Never Enough Time
Title: Never Enough Time
Author: Emma Smith
Rating: K+
Summary: Rory isn't quite sure where these feelings come from, Rory is nearly as oblivious to his feelings as The Doctor is.
Disclaimer: As you probably guessed I am not Steven Moffat, such a sad revelation.
Random Stuff
Rory: Ha, me? And him? Are you crazy?
The Doctor: I have to agree, Emma are you sure you know what you're doing? Of course you don't for the next one thousand words my life is in the hands of a thirteen year old. Isn't this delightful
Me: Oh calm down, sarcasm isn't going to make me stop sarcasm will make me write you without your bowtie
The Doctor: Bowties are cool.
Chapter One
Doctor's P.O.V.
Amy had gone running off again as she usually did. I trusted her though I trusted that she would be able to find her way back in one piece. Amy was smart like that. Rory stood beside me a bit awkwardly, his brown hair getting long now and he had to keep moving his fringe out of his eyes which where the exact shade of blue as Uranus, maybe a little duller but still a striking colour – Wait why am I describing his eyes? Never mind we have work to do here "Right we're in the year 1850 the end of the Victorian era, a very special time – well, I guess you did history you probably know the rest" I laughed and saw Rory look around "Y-you mean we're actually in the 20th Century?" Rory was dumbfounded making his mouth falling open while he stared up at the sky not quite believing it's his own, revealing a very appealing neck-Stop it Doctor! Focus! Was there something or someone you needed to go see? Charles! Of course, How did I forget Charlie! I started walking excitedly with Rory tailing behind "Where's Amy? Aren't you worried?" I laughed "Not in the slightest, she's a smart girl Amy" That's when we saw her talking to the locals, I was glad I made her change into the local costume things would definitely go wrong if she was to wear her usual attire "She's a strange lady that Amy of yours" Rory chuckled in agreement "I think you got something wrong though, it seems I am more hers than she is mine"
It hit me then, It was all Rory, is it all Rory? Why is it all Rory? Ah I'll leave that till later.
Rory's P.O.V.
Why was I stealing glances at this strange man? Who was not from Earth, Jesus from all I knew he could be a Martian. Anyway I was more worried about Amy, what if she got lost? Uhhg, maybe The Doctor's right…maybe I worry too much. I was getting anxious, I had no idea where we were "So…where are we going?" the doctor gave that smile that he gave himself sometimes "We're going to see an old friend of mine"
When we got there I didn't quite recognise who it was but when The Doctor said "Charlie!" I knew exactly who it was but why on god's green Earth would Charles Dickens be a friend of The Doctor's? The raggedy Doctor, with his college professor clothes and bowtie and the childish grin that never seems to leave his lips and, oh, don't get me started on his li-RORY SHUT UP.
Charles was a nice enough guy, bit off the walls though. I guess there really is a fine line between Genius and insanity. I don't know why I'm surprised the Doctor proves this all the time. The way he rambles on about random stuff, I usually zone out when he talks like that just let the hyper voice drone on and on. The Doctor was nearly done here and he only just started to worry about Amy "Where is Amy?" he asked a bit curiously when we couldn't find her. Then I stopped and though "Where's the nearest pub?" The Doctor laughed "Good thinking Rory" he started running and I followed swiftly behind. He really was fast for a…how old was he? Amy says something about nine hundred? He must be so lonely I could never imagine being so old and so alone with no one but us human, RORY you are sympathising with an ALIEN, do you know how weird that is? Nearly as weird as talking to yourself! I should know.
The Doctor abruptly stopped in his tracks and I ran straight into the back of him, blushing like mad I stepped away and hastily apologized "What is that?" he asked, a weird tone to his voice.
Doctor's P.O.V.
But this human man, how could he? Why would he? "What is what?" Rory said too quickly, the blush still visible on his pale skin "That, You! You're blushing!" Rory's cheeks turned scarlet at this, It was rather…pretty I guess is the word humans would use for it. In a moment of madness I grabbed his collar "What is the meaning of this? The last time I had these thoughts were of…someone special, another human. A chav really but special none the less. Why am I having these feelings again? They hurt so much before, the pain still hasn't gone. Do you know what a heartbreak feels like?" Rory shook his head so I continued "You can't explain it, those books, those pathetic books that say it's like a void like there is something missing. They're wrong, it's so much more than that, I could explain it in my own language but in English it seems they don't quite the words to explain a heart break. Alone is pretty close, alone and cold and I am never going back to that" I shoved him off and walked away, already feeling the familiar sting.
I will not cry.
I Will not cry.
I will not cry!
Goddammit, why does this always happen! These human feelings are so…obnoxious.
Rory's P.O.V.
I stood there, right in that spot where the Doctor told me about that girl, about heart breaks and I think I understand what he meant, I could feel it coming on, this crashing feeling of being alone. When I have so many people around me why do I feel so alone? Why do I feel as if I was pathetic and stupid and that…and that I meant nothing that I mean nothing why is there never enough time before the first heartbreak! So yeah, I stood there and I cried. I told myself vehemently not to but it seems my brain will not respond to my commands. I guess my brain isn't in control right now…my heart is and my heart wants to make me aware that these tears are the only warmth I shall feel in a long time.
Damn that raggedy doctor. Damn this heartbreak. Damn my obliviousness. Damn everything. I just want to disappear, hide under a rock and never leave. I'll only be as alone as I feel right now.
A/N: Ahh my first Eleven/Rory one. I wanted it to be good and I don't know. I like it but what do you guys think? :)
