Dovewing P.O.V

I tried hard. I really did. But, I always knew it deep inside of me. Bumblestripe wasn't my real love, he wasn't the father of my kits and we would never be more than friends. He was my love. He was the father to my kits and he was in Shadowclan. Why couldn't he be in Thunderclan? Then we could love endlessly without secret meetings at dawn and the snide looks from others who watched us play and talk in Gathering's. Why couldn't he be next to me when the rest of the Clan was watching Bumblestripe and I walk past them and sat next to each other for a piece of fresh kill? Why couldn't my Clan be purring about how cute he and I were? But now, I was trapped. Bumblestripe believed he was the father and everyone else did. Only he and my sister, Ivypool knew. But when Frostpaw and Snowpaw became apprentices and went to the gathering I saw his eyes filled with pride and joy, the complete opposite to what I felt when Bumblestripe yowled the loudest out of anyone in the Clan, making my ears ring. Then, the next full moon, I saw her. Him and her…. That was the night Dawnpelt became my nemesis. How dare she steal him from…. Nobody. He wasn't mine anymore, he was a Shadowclan warrior. But still, his dark brown pelt and his handsome kind face with those sparkling blue eyes filled with mischief, I would never forget. But I had to ignore it. For the sake of my Clan, for the sake of my kits, for the sake of the prophesy. He would have to go. He, he, he, he….. Tigerheart. You'll always still be in my heart.