Intertwined


No matter what reality we live in,

either time or alternate reality,

our outcome will always be the same.


Why did he come here of all places?

Subaru ran his fingers through his hair and sighed, his vision never leaving the cherry blossom in front of him. Green eyes, once shinning and full of life, now clouded over with loneliness and a feeling he couldn't quite point out.

This place held the best and worst memories for him. Whenever he was here, he was either at his worst or at his best, either black or white and never, ever gray. For him there never seemed to be an in-between, a happy middle. It was either all he had or nothing at all, a thrilling yet sad way to live your life. Sparks of admiration and love were never sparks, only like a raging fire, either burning brightly or completely smoked out.

He didn't always think like that, live like that.

It was funny, yet disheartening how one man could completely change the way you perceived things or even how you felt them.

One side of his lip turned up slightly at an old memory.

"No matter what, no matter where you go, you will always belong to me, Subaru. Your heart belongs to me, and I'm the only one aloud to love you or destroy you." The man once told him that confidently. "But I will never love you, I'll never truly be yours. Can you live with that?"

Though only a memory, it was as vivid as it was the day he told him that. The colors of once vibrant world were exceptionally bright that day, the unusually warm spring day only set the mood. He didn't believe his words back then and brushed them off and forgot about them.

What a fool he was to think they were nothing more than words, words he thought he could change and turn around to the opposite of what they truly meant.

The cool spring breeze whipped his hair around as the cherry blossoms danced around his figure and away, far away.

He subconsciously wrapped his arms around his slim figure, the wind sending a chill down his spine, though whether it was the wind or the thought of the betrayal that made him shiver wasn't known. His mind was too focused on that one man.

Seishirou Sakurazaku.

His college professor and his ex-lover.

His mind still couldn't grasp why he was betrayed and thrown aside so easily, as if he was nothing more than toy that took years and years of abuse, only to be tossed to the side when something new took its place.

Their relationship was a lot like that, and for the most part it was one-sided. He wanted to believe otherwise and fooled himself into thinking different, but in the end he meant nothing.

Of course, he knew Seishirou had someone on the side, he just chose to ignore it, to believe that his love was enough. But that was a naive and foolish thought, and even after five years he still couldn't forget that cold-blooded man.

Every year around the same time he came to the place they first met, right under the cherry blossom.

Yet he never saw him again.

"I guess love just isn't enough, is it, Seishirou? Why am I so hopeless, why can't I forget you already?" His grip tightened. "Why, dammit?"

A damned idiot.

"Do you want to know why, Subaru?"

A gust of wind stormed by without warning, and if Subaru didn't turn around to see who owned that voice, he would have thought it to be the wind playing tricks on him.

"S-Seishirou?"

The man named Seishirou could only mischievously smile.

You and these cherry blossoms will forever trap me.


It's because shadow and light are two sides of the same coin,

because they cannot live without each other,

is also why they cannot live with each other.