AN: This came to me while listening to 'Happy Ending' by Mika, so I had just had to spend the day writing it down.

Background: Jenna (my OC) is a scientist who works on the ADD, just in case you haven't read my other Primeval story, although this is AU to The ARC: Chat Room Conversations. She is in love with Danny though, but she has never told him. And then he goes through that anomaly…

This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending…

"Tell me", he says again.

But I can't. I cannot relive that year. Even now, I can't bear to think about what happened, how it damaged me.

"Please Jenna. Please tell me. I need to know what happened to you. Nobody else knows, not really"

"Ok", I said finally "I'll tell you. But I'm going to write it down. Then, just then, I may be able to pretend that it's just a story".

…..

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life…

It was an ordinary Thursday. It started so normally; Abby and Connor being awkward with each other, Sarah laughing with Becker about something, Lester in his office with a black coffee, muttering about whoever it was that forgot to buy milk, and I was tapping away at the keyboard, running diagnostics and checking everything was working properly. Danny was nowhere to be seen, which disappointed but intrigued me. His cheery smile always lit up my morning. Then again, after all the hoo-hah of going into the future yesterday, he was probably getting those scratches looked at. When he came back to the ARC yesterday, I rushed over to him, all thoughts of hiding my feelings forgotten when I saw the blood on his neck. He seemed a little taken aback by my concern, but smiled that knee-weakening grin that only seemed to require half his face. I quickly spluttered out "I, well, I just wondered if you were ok, you know…" I gestured wildly to his neck, almost whacking him in the face. He said "Yeah, I'm alright, nothing a little TCP and time can't sort out." He grinned again, a full smile this time, but I wasn't complaining. I was hopelessly in love with this man.

But now he wasn't here. I missed him already. Even though he will never feel the same way, I still love every moment that he walks into a room. No place is complete without him. I could never tell him though. I'm so bad at expressing my feelings. After all, I'm 26 and never even been kissed. At school, I was just freaky science girl who was more often seen in protective goggles and plimsolls than lip gloss and heels. The past never let me go; university did the same, I guess if you have brains then boyfriends and even friends weren't an option. I was so often alone. I never learnt how to interact with boys. Anyone I fancied just shoved me away in disgust, so I gave up. Until I met Danny that was. I don't think Danny would ever treat anyone like that, but I still couldn't cope with him saying he didn't feel the same.

Suddenly, I was jerked out of my thoughts by the machine in front of me blaring into life. Everyone rushed to the site of the anomaly, and all was quiet again.

A while later, Danny returned. My heart swelled, but when he was followed in y a pretty young woman, it went ice cold and threatened to crack. Were they- no. They weren't. This was the mysterious woman from the future that Johnson had kidnapped. So that's where Danny had been this morning! He really did know the meaning of freelance.

But it all went wrong. You know what happened there. But what nobody noticed, as they left to chase after the bitch that had murdered our friend Nick Cutter, was that Danny glanced back at Me and smiled. How he could smile when all that was going on I'll never know. My gut told me something wasn't right, something was coming and that he shouldn't go. But by the time I stepped forward to stop him, he'd already gone.

No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending…

Becker and Sarah returned without the others. They'd gone through the anomaly at the racetrack. After Helen. Into the future. This couldn't be happening… "But surely they've just been delayed!" I exclaimed.

"Maybe," said Becker gravely "We're going to send in a rescue team."

But all rescue attempts failed. Sarah nearly died and many men were lost, and Becker finally decided it was time to stop. "You can't" I told him "You can't just give up on them!" I had been erratic for days since the incident. I no longer cared if people questioned my feelings. But Becker wouldn't budge. "I'm not losing anyone else."

"Well you've lost me."

Those were the last words that came out of my mouth for over a year. I went straight to the computer as Becker and Sarah looked at me in amazement. I retrieved the code for the armoury and went and got a Sig Sauer. All staff had been given basic firearm training in case of emergencies, and ask I stalked out of the ARC, I heard a voice yelling my name. Becker. He could stick his concern. The drive to the racetrack was a bit of a blur, but I found myself soon sitting next to an unlocked anomaly with the barrel of my gun trained on its centre. I blinked back tears of anger and frustration and ignored the protocol-filled babble from the ARC soldier on duty, and when he tried to get me away from the locking mechanism I found my hands swinging the gun into his face. I think he realised I was serious, because he backed away but kept his gun also trained on the anomaly. I was prepared to wait, however long it took, but I needed to make sure it was kept open. Danny needed to be able to get back.

I'd sat there overnight. I had kept the gun close at hand. I was not willing to become a predator's lunch. The guard had changed a few times, each one learning that I was not to be moved, and I had been there 23 hours. I hadn't slept, I hadn't eaten, but I didn't want to. And that's when my world collapsed in on itself, the same way the anomaly did. Without warning, my last chance closed.