Disclaimer: I don't own any General Hospital characters but sometimes I wish. Anyway I just wrote this the other day cuz I was tryin to sleep and I thought of it and I couldn't sleep until I had it down on paper.
Jason was headed home from the hospital wrapped in his own thoughts of Michael. Having just left the young boys room he was all but crying. Maybe a walk through the park would help to clear his mind, the rides weren't helping they only made him think of Elizabeth. Crap, he let his mind wonder to her again. It needed to stop, he really just needed to find away to stop thinking about her, and this certainly wasn't going to help. There right behind the bushes was Elizabeth and the boys playing in the park. He should have known, it was finally warm outside again and he hadn't seen Elizabeth at the hospital on duty. Maybe he could just watch for a little while…
Cameron was having a blast on the swings, higher and higher and higher until he would drop his feet and stop himself only to start over again. "Can I touch the sky with my feet mommy?" Liz gave a big smile and laughed at her son's question. "If you point your toes really straight and get as high as you can." Instantly the boy was on a mission trying to again go as high as he could. That's when he saw Jake… he had gotten so big. He was laying on a blanket in the grass surrounded by toys, He currently had the corner of a book in his mouth, obviously getting another tooth.
Jason could feel the tears start to rise up looking on what should be his family so he turned to hurry away and didn't notice poor Robin and almost ran her over. "Watch out Jase, pregnant lady coming through…" she joked while Jason tried to apologize. She was about to ask what was wrong when she heard the baby in the background and her eyes focus on Liz and the boys that were just beyond the bushes. "You know she loves you Jason."
"What are you talking about Robin?"
"Elizabeth, don't play smart with me. I've seen you two. The way you try so hard not to look at each other. When you do make eye contact it is like no one else is even in the room." She paused for only a moment to see if he would say something and continued, "you need each other now more than ever Jase."
"My life is too dangerous, it always has been Robin. You were right to leave me and to try to protect Michael. Maybe you were the only one that saw me for who I really am, a complete and total danger to everyone around me."
"Jason… I"
"There is nothing to say Robin. My life will never allow me to have a wife and kids." He could feel his heart breaking all over again as he said it but he knew it was the right decision. If Jake ever ended up where Michael was now… he had no idea what he would do.
"Sometimes when you love someone, you are willing to take the risks…"
"One thing to be say you are willing and another to actually live with it from day to day. To wake up each morning and wonder if that is the day that your kids will be kidnapped or die. To worry every night whether your husband will come home or you will be getting a phone call from Sonny."
Robin found herself at a loss for words… Jason was using words like husband, wife. It was easy to tell Liz and her boys were all he wanted and the very thing he wouldn't let himself have. She watched as he walked away from her and headed off toward his bike. She found herself watching Liz and the boys, knowing that in a few months that would be her. Then she heard the bike rev up behind her and Elizabeth's face shoot up.
"Jason?" she watched as Liz's mouth formed his name and the pain well up in her eyes, yet she remained strong for her boys. Not showing them that her heart had just been torn a little more.
- The Next Day at General Hospital -
Robin had been debating all night if she should go see Michael or not. With Carly by his side 24/7 she knew it was probably not a good idea. It seemed that Jax had finally persuaded her to go home for at least a little while. How many times was she going to walk passed his room without going in on one shift?
"Debating if you should go in to see him or not?" liz asked.
"Part of me keeps thinking if only I had stayed with Jason and Michael. Maybe this wouldn't be happening.
"Jason's life is too dangerous. Especially for a child, that's why you ended up leaving him. Even when things seem calm or he tries to get out. Jason will always have too many enemies."
"That's the thing Elizabeth. I think I was willing to deal with the danger in his life… but Jason goes into protector mode. He pushes you away to try and keep you safe. And I was too scared to fight him back. I couldn't really take the risk, unless…"
"He asked you to?" Liz finished her sentence because it was the same thing she had been thinking over and over again. She knew it was dangerous. She knew the risks involved but if he asked it of her, she would do it.
"I can't help but think… has anyone ever really fought for Jason? For what he wants… well I guess maybe Carly" Robin and Liz both laughed at that comment "but really look how fiercely loyal he is to her. I guess it is none of my business" Robin had learned a thing or two through everything with Patrick, the biggest being you can't fully live without love. She hated seeing her new friend going through all of this pain.
Epiphany started to glare at the two women. The stopped talking and went their separate ways. Liz with tears in her eyes… she couldn't stop thinking about something carly had said years ago. "You know what the best thing is… you don't have the guts to go after what you want. You'll suffer for the rest of your life. You'll regret it, it will be your own fault." April 22, 2001 the day that changed her life, if she had gone off with Jason there is a chance that Cameron could be Jason's son. They would have been in Italy together and maybe they would already be married and raising Cam and Jake.
Liz couldn't help but miss Emily. She always knew what Elizabeth needed to hear. She knew Robin cared and was trying to help but she couldn't possibly fight for Jason. They had already discussed it many times. His life was too dangerous… but how was she to live like this. He heart would drop every time she heard a motorcycle. Each time her phone rang she always looked to see if he was calling her. She would come across the smell of leather and think about his jacket. Then the dreams… oh the dreams. She needed Emily now more than ever!
- That Night Back at Jason's penthouse -
Tomorrow he would have to start spinelli looking for anything he could find about the shooting. Tonight he needed to find a way to just forget about her. Jason opened the door to the penthouse and walked inside only to discover a playpen was set up in the middle of his livingroom and all of the furniture had been pushed back. He was about to yell for Spinelli when he heard the baby coo.
He walked over to Jake and was mesmerized. The boy had his eyes… and he was just staring right at him. Then Jake started to fuss and instinctively Jason grabbed the boy and held him close. For the first time n days he felt a smile spread across his face.
"I thought he might help you…" Liz said as she walked down the stairs.
"What are you doing here? Elizabeth you have to go…"
"No! look at your son. He needs you Jason. He needs to hear your voice, and to have you hold him. Jason I need you. My life is not complete without you in it. You are worth the risk Jason. I trust that you will keep our boys as safe as possible. I'll have guards, and move into the penthouse if it is safer, Spinelli could watch the boys, they can go to private school when the time comes…"
But she didn't get to say anymore by that time Jason had stopped her mid sentence with a kiss. She looked right into his eyes and smiled at his words…"Marry Me?"
Notes: Please review… this is my second piece and I'm pretty nervous about it. Good or bad welcome, just trying to continue to get better.
