were snuggled deep in pods almost like chicken eggs only much bigger and you could see inside. The others hatched way before I did. They left me there. I don't blame them for leaving me though. I guess it was meant to be or whatever. Who knows? Anyway the point is when I protector came back to retrieve us from the hiding place he left us in, I was the only one there.

We traveled all over the country before our protector was able to find the other three in Roswell, NM. They were very suspicious of me at first because they had a lot of dealings with the FBI. They never completely got over their mistrust in me. I know it's partly my fault because our protector had me to manipulate mentally into accepting me. When they found out what I was doing they were furious. Eventually they started to accept me into their circle or so I thought.

Eventually we found out a little bit about our purpose on Earth. We were known as the Royal Four. We were killed in our past life while trying to keep our planet safe from a hostile take over. I was bride to the king. The King's sister was betrothed to his second in command. The four of us were sent to Earth to grow stronger and eventually fight our enemies that also came to Earth.

Our protector was the first and so far only casualty so far. The war has not really started on Earth because they don't know our Earthly identities.

That is our purpose and destiny. Join with our mates and destroy the Enemy that is trying to destroy us.

There was a problem in that though; the others had fallen in love with Humans. They didn't want to embrace their destiny. After our protector died I no longer had the desire to force them.

My name is Tess Harding and my biggest mistake was in believing that I could make my own destiny.

TBC

* * * Chapter 1 * * *

Quick Note:

This is slightly AU. As I stated in our RPG Liz actually slept with Kyle. Also, Kyle and Tess became really great friends when she moved in with the Valenti's after Nacedo's death and after future Max's visit Liz did not go to Tess to get her and Max together first. That's all I'm saying for now.

"I am alone…. I am utterly alone…" Sigh.

"Man Tess, you really need to stop watching that movie if it's going to have you acting so morbid." Kyle says as he flops down next to me on the sofa.

I smile up at him. "I can't help it Kyle you know how much I love Beetle Juice. It's a classic."

"Whatever Tess."

"So who was that on the phone?" I ask not really caring. No one would be calling for me anyway.

"It was just Liz." He answers absently.

"Oh! What does the great Liz Parker want with the lowly Kyle Valenti?" I ask sarcastically.

Kyle just looks at me and rolls his eyes. "Come on Tess, why so bitter? I thought you were over Max?"

I sigh and pick up the remote to turn off the movie. "I am so over King Max."

"Doesn't sound that way to me. But no matter I feel your pain."

"What pain?" I turn to him in confusion. "I am so not in pain. I don't even know how to spell pain. Pain and me do not get along. And anyway stop trying to change the subject."

"Who's changing the subject? Not I?" He asks with raised eyebrows.

"Whatever Kyle. Are you going to answer me or just ignore me?"

Pause...

No answer...

"Oh! O.k. If that's the way you want it."

Still no answer…

"Fine then, be like that. When you get through with whatever mission your little princess sends you on you can find me in the room talking to myself."

"Okay. Have fun then." Was all he would say.

"Ugh." I turn and leave the living room. Sometimes Kyle could be such a pain in the…well you get the drift.

* * * * *

Later that afternoon I was lounging across the bed in Kyle's old room listening to the radio and thinking about my present situation. It wasn't like I was jealous of Liz or anything like that… well actually I was jealous of her. She has everything: loyal friends, great personality, the guy that was meant for me.

You see what I mean? Everything!

I came to this stupid town looking to find my soul mate only to find out he's in love with someone else. Beautiful Elizabeth Parker. Oh! Just thinking her name makes me want to hurl.

Over the past summer though I've learned to live with the fact that Max was never going to love me like he loved her (Hell! He doesn't even like me). I've even learned to find the humor in that.

I know some of my actions changed when Nacedo left for Washington to impersonate Agent Pierce. Without him breathing down my back day in and day out, pointing out to my failures constantly, I've had a lot of time to think about this destiny crap. When he died I just gave up on the idea completely.

But despite the fact that I no longer want Max I still feel jealous of Liz Parker and not just because she has Max. She had Kyle also. And past insecurities keep reminding that she could have him anytime she wanted and despite what she's done to him in the past, somewhere in his heart there is still a place for her.

God I hate that.

The others barely even speak to me. At one point in time Isabel and I were getting a little closer. Then they found out about there destinies and it's like: 'Oh there goes Tess. The evil man stealing hussy.' The thing is, I don't even want Max anymore. I just want friends. I don't want my one chance at true happiness to be ruined by Liz Parker. I just feel that if she asked Kyle right now to make a choice between them and me, it would be them.

Or maybe it's all in my head. Could it be?

"Tess, I'm going out. I'll be back in a little while." Kyle calls up to me from downstairs.

I go to the top of the stairwell and lean over. "Where are you going?"

"Nunya!"

"I bet you're going to your precious Liz."

"Tess! Come on. You know there's nothing between me and Liz."

I sigh while giving him a small smile. "I know. I just hate seeing you jump at her every beck and call. She only calls when she wants something."

"She's just a friend Tess. When a friend needs my help I try to lend a hand. Now I have to get moving before it gets late. Dad should be home in an hour. You won't be to lonely by yourself will you?"

"I'm used to being alone Kyle." I smirk at him. "I'll be okay."

"Kay. If you need anything just give me a call on my cell."

"Kay. See ya in a bit." I wait until he leaves before turning back to my room.

Alone again. Now I know how that girl felt in Beetle Juice. What was that phrase again? Oh yeah, 'I am alone… I am utterly alone.'

TBC