A/N- Hey guys so I've just finished watching Gypsy and I am obsessed with it!
I really hope that things change and they give it it's well deserved second season.
So anyway, here's my version of what I think happened after Sidney saw Jean/Diane at the school.
Hope you all enjoy it, let me know what you think.
Reviews are always appreciated.
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TRUST IS LIKE A MIRROR
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Sidney watched as Diane-Jean-whoever she was, noticed her standing at the side.
Her eyes took on a look of shock, surprise, horror and then... did the brunette see a glimpse of relief?
She couldn't be sure and to be honest she didn't know what to do as she stared at the woman she had feelings for.
Sidney took a seat among the audience, there was a spare chair just next to where she'd been standing.
She listened to the blonde talk about bullies and how you should stand up to them. It got more hypocritical as she went on; things she said ran in the complete opposite direction to how this woman lived her life.
She said things like 'Be yourself' and 'don't be pretend to be someone you're not', she did all of those things and more.
Sidney felt tears spring to her eyes.
She's a liar and she lied to you. Her brain told her.
Sidney waited for the speech to end and only left when everyone started clapping.
She wondered at the time, if she should stand up, call this woman out on her bullshit and have everyone know exactly what she was like and what she'd been up to.
But she couldn't...despite everything Diane-Jean- had done to her, she just couldn't bring herself to ruin this woman's life and it was that more than anything, that she hated about all of this.
She had almost made it to the end of the street when she heard a familiar voice call out to her.
"Sidney!"
The brunette stopped and rolled her eyes.
"Sidney, wait!"
She turned around as she heard Jean jog up behind her.
Sidney didn't bother to hide the fact that she'd been crying, which earned her an unwanted look of sympathy from the older woman.
Sidney decided it wasn't worth it and turned back around, walking back down the street.
"Sidney, I'm sorry-I know that I've hurt you-"
The younger woman turned around, her eyes wide with anger.
"You have no idea how much you've hurt me! Don't even pretend to act like you know what I'm going through because you are not the one who just got fucked with."
Jean opened her mouth to say something, then closed it.
What could she say?
There was nothing that she could say that would justify anything that she'd done.
"I know what I did was wrong...but Sidney, I'm not fucking with you." Jean said carefully, she knew that anything she said in that moment could send the girl into a blinding rage.
"Yes you are! I mean for chrissakes' Jean, you have a family! That girl isn't your niece... she's your daughter! Do you realize how fucked up that is!"
Jean nodded, keeping her head down.
"You have to know that I still care about you, Sidney. I know that what's happened isn't ideal but-"
"Ideal? Can you even hear yourself right now? You lied to me! You gave me a fake name, a fake apartment, you lied about everything! I loved someone called Diane but that's not even who you are!"
"No, it is me! Sidney, I feel more like myself when I'm with you than anyone else!"
"Then why lie?! Why make me feel-" Sidney stopped herself and clenched her teeth, trying to calm herself down.
Jean licked her lips and took hold of Sidney's hand.
"Listen to me-"
Sad hazel eyes looked up and Jean saw all the hurt and disappointment that she'd caused right there standing in front of her.
"At first, I was living out some kinda fantasy but then I got to know you-the real you- and I...I don't know, I started to really like you, probably more than I should."
Sidney wasn't buying any of this. How could you believe anything a liar told you?
"Would you leave him?"
Jean frowned, momentarily confused.
"What?"
"Michael. Would you leave him?"
Jean stammered at the question.
"Well...I mean, I-I don't-"
"If you were so into me, then you would leave him, right?"
Jean let out a breath and her eyes locked with Sidney's as she still held her hand.
"It's complicated."
Sidney ripped her hand from Jean's.
"Oh fuck you." She muttered as she started walking away again.
"I still want you, Sid!"
The brunette ignored the older woman as she walked away, fresh tears spilling down her face.
Sidney slammed the door shut behind her and tossed her keys onto the table.
Raking her hands through her hair and groaning in a mixture of emotional pain and disappointment-maybe something more than that- she sank to her knees and cried hard.
"I trusted you! I loved you and you lied to me! You fucking bitch!" She screamed into the apartment. She didn't care who heard her, only that she could scream like this and try to get it out of her system, although she feared that she never would, not really.
She looked at that the bed they had had sex in.
She looked at the couch where Jean had made her undress for her; called her perfect, 'fucking perfect' to be precise.
She glared at the floor where they had sat and asked each other for the truth, no lies, no cover ups.
She had lied about everything and Sidney had lapped it up like a cat with a saucer of milk.
Jean must have been laughing at her the entire time.
Sidney shook her head, crying even harder than she had before.
Her phone buzzed in her pocket and with shaky hands and blurry eyes she checked the caller ID.
Diane, only it wasn't Diane.
It was Jean.
Jean who had a family, who had a surburban home, a proper job, the fucking liar who had destroyed Sidney's image of the perfectly wild Diane.
A woman who Sidney had come to feel a great deal for.
Sidney wanted to chuck her phone out the window or smash it on the floor with the heel of her hand.
Instead she answered it, her hand shaking as she pressed the accept button.
She didn't say anything, she waited for Jean to speak first.
"Sidney? Can we talk?"
Sidney tried to steady her voice, to get it under control but it was proving difficult.
She tried anyway.
"I don't want you to call me ever again, do you understand?" She said calmly but her voice was shaking.
"Sid, please-"
"Do you understand?" She repeated a little firmer this time.
"If that's what you want."
Sidney had hoped that Jean would fight for her a little more but it seemed like now the secret was out, Jean was perfectly content to go back to living her perfect vanilla life.
"Goodbye Jean."
Sidney hung up and put her phone on the table.
She undressed and slipped into bed, exhausted from all the crying she had done but as she drifted off to sleep, all she dreamt about...was Jean.
A/N- Hope you guys liked the first chapter, even if it was a little short. There's more to come, believe me ;)
Let me know what you think.
Sidney is about to be pulled into a risky game but it's not like she hasn't been there before.
