Chapter 1

"Frak Frak Frak Frak Frak Frak Frak," Kara muttered as she walked through the locker room, banging on each locker door as she passed. Luckily, everybody seemed to be either on duty or out playing some cards. She didn't really want to explain to anybody the reason behind her foul mood. She continued on her rampage before collapsing on her bunk.

What was she going to do?

She contemplated this answer as she brought her knees up to her chest. Her life was so frakked. Why did she always have to be such a screw up? She felt tears prick at her eyes which only pissed her off more, so she punched the wall of her bunk.

"Kara?"

Frak, her mind screamed as she looked up to see Lee standing in front of her in only a towel, obviously coming straight from the shower.

"I heard you banging the lockers. What's wrong?" Lee asked softly, his hauntingly blue eyes were filled with concern.

Of course he has to be all concerned and nice when I don't deserve it.

"Kara?" Lee asked again, waiting for an answer.

"None of your frakking business," Kara yelled as she stormed out of the now suffocating room, leaving Lee's pleading voice behind her.

ooooooooooooooooooo

Ok, so that didn't make me feel any better, Kara thought to herself as she collapsed against the wall of the gym after going at the punching bag. That would be the first. Usually when punching something, you get a lot of that pent up energy and anger out. However, it didn't seem to work this time. If anything it made her feel worse. Not only was she still emotionally charged, but her body was aching and sweaty.

Damnit, she knew what she had to do, and she hated the thought.

Kara stood up from where she was and made her way to the shower where she could at least relieve her aching body and wash the sweat away. The shower did calm her some which helped her resolve to follow through on something she did not want to do.

It was late evening by now and most of the passageways were empty since it was between shifts. People were either on shift in CIC or in their bunks for the night. However, she knew one person that would be doing neither. She tentatively knocked on the hatch and waited for a response. Once again, Kara cursed herself, when had she ever been tentative?

"Come in."

Kara inwardly smiled at how reliable the stick up Lee's ass was, forcing him to continue with his paperwork well into the evening.

Lee glanced up briefly from his work in front of him before resuming writing something down. "How can I help you Lt. Thrace," Lee questioned politely, completely in CAG mode.

Oh, I can play at this game, Kara told herself. Kara immediately stood at attention saluting Lee. "Lt. Thrace reporting to check up on the stick up Captain Adama's ass. I wanted to make sure it was performing its duty up to par."

Lee looked up to Kara at attention and his resolve broke down and he threw the pen down and broke out into laughter. He rubbed his eyes that had been staring at the same form for the last hour. "At ease Starbuck. I think the stick is fully functional, or I would not be sitting in this office right now."

Kara cleared her throat nervously before speaking, "can we go somewhere to talk?"

"Umm, we are alone here, and I don't really want to travel to find a place where you can apologize to me. You don't even need to apologize for that matter.

Kara laughed, "it's about something more important that me apologizing for one of our little spats. Also, I really don't want to talk to you in this room because this is not a lieutenant to captain problem, or even a Starbuck to Apollo problem. I really need to talk to Lee.

Lee sobered up and for a few moments he studied Kara, who was purposefully looking at everything in the room but him. "Ok, we will go find somewhere else."

Lee got up from behind his desk and went and opened the hatch for Kara to walk through. Kara gave Lee a small smile of thank you and they both walked off in search of a quiet place to talk. By now a lot of people were asleep; however, there were a few stragglers in the rec room and the locker room.

"Ok, Kara I don't know if this is going to happen. Just whatever you need to tell me you can do in my office. I promise I won't I won't act like Captain Adama."

Kara shook her head. "I have one more place."

Kara grabbed Lee's hand and led him to the flight deck which was completely deserted at the moment.

"Wait shouldn't there be people on duty in here? What if something happens on CAP?" Lee couldn't stop the CAG in him from coming out at the moment.

"Remember that part about you being Lee and not CAG?"

Lee sighed, "I know, but this is a big violations and risk."

Kara shook her head as she led him to a corner of the flight deck. "No, it's not, if something does happen on CAP, which rarely does, then the red lights will start buzzing and they will be out here in about one minute. Trust me; I have seen it done before. There is nothing to worry about."

Lee gave in, "Fine, I will drop it."

"Thank you," Kara said as she plopped on the ground in small nook near one of the hanger entrances.

Lee took a seat next to her against the wall. He looked around him. Even if there were people on the flight deck, it would hardly matter considering they were practically in a little hole in the wall that nobody could really see or hear anything from.

"I have never noticed this place before," Lee spoke, impressed.

"I know, barely anybody does, and that is why I like to come here a lot. I can just sit and watch people working on the vipers and see them go off to be launched, but not have to be a part of it. It's a nice place to think."

"I would imagine. So, what do you is it that you need to tell me that is so important that you had us walking all over the ship just to find a quiet place to talk.

Kara forced herself to look at Lee's eyes and for a moment she got lost in their depths. He looked so content at the moment, she didn't want to ruin it, but he had to be the first to know, well besides Doc Cottle, of course.

"Lee, I'm pregnant."

Lee could only stare at Kara with his mouth wide open. For a moment, he felt that his world was crashing down on him. For the first time in a while he felt like him and Kara had been on a firm standing ground and he had hopes that maybe they would both be in the same place to finally start something between them. However, that seemed like it wasn't going to happen. He wanted to yell at her, let his heart break, do something but first he would have to ask the question. "Who?"

Kara smiled sadly at him and just spoke one word, "Anders."

"Are you sure, because there was that…you know…couple months ago…we don't know what happened."

Lee was referring to the night about a couple months ago that the two of them had gotten shit faced drunk on the anniversary of Zac's death. Both had been in a bad mood all day, and everybody tried to keep their distance from those two. That night Kara came stumbling into his office giggling and hugging a couple bottles to her body. She had traded her cigars for the liquor, not really thinking of the future, but thinking of the imminent need to numb the pain. Obviously, Lee had been feeling the same way because they drank until they couldn't anymore and they woke up together on top of a blanket on the floor, both completely naked. Neither could remember exactly what happened, whether they frakked or just had the over whelming urge to strip off all of their clothes. They both assumed it was the first. They both hoped it was the latter.

Kara shook her head slowly as she spoke softly, "I'm sure. From how long I am along, it happened a couple weeks before you and I…well did whatever we did."

Lee nodded, really wanting to be understanding and comforting, but he couldn't trust himself with words at the moment. He leaned forward, his elbows on his knees as his hands supported his hands. There were so many thoughts and emotions that were running through his head right now. Anger was probably the most prominent feeling right now. He just had the all consuming thought of punching Kara.

"You know you can be angry if you want. I am expecting it. Call me a whore or tramp. Or better yet throw something. That should help some," Kara spoke lightly, although her suggestions were serious.

Lee glanced up and surprisingly raised his fist and put all his strength behind punching the steel wall next to him. The sound reverberated through the flight deck and he saw Kara jump at the sound.

"I'm sorry," Lee immediately softened.

"No, I should be thanking you that you didn't aim that punch at me," Kara joked lightly, knowing that she did deserve to be punched.

Lee shook his head, smiling sadly. "You know I would never punch a pregnant woman. Well, I don't really punch women for that matter."

Kara couldn't stop herself from snorting at his words. "Aren't you such a gentleman?"

Lee nodded smugly.

"That hasn't stopped you from throwing a few blows at me before."

"Well, I don't know if I would really consider you a woman. You are more just a being, Starbuck."

They both laughed at his words that in a way had their own ring of truth in them. The chuckles died down, and they both were faced with the serious situation that was before them.

"How did this happen?" Lee questioned more to himself than to Kara.

"Well, you see Lee, when a man and woman have sex, sometimes…"

Lee just shook his head, not even giving her a smile for that lame ass joke. "No, I mean how did it get this way between the two of us. Every time the two of us feel like we are doing good, something screws with us."

"I know exactly what you mean. That is why I didn't even want to tell you, I knew this could mess us up again. Is it?"

"I don't know," Lee sighed, truly not knowing. "I just don't know how much more of this I can take."

Kara's eyes filled with tears. She didn't know if she could live her life without Lee. He was one of the only constant things in her life. Even their ups and downs were predictable now.

"Talk to me about something else. Like what are you going to do?" Lee asked, really not wanting to think about his place in all of this.

Kara made a quick swipe at her eyes, trying to shake some of the feelings that were running through her. "I don't know yet. I just found out this morning and you are the first person to find out."

Lee let the corners of his mouth slide up as he heard that. That was something after all. He gave her an encouraging nod to continue as he placed his hand on her knee, rubbing small comforting circles with his thumb.

"Almost every fiber of my being is screaming that I should give up this baby to somebody. Because who are we kidding? Me? A mother? Hell no! I would be the shittiest mother in the world. But, there is some small part of me, in the very core of heart that wants to keep him or her. This may be one of the only times I can conceive and I don't want to give up that opportunity," Kara confessed.

"What? Why wouldn't you be able to have a baby?" Lee questioned, very confused.

Kara sighed, forgetting she hadn't told Lee about The Farm. "When I was on Caprica I was injured and picked up by Cylons and put into this hospital. Or that was what Simon told me. He told me that Anders had dropped me off and that they had removed a piece of shrapnel from me. Well, I became suspicious when I noticed a new scar on my stomach. One way or the other I fought my way out of their after finding out they were Cylons. Also, the Cylons seemed to be using humans for some sort of harvesting experiment. I didn't know exactly what was going on. I ended up killing them. I came back and talked to Doc Cottle and he said it would be unlikely for me to have a baby. It could happen, but the chances were slim."

Lee stared out in front of him, his eyes misting over. "Unbelievable," he whispered, his voice hoarse.

"Yeah, well I have a scar to prove it." Kara lifted her shirt to show him that was on her stomach.

Lee instinctively reached out and touched the pink raised flesh that was obviously a fresh scar to where her surgery had been. He traced the outline of the scar and Kara shivered under his touch. She felt the warmth of Lee as he covered the scar completely with his hand, removing it from her sight. She felt his heat course through her body as she stared into his dazzling eyes. They sat in silence for a few minutes, Lee silently comforting Kara with his touch. After a few minutes Lee moved his hand up and pulled the bottom of her tank top down, covering her skin.

"Thank the Gods nothing happened to you," Lee whispered softly. "And we now know you are able to have children."

"Yeah, although, I would have been happy not finding this one out for a few years later. Preferably when the world had not just ended and I had a husband," Kara admitted, afraid that Lee would poke fun of her talking about a husband.

"What are you going to do about Anders?" Lee asked the million dollar question.

"I have to move on," Kara choked. "There is no way we are going back there for a few straggling survivors. I can't go back there by myself, so I'm stuck. I had a connection with him, but I need to move on with my life. I wish that weren't the case, but there is nothing to do. If I decide to keep the baby, I can do this by myself." Her eyes looked at Lee, straight in the eyes, trying to exude confidence, however her eyes were filling with tears.

Lee shook his head. "You won't do this alone. Whatever you decide, I won't leave your side."

Kara's eyes widened in shock, whatever she was expecting, that hadn't been it. "Really?" she couldn't keep the tremble from her voice and the tear that fell down her cheek.

He reached out and cupped her face, using his thumb to wipe the tear from her cheek. Lee looked Kara straight in her eyes and simply state, "really."

That was the breaking for Kara, and she broke down in sobs. Lee immediately jumped in and pulled Kara to him, enveloping her in his arms. She cried into his shoulder, and Lee did nothing but speak encouraging words in her ear, reassuring her that he would stand by her, never leaving her side.

A/N WHEEEE! Ok, this is my first Battlestar Galactica story, and I know it's rough around the edges, but I am working on it. Um, this was inspired by the fact that I have just recently within the last week gotten into BSG fanfic. Before I have been purely a HP and a little 24 person. That is all I read and all I have written. BTW- Tony/Michelle or Harry/Hermione fans, I have like a handful of other good stories for them. Anywho, I know that other people have done similar ideas to the Kara pregnant or parent story, but I thought I would try my own variation. Believe me there are more chapters and I already have the ending, woot woot. So please leave a note telling me yay or nay and if it is a nay please be constructive. I can take it, I just hate flames. Thanks!