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Shame

She hid in her room, the one place he would never find her because he'd never been there. She had always gone to him out of respect for his status as a Knight of the Round Table. Tears streamed down her pale face and her stomach lurched. How could she hide this? Everyone knew where she went at nights. Everyone knew that for the time being, she was off limits to any and all other men. No one would touch her whilst under the Knight's protection.

No one would touch her under his glare.

Bree wiped away her tears with an angry hand. How could she have been so stupid!? There would be no living this down. Not ever. She'd forever be known as the whore to the Sarmation Knight. She wouldn't be able to hide the evidence of this for long. He knew her body. Knew it intimately. He would notice it's slow change. He always noticed. Her father would be so ashamed of her! Tears coursed like little rivers now splashing against the thin material of her grey wool gown but she didn't see them. All of her hopes and dreams had been turned into ash. Her hope to marry well and her dream to leave the fort behind were naught now. Her hopes and desires had all turned in to a child...

"Lancelot! Where's your wench gotten too? Pretty little thing, her. Don't tell me she's finally had enough of letting you think you satisfy her?" Gawain's voice slurred and merry did nothing to help his brother-in-arms temperament. Bree had not been seen all day according to Vanora, in fact Bree hadn't been seen since yesterday evening when she'd left the market place in early afternoon. Lancelot had assumed she was running errands for her mother but Bree always helped at the tavern especially when it was busy and it was bursting at the seams now that Woads and the people of the fort lived together in peace. Lancelot had sat at the table holding his mug of ale with a jaw that looked set to break all evening. He had not seen her for two weeks now. For two weeks she'd avoided him and his bed. Two long weeks in which every time he'd seen her had been when he couldn't grasp her arm for a moment and demand that she tell him where the hell she thought she'd been?! Lancelot wasn't foolish enough to think that he loved Bree, she was a nice girl but a very naïve one if he'd ever seen on. Her father was the one of the fort's blacksmiths, a large and doting man of which Bree was the apple of his eye. He'd not taken kindly to Lancelot's eye on his daughter nor so had her mother, a vile wench if he'd ever seen one. Nora's story was well known by all at the tavern. She'd been a daughter of a wealthy Roman general who'd visited the fort 19 years ago. She had met Aldwin and fallen pregnant much to the shame of her father who'd demanded the two wed and then washed his hands of the whole incident. Bree had been the result of that. Not that she had suffered for it, everyone had accepted her for she was kind hearted and gentle in her way. But she believed that love conquered all and that she would marry for that blasted emotion! Nonetheless she had been an eager pupil to his bed and a clean one at that, he mused. Ever since the Knights had come back from patrol two weeks ago he'd seen neither hair nor hide of the girl in his vicinity alone. Lancelot shook his head. Women! He scoffed.
"Lancelot! No wench on your arm this night? Again?" Gawain was starting to annoy the dark knight immensely.

"Ha! `e wouldn't know what to do wiv one!" Bors roared much to the amusement of the other knights.

Lancelot forced a cocky smile to his face. "Perhaps that's why Vanora seeks my company whilst you slumber then Bors. At least with me, she's guaranteed to be tired from a good night well spent rather from listening to your snores!"

The men fell apart with laughter and Bors turned back to the bar with a grunt. Lancelot stood and searched the tavern once more for her. She wasn't there. Again.

"You!" He snagged the arm of another bar maid.

"Mi lord?" She smiled slyly up at him.

"Have you news of Bree?" He demanded.

The bar maid looked quite shocked and within reason he mused. Lancelot never asked after other women. It was something he had never done not in all the years that he had been at this fort!

"Nay mi lord. Last I `eard she were abed ill." The wench snapped pulling her sleeve from the dark knight's grasp.

"Where does she sleep? At her parent's house?" Lancelot said next before the wench went.

"Nay next to the smithy's. She `elps her pa in the mornin' mi lord." That said the bar maid disappeared.

Lancelot sat down his mug and strode from the tavern leaving the pretty bar wenches and his brothers roaring with laughter, and singing with drunken merriment.

Bree cursed as she knocked over a mug of water from her beside table. Today was not going well.

'I might as well go to bed. And pray things are better in the morning.' She thought. With that thought she changed into a grey cotton nightshirt and sank onto her bed closing her tired eyes to the weary day that she'd had.

She was almost asleep when her door came crashing open. She sat up in alarm ready to throw her candle at the intruder until she saw who it was.

"My Lord, you should not be here. My father will come at dawn to open the smithy." She began quietly hiding her eyes from his own.

"If you wanted to stop coming to my bed wench all you had to do was bloody well say so! I'm not in the habit of waiting for maiden's!" Lancelot replied.

"Forgive me, my lord. I thought my absence from you had told you that. After all two weeks is a long time for our knight to not have some warm and willing body next to him."

Bree's voice was quiet. She wasn't a timid girl but any stretch of the imagination but nor was a doormat ready to be walked all over.

Lancelot strode forward grasping her chin in his large hands and forcing her head up to meet his eyes.

"What is wrong with you? You seem changed." He spoke quietly still. Although his voice was enquiring she heard the steel behind it.

"Nothing is wrong my lord. I am merely tired that's all." She avoided his dark eyes like the plague.

"Damn you Bree! Tell me now what it is that's wrong with you!" He demanded and glowered at her when she shook her head from his hand.

"Please go my lord. I have no wish to see or hear you again. I am very tired and would like nothing more than to sleep." She replied.

Lancelot glared at her bowed head and then shook his own.

"So be it girl. Let it be known that I renounce any claim I may have once had on you. Let the Roman's have you for all I care." he sneered and strode out of her room, crashing the door in place as he did so.

Bree trembled with shock. Lancelot was not a man who did things rashly. 'But then, she thought, he's not used to women saying no to him either.'

She'd find no rest this night and so she rose cleaning up her tiny room until dawn broke and her father would come to open up his shop.

*~*~*~*~*~*

Rumours were rife now. All had heard her mother's screeching and her father's bellows of anguish. Bree was pregnant. What was more she refused to name the father publicly. Everyone knew of course but a knight was not held by his responsibility to a silly girl who'd managed to get herself pregnant. Lancelot sat at the tavern watching the girl through narrowed eyes. She was nearly to her time he realised. Vanora was giving her less work these days as she prepared for the birth. Her mother was not speaking to her and her father's eyes were full of sorrow. Aldwin remembered well the circumstances of Bree's birth and it held his heart heavy.

Gawain and Galahad were full of nothing but sarcasm for the dark knight and they were beginning to grate on his last nerves.

"We all know the babe's yours Lancelot. Take control of the situation, its not you that will be held in shame for the rest of your life. It's her and that babe." Gawain spoke quietly.

Lancelot glared at his fellow knight and stood up. Bree had avoided serving any table where he or his brother's sat at. Dagonet and Bors would occasionally grab a moment of her time to enquire about her health and the babe but other than that she avoided them.

Lancelot sighed. He'd held no wish for a family.

Bree's back was hurting and she was getting tired faster now. The babe would be here in little less than three weeks and she was terrified. She'd had no guidance from her mother and her father was no help when it came to explain to her what to expect when giving birth. Vanora had tried but Bree wanted her mother to help her as her own had done when Bree had been born.

"You'll get no help from me girl! You made your bed and you can rot in it!" She'd declared when Bree had broken down and told her parents what was going to happen. Her father had been full of tears and it had broken Bree's heart to see her proud and strong father reduced to a sobbing man before her eyes.

"She'll come `round little `un. She's just upset." He'd soothed when Bree cried.

But Bree knew better. She was a living reminder of what her mother had lost. Power and a suitable match for a wealthy Roman woman. And now her daughter was following in her legacy. Bree set down the tray she was carrying and placed her hands on her back. It ached more harder now. She'd go to Vanora ask her if there was any way she could leave early tonight.

"Bree!" Bors' voice stopped her.

"My Lord." She replied carefully.

"You'd best be gettin' on 'ome. I've spoken to Vanora 'bout it. She seys for ya to rest easy. Don't want the babe comin' afore it's time." He said kindly.

Bree smiled gratefully. Although she had never allowed herself a friendship with Bors or any of the other knights save Lancelot, she recognised that he was being kind to her when his brother had not.

"Thank you my lord. Good night." She murmured as she slipped away.

Bors watched the girl go. She'd have a rough time of it once the babe was born he knew. Vanora had when he was away on missions, it was only his protection that had saved her shame but with Bree she would be forced to do this alone. Her mother was no help and her father didn't know what to do. Vanora had tried but the girl rightly wanted her mother. 'Poor little `un.' He thought.

Bree's breath was coming in short gasps now. She needed to get home. Something wasn't right. She knew it. She'd never been this uncomfortable before. Her knees went from beneath her as a terrible pain lanced through her belly. Bree cried out as she felt liquid sluicing down her legs.

"No, not now! I'm not ready! Please not now!"

TBC

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