Hey guys, this is my first fan fic about Neth Bellins (Nikki and Seth) so go easy on me. I hope you all enjoy it!


"The dog just shit in the house" John yelled out as Nikki rolled her eyes before the puppy ran into the office where she was working. She and John weren't doing well lately They had been fighting more often and had been to the point of not talking at times. Winston was causing stress between them as well as the stress of people asking when they would get married and have children.

"Nicole, come here" John said sternly as Nikki picked up Winston in her arms and walked downstairs slowly. John was standing over Winston's mess on the floor with the look of disbelief as the puppy looked up at his mom knowing that John had caught him.

"I thought you potty trained him" John said as Nikki sighed holding the dog close to her.

"John he's a puppy, he had an accident. He's still learning" Nikki said knowing it happened with puppies and Winston was still working on it.

"You need to send him to live with your sister. He's making a mess of this house and I will not stand for it. I told you when you got him that if he made a mess, he needed to leave" John said as Nikki stood shocked. He had never told her to get rid of Winston before.

"He can't go stay with Brie and Daniel. You know that they are getting ready for Brynnlee and they have Josie. I mean you know he's like my baby, you wouldn't do this to our child" she said as John went to grab his keys rolling his eyes.

"One he's an animal and two we are never having a child. Stop pushing for a baby when you know where my stance will always be" John said before Nikki walked up to him and grabbed his arm with her the look in her eyes pleading with him. She didn't want to have this fight all the time anymore.

"John, please… I love you and you know what I want. Winston is all I have right now until I'm a mother someday. I love him" Nikki said her eyes starting to fill with tears as John shook his head.

"I'm sorry Nicole, I can't give that to you. You have known that for a long time now. I have never mislead you into thinking otherwise. The choice is yours again, you leave or stay but you can't force me to bring a kid into the world that I don't want and have me resent you & that kid" He said before walking out the door and looking at Winston shaking his head. She knew John was serious, it wasn't that hard to tell. The first time it got this heated, she has stayed against her better judgement, against everyone in the world telling her she was dumb to think he would change. This time was different though, she now was the only one in the family without something to call her own. Her brother was married to Lauren & had a daughter named Vivienne and of course Brie & Bryan were having Brynnlee soon.

"Come on Winston, let's get this cleaned up" Nikki said with a sigh as she grabbed the cleaner to clean up his mess while the dog watched her. Once it was cleaned up, she washed her hands and looked down at the dog. She knew she didn't want to be here when John came home. He had never gotten violent with her but she wasn't ready to hear about how she was forcing him into something that he didn't want. She knew she would say something she would regret and knew that she wasn't ready for a blow-up fight with him.

"So what do you say we go away for a bit? Go see Aunt Breezie, Uncle Bryan, and Josie" She asked the French Bulldog puppy who let out a little bark as she took him upstairs to her closet. It didn't take her too long to pack her bags since she did have some things already in Phoenix at Brie's house. She made sure everything was together before she booked a last minute flight to Phoenix and put Winston in his carrier.

When she got to Brie and Bryan's house, she got out of the car and used her key to get in the house. Josie ran over barking as she heard Nikki's heeled footsteps against the wood floor.

"Nicole, what a surprise" Bryan said as Nikki rounded the corner to gave him a hug. He was used to seeing Nicole show up without notice. That was why they gave her a key to the house. Most of the time she and John would get in a fight and she would run to Phoenix for a few days to have Brie talk her down.

"I had to leave, John & I got in a fight over Winston and the future again" Nikki said as she let Winston out of the carrier to play with Josie. She walked into the kitchen and saw that he was looking at colors for the baby's room.

"You guys always fight out that stuff, what else is new?" Bryan said sitting back down at the table looking at paint colors and offering Nikki the seat next to him.

"This time it was different, he wanted you guys to take Winston for good. I told him that Winston was the closest thing I had to a baby and he was telling me I'd never had a baby with him" Nikki said with a sigh as she sat down at the table.

"Do you really want my opinion on the matter?" Bryan asked knowing Nikki would either freak out if he just said it or would see like an asshole. He had tried to help her before and she usually took his advice for about 2 days before she ran back to John again.

"Yeah, I would actually" Nikki said straightening up to get the advice from Bryan. He was always good at giving advice and Nikki actually liked to get his opinion on things even though she hardly did what he said.

"I like John, he's a good person & he loves you, it's obvious but he can't make you give up something you've wanted since you were a little girl. Brie said you two used to play mommies when you were kids and dreamed of having kids at the same time. No amount of love and things he gives you can compare to giving up what you obviously want" Bryan said as Nikki looked down knowing that Bryan was right. She had been thinking about it the whole plane ride over, hearing John's voice in her mind.

"What will I do? People will blame me for everything. John can do no wrong and I… I don't want the office to blame me for ruining things. Where am I going to stay? I got myself into this mess and I have no idea how to get out" Nikki whispered as Bryan shook his head. This is where Nikki would always get hung up in his opinion. She cared about what people thought or what people would say about her being single. The world already knew she wanted a child and he didn't so it wasn't messy like she thought it would be.

"No, they won't, everyone knows you want a family and he doesn't. Nobody's getting cheated on or doing anything bad to each other. John wouldn't talk bad about you either, he wants you to be happy even if he can't give it to you. You can move out of John's and stay here as long as you need. You have us, JJ & Lauren, and your mom & Johnny" Bryan said as Nikki let out a loud sigh. She was worried she would be blamed for everything, that her career would be tanked because she left John.

"I need to think about this" Nikki said as Bryan stopped her looking at her seriously. He was tired of having this talk with Nikki and knew he needed to lay it all out for her.

"Okay here's the options you have right now; you stay with John, never get married, never have any children which is fine if you are happy & you know your life will be fulfilled or you leave John which will suck at first but find a man who would give you marriage, a family, and the life you dreamed of. You need to actually be selfish & I mean more selfish than you can be sometimes and decide what you want. What does Nikki Bella want in life and screw everyone else's opinion. This is your life, not theirs" he explained before laughing a bit at the end as Nikki processed what he had said. She was snapped out of her thoughts by Brie walking in the house with a couple bags from the grocery store.

"Nicole, are you okay? What's going on?" Brie asked concerned as Bryan left the two of them to tend his garden outside. He knew that Nikki needed to think and Brie would probably lecture her about how she needed to leave John even after he said it.

"John and I got into a fight about..." Nikki said as Brie put her arm around her shoulder.

"The usual?" Brie asked already knowing that was what it was over. It was one of the things she didn't like about John. He was playing with his sister's life and ever since they had gotten together, he made Nikki more superficial and selfish.

"Yeah, that and Winston making a mess" Nikki said looking down at her hands still thinking about what Bryan had said.

"So what are you going to do? I mean I'm pissed off thinking about it and Brynnlee is angry too" Brie said resting her free hand on her belly feeling Brynnlee kicking. She was going to be an aunt soon to a second little niece. She already felt like she was missing out a lot on Vivi's life and most of Brie's pregnancy.

"I think I may leave him… I think I'm ready to let go" Nikki said as Brie hugged her tightly while Nikki started to cry in her arms.