Chapter 1
Pairing: Initially Kakashi x Naruto, but later turns to Sasuke x Naruto
Rating: T, but will eventually turn into M at some point
Warnings: AU, some OOC
A/N: This is an unbetaed fanfic. I don't want to say that this is a shounen-ai/yaoi fanfic, but I'm sure somebody will flame at me soon, so I'll say it now. This fanfic is based on homosexual, extremely human, love. If you do not like and/or cannot tolerate this type of love, then you probably shouldn't read this story. But for those who wants to, please enjoy!
"Well, that's that. I knew guys like him weren't for me", Naruto said to himself.
A very likable, luminous guy compared to a lazy pessimistic like me, huh. What a great pair we made. But at least I'm getting used to using past tense now.
In his fuzzy, white pajama pants and olive green long-sleeve, the blond haired boy stood leaning on the rails out on his apartment's balcony with freezing cold toes. But instead of going inside to sleep on his once warm bed, he is still staring at the dark sky that shows no shining stars, only one full moon. It's probably around midnight, since everyone in the neighborhood is silent, he thought.
It was such a sight that Uzumaki Naruto was making, despite his usually loud personality among his peers. His heart grieves, yet he isn't crying. It's weird, I should be bawling my eyes out by now, Naruto laughed in his mind. I didn't even drink alcohol for the past week to lock aside my sorrow. Just burying myself in homework was enough. It's a good thing I'm still in college. At least I have somewhere to run back to.
Breaking it off with Kakashi Hatake was rough on the teen. Naruto had caught his lover kissing a girl with curves that fill in at all the right places, and just the perfect height to touch his chin and gaze into his eyes. Well shit, sorry for not being seductive, the blonde remarked. I guess a male can't outdo a woman.
He had been walking to a bookstore he had not visited for a while, and while crossing the street, a sight of silver hair met his blue eyes, with a strong punch of shock.
At first, I felt nothing... Then I was consumed with rage, and finally despair, hurt, and confusion all at the same time. Why couldn't I just feel one feeling at a time?
My first thought was that if he was going to cheat on me, at least do it at a place where I can't catch him. Save my heart some room to rest, would you.
And then it turned to things like 'how could he do that?' and 'didn't he say he loves me, and only me, his lover?' and 'didn't he say he wanted us to be together forever?'
I felt empty, then. I realized that they were lies. Why would he love somebody like me? I mean, me, of all people.
There are others way better than me. I'm just a kid who can't understand him well enough. I didn't need that image of that bitch to understand. I already knew.
I fell for his sweet words like some kid in puppy love. Give me a fucking break.
After Naruto saw what had happened, he went on to his classes like usual. On his way back to school, he figured that life goes on and time will not stop for anyone.
He didn't send me a single text. No calls. Nothing. Well, this was his last chance. I'm done being nice, Naruto thought after checking his phone for the last time before his Biology class.
After his professor dismissed everyone, Naruto whipped out his phone once more, and sent his now ex-lover a message saying "It's over".
Simple and clear, so don't take it too personally, darling. He smirked as he ended his 9 months relationship with the man he fell in head-over-heels love with.
It's time for a new beginning, Naruto resolved.
It was a good thing that Naruto's and Kakashi's only communication that was face-to-face was school. They never met anywhere else, since they both wanted to finish college in less than 4 years, so they took lots of classes each day. Although in Naruto's case, he was running on a scholarship for low-incomes. Unlike him, Kakashi simply wanted to get school over with as soon as he can. They didn't feel the need to see each other elsewhere, after all, they already see each other for more than seven hours each day.
Another good thing is the fact that Naruto was living in an apartment. If it was a dorm, he wouldn't be able to move to somewhere new.
That's right. Naruto moved to a new apartment that was near his college, and got a part time job along with it. Take that for a resolve! thought Naruto. I'll move onwards! If I can survive this shit, I can get through anything! As if luck was pouring charms onto him, Naruto found a very handsome next door neighbor with silky black hair who was taller than him by about two inches. His skin was clear and looked soft, and his deep raven eyes were piercing. Wow, I think the Gods are on my side now, Naruto noted shockingly. He doesn't really seem like the friendly type who would be your friend easily, but oh well. What if he goes to the same university as me? I would've noticed a nice face like this on campus though... weird.
Not only did Naruto moved, he also changed his phone and number. He decided to reward himself with a new phone, but it was mostly because his two-year contract came to an end. Kakashi was the kind of guy who would send Naruto tons of messages if he was in a good or bad mood. Kakashi gave Naruto the attention he wanted, as Naruto had so much energy to provide a person with a week's stamina. So, another thing that Naruto was glad about is the fact that there will be no more over-texting bills.
Surprisingly, Naruto was fine. He had little to no contact with Kakashi, if it wasn't for his phone, school, or apartment. Kakashi sometimes would go to Naruto's house and stay with him until morning. It was pleasant for the blonde to wake up with his arms and legs entangled with his lover. But that was history now. Now I'll have to get accustomed to waking up without a human heat pad... Naruto sighed.
Ah... What time is it now? I should be going to bed soon, Naruto yawned. I have a late afternoon class tomorrow, so whatever. I'll catch up on sleep.
He walked into his new bedroom, closed the body size glass windows to his balcony, and jumped onto his bed. It smells like... newly bought mattress, Naruto concluded. It doesn't smell like Kakashi's body anymore. No! No! No! Get over this. Now. And that was the last straw, Naruto grabbed three pillows that were on his bed, put one under his head, one between his legs, and one to hug. He eventually fell into deep sleep, snoring softly, secretly hoping that things will be better when he wakes.
