Title: Moving On
Author: Kitty
1 Rating: PG
Spoilers: Up to and include Couplet
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon owns all characters
Feedback: Yes please
Summary: Angel POV: His thoughts after Couplet
I let her go. I let her go into the sunlight with her champion. But how could I have let her go if she was never mine to begin with. Sure she is my seer. But that is not enough it is never enough.
With Buffy there was always something missing. With all the kisses and all the hugs I could never truly show her my love for her to the fullest. All because of the curse, the curse that got between our happiness. That was why I left. I could never give her the life she needed.
It's the same way with Cordy, beautiful, precious Cordy. God I love her so much. Her beautiful brown hair, that smile that can light up a room, her luscious lips. I can still feel her lips pressed against mine. Of course we were possessed, but it felt so real. The feelings were there behind it all, at least for me. At one point I almost couldn't take it anymore. I almost spilled my heart and soul to her. But she was so clueless. She has no idea how I feel about her. Thinks I can never love anyone after Buffy. Sure Buffy is my first love and some part of me will always love her. But that is in the past now. My love for Cordy is so much more different. It's a love built out of friendship, out of understanding and trust.
I know how she will never love me, the way that I love her. Just by the way she looks at me with her dark brown eyes, all she sees is a friend and nothing more. There is only one person now that can give what she needs, Groo, her champion. Its ironic how everyone seems to call me a champion, but to the one person that I want it to matter the most I'm not. I just wish Cordy the best, all the happiness that I can never give her. May she be happy with her Groo. For she might never show me the love I feel for her, I still have one other person who means so much to me.
Connor
Connor, my life and joy. Connor is my mission now. He gives me new hope in this life. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I would have him in my life. What did I do to desire this precious gift? No, I don't have Cordy by my side and I probably never will. But with Connor I am never alone. He is my reason to move on, my reason to live on.
Author: Kitty
1 Rating: PG
Spoilers: Up to and include Couplet
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon owns all characters
Feedback: Yes please
Summary: Angel POV: His thoughts after Couplet
I let her go. I let her go into the sunlight with her champion. But how could I have let her go if she was never mine to begin with. Sure she is my seer. But that is not enough it is never enough.
With Buffy there was always something missing. With all the kisses and all the hugs I could never truly show her my love for her to the fullest. All because of the curse, the curse that got between our happiness. That was why I left. I could never give her the life she needed.
It's the same way with Cordy, beautiful, precious Cordy. God I love her so much. Her beautiful brown hair, that smile that can light up a room, her luscious lips. I can still feel her lips pressed against mine. Of course we were possessed, but it felt so real. The feelings were there behind it all, at least for me. At one point I almost couldn't take it anymore. I almost spilled my heart and soul to her. But she was so clueless. She has no idea how I feel about her. Thinks I can never love anyone after Buffy. Sure Buffy is my first love and some part of me will always love her. But that is in the past now. My love for Cordy is so much more different. It's a love built out of friendship, out of understanding and trust.
I know how she will never love me, the way that I love her. Just by the way she looks at me with her dark brown eyes, all she sees is a friend and nothing more. There is only one person now that can give what she needs, Groo, her champion. Its ironic how everyone seems to call me a champion, but to the one person that I want it to matter the most I'm not. I just wish Cordy the best, all the happiness that I can never give her. May she be happy with her Groo. For she might never show me the love I feel for her, I still have one other person who means so much to me.
Connor
Connor, my life and joy. Connor is my mission now. He gives me new hope in this life. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I would have him in my life. What did I do to desire this precious gift? No, I don't have Cordy by my side and I probably never will. But with Connor I am never alone. He is my reason to move on, my reason to live on.
