And So, I say…Goodbye…

Summary: Griffith's thoughts in his feeble state (leads up to the eclipse) my words not the manga or anime's words but sort of similar.

Disclaimer: I don't own berserk but if i did the manga releases would be quicker.

The Rescue Part 1

"He left, he left the hawks, he left...me…"

"As I wallow in this unending darkness the pain of my body from the constant torture of the king's servant slowly fades away as does my sanity, or have I already lost all the sanity I once retained. I think of the one who I once thought of as a mere pawn that cast me into this darkness, but he is also the one keeping me alive with the thought of him. I think of the things that I lost and the pain that I gained from that encounter on that snow day."

That was the day I realized what he meant to me, he was …a friend…

But now what, what am I now just a husk yes that's the right word a husk. When I look back at the way I was before I almost will myself to cry. To think I Sir Griffith leader of the Band of the Hawk and general of the Midland Army who was once loved and revered by everyone and the one who was closest the throne of the king was reduced to a cripple who can't even walk, raise an arm or even talk. I find it funny that the mouth that used to spout words of such grander and hope is now empty with no tongue to form even the simplest words. My thoughts slowly fade as the darkness that I have been trying to fight slowly takes over my sights and just like that I am unconscious.

GRIFFITH! The voice resounds in my head crashing through the thick fog that covered my thoughts. And so I opened my eyes and when I did everything came rushing back the pain, the sorrow, the hatred, the love, the envy and the feeling of friendship. Guts! My thoughts said loud and clear braking though any of the barriers that I had set up in my mind. The overwhelming feeling of hatred so intense shook me and drew my hand to his neck as if to choke him but even if I wanted to I did not even have enough strength in my body to grip his neck, but as soon as the hatred came it left and it was replaced by a sense of relief and what's this happiness? I never thought that I would ever be able to feel like this again after shutting off my feelings like I did and for the first time that I spent prison I fell into a peaceful sleep in his arms.