Hello everyone! How was New Year? Hope it had been fun! Mine was definitely not fun, but it was quiet and warm, so I still loved it! :)
So, I was trying to sleep yesterday and this story kept rolling on and on in my head. I had to put it on paper and today on my computer and voilà, here it is.
It's just a little drabble in some place in a very near future. It's spec of my own and I really doubt this is going to happen, but, well *shrugs* it would be cool if it happened. Our Rachel girl needs to stick up for herself already and I'm sick of reading stories about her chasing Finn... again! So if you're looking for a Finchel happy ending, read one of my other Glee stories, you'll find it there! :) This story only has a Rachel happy ending.
Also, I had one or two reviews on my "Finn's Christmas Carol" story saying that my writing is confusing and that I should get a beta. I'm all for it, but I don't know how it works, so if someone wants to help me with my stories, I'd be more than willing to accept said help.
Now, I already took too much of your time and I should be studying anyways, so onto the story!
Disclaimer: Don't own Glee. If it was mine I would put some heavy girl power in there! :)
I'm okay
A little over a month after Sectionals, Rachel Berry quit the glee club. It had coincided with Kurt's return to McKinley and therefore to the glee club.
It wasn't an easy decision and it was definitely not because Kurt was going to steal her spotlight. He was her friend now, she wouldn't care about that.
Glee club was everything to her, it was her life and, for a moment in the past, she thought about her teammates as family. She couldn't be more wrong. But, oh well, they needed her or else they wouldn't have the required number of members to compete. However, she didn't sing anymore, she didn't boss around or comment on other's performances. She didn't even bring ideas to rehearsals anymore.
No one seemed to notice.
When Kurt told her he was going back to McKinley, she thanked heaven for it. The timing couldn't be more perfect.
Weeks after she left the glee club, she was picking some books out of her locker, when she heard someone call her name. She instantly recognized the voice and felt an involuntary pang on her chest.
"Can I talk to you?" Finn asked, in a worried voice. Her back was still turned to him, but he saw her nodding. He waited patiently while she took her time to dispose some books and take the ones she needed.
"What seems to be the problem, Finn?" Rachel asked, nonchalantly, pretending he didn't affect her anymore. However, he wanted to make the task harder and put his hands on her shoulders.
"Are you okay? You're not yourself, Rach… You left us and… You're not Rachel anymore."
She looked at him with wide eyes.
"I'm fine, Finn. Thanks for your concern." Rachel shook his hands off of her and turned around.
Finn grabbed her arm, stopping her.
"Look, I don't wanna do the same thing I did to you last year. I don't wanna use you." he paused "So, I'm going straight to the point. Regionals are up soon and we need you Rachel."
She seemed to soften but only for a split second.
"I don't believe in you. The New Directions don't need me."
"We do! You were always our star, Rach, that doesn't change from one day to another. Besides, we miss you…" he paused, looking down, sheepishly "I miss you. And Kurt's always talking and asking about you. He misses you too!"
Rachel laughed sarcastically, so out of herself, so out of her personality. He had never heard her laugh that way before.
"I don't doubt that, but think about it in this way, Finn… New Directions won Sectionals without my singing talent. I hardly believe someone's even took the time to notice I'm not there anymore, so, I'm sorry, but I don't believe I'm needed now. You are perfectly fine without my annoying and bossy attitude."
"We didn't win, Rachel. We came first along with those Warblers' dudes." he squeezed her arm a little "We really need you right now."
Rachel studied him for a moment and stepped back, releasing herself from his grasp.
"I'm sorry Finn. I made up my mind and Kurt is back, so unless you'd be reduced to eleven members again, don't count on me."
She turned on her heels once again and started to walk down the hall. Startled at first, Finn finally woke up from his surprised state.
"Will you let this cost you your dream?"
She turned to him, staring right into his eyes.
"I'm okay without it. Just like I'm okay without you."
He seemed puzzled at her statement and, most of all, surprised. That was not the Rachel Berry he knew and, secretly, still loved.
"Finn…" her voice was low and she was looking at him with those big chocolate soul-piercing eyes "I'm not good without you. I'm definitely not great without you. But I'm okay without you. I learned how to and I finally achieved it. As well as being out of the New Directions. I'm finally used to it. I'm not going back to some place where I'm not wanted. Plus, you still hold a lot of hatred toward me and while I might be okay with that, it still hurts. Even more when you're avoiding me or flirting with the other girls. I may be already accustomed to it, but it doesn't mean I like it. So… just let me be."
Finally, Rachel realized she had talked too much and shut her mouth waiting for Finn to say something. As he remained silent, she got ready to leave.
"Well, it was nice to talk to you again, Finn. I'm sorry about my rant, though. If you see Kurt… of course you will see him, you live with him… Anyway, tell him I say hi. I don't even see him anymore, these days. It's like we're not even in the same school again." she chuckled lightly "Goodbye Finn, I'm already late for class."
Finn stood behind, floored, while she progressed her path to the classroom. That was the first time Rachel stood up for herself, when it comes to matters related to Finn. That was the first time she was able to say no to him, with that fervent belief she was known for.
For the first time in a long time, she felt proud of herself.
So, what do you think?
Is it too weird or kind of acceptable?
Let me know!
SLopez
