Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of it's characters they belong solely to J. K. Rowling an amazing writer. Truly brilliant. I only have the honor of playing with them for this story and hopefully others. Please read the real story of Harry Potter from J. K. Rowling's amazing books. For they are truly worth every read. I have read them so many times I have lost count.

Summery Notes: Everything I write here is fiction and is not a part of the actual story of Harry Potter as written by J. K. Rowling, but it is a story I have quite enjoyed writing. This is going to be part one of The Adventures of Snape. Starting with Year One of Severus's school life. I've always wanted to write about my headcanon for Snape so here it is.

I may or may not depending how the story goes keep this series of stories to canon. The characters will build on their own as the story goes. I have also made the characters my own so they will be slightly OOC I am sorry for that. Unfortunately unless it is J. K. Rowling writing the stories herself every rendition of her characters will be tainted by the author's take on the characters.

Summery Ideas: This story takes place during Severus's childhood. It will start with his first year in school. Starting with him boarding the train with Lily Evans. Where it builds from there is anyone's guess... How will his past build the future Severus. How will his past send him to Voldemort and what led him to becoming the man he is. (Or MY version of him anyways).

Warnings: Contains mention of abuse (child and adult), contains language unsuitable to all audiences, contains scenes of bullying, injury and illness.

Notes: Severus will display weaknesses that are not canon. He will however outgrow most if not all of his supposed weaknesses. There will be a lot of dark mentions in the fic. Severus's home life is dark, abusive and he has never known love or kindness. The contrast between Hogwarts and Spinners End will enhance this fact. That's the point of it. I'm sorry if that disturbs you. If it does please do not continues to read this fic. This fic is written from Severus's perspective. His thoughts and his emotions. The feelings he has for Lily while bordering obsessive are NOT of a sexual nature in any way shape or form. He is 11 years old and simply has never known love, kindness or compassion. Having that in his life now he is latching on to it for all it is worth and terrified of letting it go.

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CHAPTER ONE: Leaving Home

Severus had awoken bright and early that morning. Having barely slept. It was the first time in eleven years that Severus would leave his home, at Spinners End, for more then a few hours at a time. Severus had never been away from his family. Not for any length of time. Privately tutored by his grandmother, Aryanna Prince. Against his father Tobias Snape's wishes of course. For that Severus paid for every day with a vicious beating whenever he was delivered home. Depending on how drunk the man was depended on how vicious the beatings were. It seemed like a game between Tobias and Aryanna who would be more vicious to the lad. Aryanna with her words and workload for such a young boy. Or Tobias with his thrashings and threats.

Severus had learned a long time ago that his mother had been disowned by his grandfather, Aryanna's husband, but that he himself had not. Since he was the only male to be born of the Prince line seeing as his mother's sister had died before she had given birth to any child and her other sister had only had a daughter and died in childbirth leaving Severus the only male heir to the Prince line. Aryanna having no choice or see the house loose it's standing. She had named him her heir to the Prince line and had insured he was well aware of how he was expected to act and excel in all things.

Severus was beyond thrilled. He had managed to coerce his mother into convincing his father to allow the Evans's to take him with them to the station. His grandmother having already gotten all his school things and his mother having given him her school books. Aryanna had been viciously angry with Severus when he'd told her he would be using his mother's old books. Aryanna wanted to raise Severus as her heir to the Prince holdings. Severus wanted nothing to do with anything. He just wanted to study. Specifically Potions. Severus had never known what a normal family was suppose to be like. Not until he'd met Lily when he was only six years old.

Severus was borderline OCD, at least that is what Aryanna told him, since he was obsessed with getting everything right and understanding concepts far beyond his years. He loved to read and devoured any book handed to him. Seeking knowledge and therefore power. Anything that could help him not receive such severe punishment from his grandmother. Anything to make his father proud of him. Something Tobias never was. Something that made Severus feel that he would always be worthless to the man. Lily was his only light in that darkness when his mother couldn't be.

He had loved to watch her family. They were so amazingly perfect in his eyes. Normal. Something he'd never had. He'd been so ashamed of his own upbringing that it had taken a complete accident for Lily to find out about his home life. She hadn't left him like he'd expected her too though.

Lying there being as silent as he possibly could not wanting anyone in the house to know he is awake. Fearful that any movement or disruption of the air around him will wake his father in the other room. That will only lead to a beating and he wants to avoid that at all cost. Still sore, bruised and with some bloody welts on his back from last nights send off and reminders. Severus shivers at the reminders. If he so much as sets a toe out of line or tells anyone what goes on at home his mother will be met with a beating. Severus could still see the sight of his bloodied mother lying just inches from him as he was beaten. A reminder of what Tobias would do if he didn't behave. Severus knew he had to protect his mother. It was all he could do.

Tears flowed from his eyes and his breathing became ragged. His grandmother had threaten to cane him if he didn't get the best grade in every subject. His father had threatened his mother's life if he breathe a word. Severus didn't know how he would manage to please everyone. Is it even possible? He was so scared that he couldn't live up to everyone's expectation for him that he was shaking from it. Trying not to think of the last few days and the pressure he was under Severus closed his eyes.

Imagining the weekend that had just passed. How he'd been in the park under the tree and Lily had come to meet him. His long black hair had curtained off the left side of his face. Hiding the bloody gash that run from just under his eye to his ear. He had been lying on the ground looking up at the sky through the branches. Unconsciously his hand ran over the raised scar that lingered on his face. Remembering the sweet memory.

"Sev, are you ok?" Lily had asked as she sat down. Looking at how he'd covered half his face with the long greasy hair.

"I'm Fine Lil," Severus said quickly. Pushing himself up on his elbows wincing slightly at the sting in his arm.

"Your dad again?" Lily asked knowingly.

"It's nothing," Severus said shrugging. He didn't deny it though. He simply just didn't want to talk about it.

"Did you get all your Hogwarts stuff?" Lily asked diverting the conversation away from the topic he didn't want to speak of. She was settling herself down next to him.

"Gran didn't like that I refused to allow her to buy me new books. I like the old books though. I'm not afraid to make notes in them. They also smell like mom," Severus said gently.

"Did she buy you your robes and stuff?" Lily asked.

"Yes, she was under the impression that if she didn't I'd be wearing my dad's old clothing at school too. It's not like I didn't want her to or anything. I just hate how she's always judging me as unworthy," Severus said with a sigh. It was always easy to talk with Lily.

"Yah Tunye didn't like being in Diagon Alley. She kept sneering at everything like it was dirty. I felt so embarrassed," Lily said sighing.

"She's just jealous," Severus said.

"I know, you know she wrote to the headmaster three times to try and get accepted. Now she acts like I'm a freak because of it. I just don't understand her anymore Sev," Lily said sadly. Severus felt oddly bad for her. Not knowing what to say he just stayed silent. He didn't like Petunia at all. He thought she was a vicious, jealous, evil twit. That was just him though. Lily loved her sister.

"Do you know what house you will be in Sev?" Lily asked her hands behind her head as she too stared up at the sky with him. Severus gave her a small smile.

"If I'm not in Slytherin Gran will have me expelled," Severus said simply. Shrugging. He really didn't care much about it.

"SEVERUS TOBIAS SNAPE!" Thundered a voice he knew all to well. His father. That voice startled Severus out of his memories and he shivered in mild fear at what that thunderous voice could mean. Severus sat up and got dressed as quick as he possibly could. He quickly made his way to the door of his room when it was yanked open a second later. Revealing his father. Tall, towering and evil. Short black hair. Black beady eyes. Shallow skin and hard features. His face was all angular and aged before his time due to alcohol. Rage contorted his face and he sneered down at his son. The thin man was slightly muscular, wearing a t-shirt and jeans. He looked intimidating to the smaller boy. Severus was tall for his age, but he was rail thin and didn't compare in height to the man.

His father grabbed him and threw him boldly out into the hall. Severus slammed into the wall and stumbled. Catching himself before he could fall. A pained hissed was all the sound he made. His body trembling.

"Take a shower, you're disgusting," Tobias growled and stalked away. Severus wished he could scream at the man, tell him that he wouldn't be dirty if he was allowed to shower regularly. The truth was his father didn't allow him to shower on a regular basis. Only when Tobias was disgusted with Severus's unclean state was he allowed to take a frozen shower. Severus lay frozen there a moment longer not daring to move. Painfully picking himself up off the floor he gathered clean clothing and quickly went to take a shower. Knowing that he had to be quick. Severus showered as fast as he possibly could not daring to hesitate. Barely feeling the intense bite of the cold water against his flesh. Almost used to the pain as it washed over his injuries numbing him.

"Severus," a soft female voice crept through the door as he'd started to get dress. Eileen Snape. Severus's mother.

"Yes mother?" Severus called politely. She was the centre of his world. He loved her. Every memory he had with her was one he cherished more and more every day as they were so rare.

"It's time for you to go love, Mrs. Evans is expecting you, I've already got your trunk downstairs by the door. Do hurry up, I have a bit of bread out here for you to eat quickly," She added softly.

Severus finished pulling on his shirt and opened the bathroom door quickly. Eileen was as unlike Tobias as could be. Slightly plump, with warm hazel eyes and slightly messy blond hair. She was beautiful. She had the same large hooked nose he did. her face was round and plump and she smiled just for him. Handing him a large chunk of bread. He grabbed it greedily with a quick thank you and started to wolf it down as fast as he could. Not daring to pause for breath for fear his father would take it from him.

A knock on the door sounded a moment later and Severus bolted down the stairs at a dead run. His father glowered angrily at him for breaking the no running rule. He swallowed the last of his food and opened the door. A bit out of breath. Mr. Evans and Mrs. Evans stood at the door with warm smiles. Severus gave them a warm and polite greeting. Not wanting to linger Severus, helped by Mr. Evans, took his trunk down to the car. They got it loaded up and Severus slid in next to Lily. Lily sat in the middle and he smiled warmly at her.

"Excited?" Mrs. Evans asked as she got in.

"Yes ma'am," Severus answered politely. Giving her what he hoped was a warm smile. Though it came out more of a barely noticeable twitch of his lips. He didn't really know how to smile. Never having had a reason to do so, before Lily. He was still weary of adults, he could smile easily to Lily, but his nervousness around adults prevented that easy smile. "Thank you for allowing me to come with you today Mr. Evans."

"You're welcome dear. Though you hardly need to thank me," Mrs. Evans said.

"Did you get a chance to have breakfast before leaving Severus?" Mr. Evans asked lightly.

"Yes Sir. Thank you for asking," Severus replied. Just as politely and silence fell. Severus liked it that way. Talking made him awkward and uncomfortable. He looked out the car window happy that he could see everything around him. Lily was reading a book and he didn't want to disturb her. Petunia looked like she'd swallowed a toad. She was scowling at the seat in front of her so darkly.

In what seemed like no time at all they arrived at the station. Mr. and Mrs. Evans got their trunks loaded onto trollies and Severus led them inside. He had been told exactly what to do to get on the train. Deciding that it would be easier for them all he led the way. Crossing onto platform 9 and 3/4 was a nerve wracking affair. Petunia was sulking. Mr. and Mrs. Evans were looking around interestedly at everyone milling about the platform. Severus was nervous and uncomfortable with the growing crowd and after one look at Lily they set off towards the train. Severus and Lily set found a compartment that was empty and claimed it as theirs. Working together they got their trunks into the compartment and had just sat down when Mrs. Evans called out.

"Lily, Severus, come here a moment," Mrs. Evans said gently. Severus followed Lily back out of the compartment. Though he didn't want to. His heart was racing uncomfortably fast and his breathing was ragged. Too many people crowded around. He was only thankful that Mr. and Mrs. Evans were close to the door of their compartment as it meant he didn't have to go far into the crowd. Silent and with a blank controlled expression masking his unease he stepped off the train and onto the platform making his way after Lily towards her parents.

"You two have a good term, be sure to write Lily!" Mrs. Evans said gently. Giving them both a hug. Severus stood frozen. He'd never been given a hug before. He was standing stiffly not knowing what to do while Mrs. Evans hugged him tightly. Lily was giggling. He looked helplessly at her. The mild panic at being in a crowd combining with this new experience was making Severus's breathing become erratic and uncontrolled dangerously close to hyperventilating. Lily took pity on him and spoke up.

"Just hug her back Sev, it doesn't hurt," Lily said laughing openly. Severus gaped at her. Her words effectively breaking through his panic, but at the same time embarrassing him completely. Mrs. Evans laughed and let him go. He just stood there staring at his shoes his face flaming. "Oh my god you're blushing!?" Lily giggled out. He blushed harder. He could feel his lips twitching into a small smile. Lily was the only one who could make him feel like this. He felt warm inside when he was near her. Something he'd never felt before. It was like a drug he craved. That warmth. It made him feel like everything else didn't hurt so much anymore. Slowly he began to feel himself relax. The panic and fear easing away.

She grabbed his hand and pulled him back towards the train. He swallowed the lump in his throat. He was still unused to physical contact and soon he pulled his hand away. She let him. Lily understood he didn't feel comfortable being touched. She was just surprised he let her touch him at all. Slowly they got on the train and Lily leaned against the window waving at her parents. Severus pulled out a book and started reading. He enjoyed the quiet. It was easy to be around Lily. She understood him like no one else did.