12/09/2018

Hello! New here! Name is Rose. Nice to meet you all.

This idea came to me recently. I am still trying to find a name for it...

Disclaimer: I do not own the vampire diaries.

19/09/2018

To Build a Home is a song by The Cinematic Orchestra.

Disclaimer: I do not own the vampire diaries and the song 'To Build a Home'


Chapter 1: I built a home, …

I took a step back.

I tripped over nothing and fell on my butt. My hands scraped the ground. I closed my eyes for a moment. It stung.

My heartbeat rose. My breathing changed patterns. It was more and more irregular. The panic was building and… I was beginning to choke on air. Tears pricked at the corner of my eyes. I had difficulty to swallow. My throat was closing around an imaginary bubble. It would explode in a second, I knew it. It wasn't the first panic attack I had had.

I tried to control my breathing but… my mind was swirling with images of what was beyond my shut eyes.

Green green forest. Blue blue sky. No rain in sight. No Hausmann building in sight. No roads nor people. People! My eyes snapped opened.

My mind stopped panicking for a second as I searched around for people. For life. I ran in the forest trying to make sense of where I stood.

Where was I?

I flopped down on the ground when before me was something that should not have reassured me but with my crazy imagination and my faithful mantra 'anything can happen' did. Road. Tarmac. I breathed a sigh of relief.

I stood on shaky legs. Not a minute ago I was in full panic attack mode after all. I almost thought of kissing the tarmac like Maximus in Gladiator. Smelling the sand of his homeland. I restrained myself, embarrassed about where my thoughts had gone.

I decided I would walk down the road until I found a car, a person or a sign, any sign that could reassure me. Something that could point me back home. Here on the side of the road was not home. Here was Stranger. And, as the saying says, stranger danger. Was it really a saying? I shrugged my shoulders, why would this matter? There was a more important to discuss.

How had I gotten there?

I do not remember. I did not feel groggy from sleep. I felt more than fine actually… wait no… I was hurt and lost. I was not fine. I was…

There it went again. A part of me wondered where it had hidden all this time? Hello, panic. Do not bruise me to hard okay! I still need to function relatively well. You know? To walk straight. Because I am… lost. Because I… need to go back home.

« Oh my god. I can't. » I hiccuped.

The bubble had popped. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. My hands trembled as I tried to hide in them. The scratches did not help.

Just seeing them freed another hiccup. « ow… »

It seemed like an hour since I was walking down the road. I had not seen anything and I was complementing the unthinkable. That is what happens no? When you are left stranded in… nowhere.

I shivered in my clothes. Clothes. I had not thought of what I was currently wearing. I pressed my hand against my chest, just over my heart in relief. I was wearing jeans, ballerinas and a t-shirt. That explained the cold I felt. I checked my pockets, patting them front and back. My back pocket was full.

Huh… I took out the black rectangular I cherished. The screen was cracked. Might have crushed when I had fallen. I turned it on in hoped I had 4G or any sort of answer. Maybe GPS? After a while, the black screen finally disappeared and the Huawei jingle welcomed me inside my phone. I entered my pin, my password. I glanced briefly at the battery… shit. 38% left.

« Damn it all! »

I checked if I had any bars. One.

« Fuck! »

I activated the GPS and went on Gmaps. I begged that it would help me. It dinged. I looked at the pop-up. 14% of battery.

« Hey! It's been what? A minute. You… »

I rushed to swipe left and right. The map was charging. Come on. Come on. The map appeared and my position too. And…

I stopped breathing. I am sure my heart stopped too. My eyes bugged out of their sockets. Holy… please, please, please. Anything but this. How was I to go home if I had to cross the ocean?

« Tell me! » I screamed at the sky.

If anyone had passed by at that moment he or she would look at me with big round eyes. Rounder then mine. I was cursing at the clear sky. If anyone had passed at this moment I might have kissed them as I would in another life kissed the tarmac.

The phone dinged again bringing me out of my showdown with God's kingdom. I had just enough time to look upon my phone as it said it was turning off because of low battery.

My left eyebrow lifted in challenge waiting for the screen to miraculously appear again.

« Well, I am officially unlucky. Great! » I looked back at the sky. « Are you happy? » It did not respond and I sighed in disappointment. I would have loved to see it growl its thunder at me. It would have been satisfying to see the exact weather of where I had been… what? An hour ago? It seemed I sighted a lot as another breath left my lips in a puff. I had not signed up for this. Of course, the question that is soooo common comes finally.

« Why me? »


AN: Where is she? any guesses?

In general… what are your thoughts?