Hello there! Just gonna put something I've been thinking about for a while now. You see, I thought it would be interesting to have a fanfic about Natsu's thoughts with Zeref revealing the truth to him. I searched up all the other stories about Natsu committing suicide because Lucy or some other girl rejected him and I'm just really disgusted.

I like NaLu and a lot of other pairings with Natsu in it (I don't really stick to one) but that's just really OOC for Natsu to do. It's not him at all to try and kill himself over some girl. He'd cry a lot and be depressed for a long time, but he definitely won't kill himself.

Just getting it out of my system, sorry for the rant.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

This might be an oneshot or two-shot depending on whether I have the time to write.


Just a little more. An inch or two closer, and it'll be done.

A quick slice on his throat, a thin slit opening on his left carotid artery. It'll be easy; a quick flick of the wrist and both the internal and external vessels will be severed.

It'll hurt for only a second when the blood started to gush out, but soon unconsciousness will take over from the lack of blood flowing to the brain.

That's all it will take to erase all of his guilt and finally atone for all his sins.

If I only I was stronger, he told himself.

If only I had held on for even a little bit longer.

It was cynical thoughts like these that drove Natsu to the point of insanity.

Guilt ate at his heart as blood streamed out of his eyes. Uncontrollable sobs would burst out of his mouth whenever he thought about how he was the reason for this war.

So he was careful not to do so in front of his friends.

Natsu stared at the intricate knife that rested in his palm.

His eyes trailed those golden swirls that surrounded the clean silver of the blade.

So sharp and deadly.

This beautiful object will be the one to end my life, Natsu mused.

He smiled serenely as he lifted the edge of the blade to his neck.

Tilting it at a diagonal angle, for the carotid arteries were certainly not in the immediate front or on side of the neck, Natsu applied pressure.

He took in a sharp breath as he felt a bead of crimson blood drip out.

Just a little more, he told himself, a little more pressure.

And with a swift and clean precision, Natsu sliced the veins in his neck.

Instantly, he collapsed on his side, gasping for air from the pain. Mahogany ichor pooled around him, staining the floor a blissful red.

Black started to fill Natsu's vision and the pain started to dull.

Eyes half closed, Natsu struggled to let out a small sigh of satisfaction.

So the end is near, huh?

Natsu wished that he could look out the window once more, but the windows were unfortunately adjacent to the door.

The door that he had is back to.

Natsu contemplated turning his head to look, but decided against it. His vision was nearly gone now, and his consciousness had waned to the point that he could barely even twitch his pinky finger.

I'm sorry Gray for Deliora. I'm sorry Erza for the Tower of Heaven. I'm sorry Lucy for your mother. I'm sorry Mavis.

Forgive me, Onii-san.

And his eyes slid closed.


I hope you liked. As you can see here, there are quite a bit of spoilers for the manga. I put a note in the description, so don't be an asshole in the review section saying that I spoiled Fairy Tail for you.

My bet is that the manga is going to end in tragedy (because the thing with Mavis and Zeref and a bunch of other characters is undoubtedly a tragedy). Rather, Mashima meant for Fairy Tail to be a tragedy, not your typical fighting Romcom (ok only sometimes) shonen manga.

So I think the best description would be the love child of a watered down Tokyo Ghoul (including TG:re) and Bleach (if Yhwach wasn't so shitty).

This really just something I needed to get out of my mind (and admittedly a new Natsu suicide story) because whenever I try to write a new chapter of Our Last Hope I end up thinking about this and can't focus.

Please Review :D