Dear Mrs. Cullen, I know that is not yet an accurate address but tomorrow when I show you this letter it will be. For now perhaps I should simply say my dearest and most beloved Bella.

As I sit here in my room, waiting for you, waiting for tomorrow to come, I find myself thinking back. I remember the first time I laid eyes on you. You were pale enough to be taken for one of us if it weren't for the life pulsing through you. I could see, smell, sense the blood in your veins, your heartbeat and the warmth of your skin. But, intriguingly, your mind was silent, unreachable.

I want you to know about the first time I kissed you. I felt your pulse quicken and the blood pounding beneath your skin. It was the strangest sensation for me. I felt love, desire, the softness of your skin, the warmth of your lips and the way you responded to me but beneath that was something else something that I could barely control. I wanted to devour every scrap of you. It was more than hunger, more than a thirst for your blood I needed to consume you and make you part of my body. I know that you have never feared me that you are unshakeable in the belief that I would never harm you but, oh my love, I came so close.

Since that moment you have delighted and terrified me in equal measure. Your beauty and your spirit, your strength of character and your compassion have brought me joy. Your fragility and your determination to get yourself into trouble at every opportunity have made me terribly afraid that I would lose you. Lose my best reason for going on in this world.

Your death would be my death my dearest Bella. You have carved a hole in my heart and fitted yourself into it so precisely and so neatly that I can no longer find the join.

I no longer have the strength to fight you, I need you more than I can ever express in mere words. So when the time comes for me to take your life and give you a new one as one of us, I will do it with a heavy heart but in the certainty that you will be mine forever and that nothing will ever part us.

I remain your faithfu, lovingl and willing servant.

Edward Cullen.