A/N: Disclaimer- I do not own Kannazuki no Miko. Also please do not be discouraged so quickly from this first chapter, it will get less depressing... eventually.

Warnings: Thoughts of suicide (feels like an antidepressant commercial here)


That simple yet complex day seemed to be almost everything she may have ever longed for in a lifetime. During that day the sun shown horribly bright and almost painfully on even the most blind of eyes, just urging them to reconsider any thought of entering out into the "normal" world. Somehow she had managed to slip past, only to be later caught in an even worse position than any other.

As she began her long and enduring journey to the temporary place of imprisonment, she was once again caught up in a rather difficult predicament. Lately her thoughts had gone wild; so bad they were that every time she thought, she would have to stop in worry of endangering her sanity. Never did she ever believe that she might be trapped in a situation like this. She was caught between the choices of a life that, each time a grain of sand would fall, would be engulfed with complete regret and a permanent solution that would lead her to the place forever unknown to all of human kind. As of now her choice was quite obvious, the easier way out always seemed to be the most.

"Only a few more days," she would continue to tell herself, "maybe then my mind may be in a better place. If only I had some other way out…" Throughout her entire walk (she insisted on walking instead of getting the usual ride) she would repeat this many times inside of her barely capable mind. "What have I done to put myself in this place?" she would wonder.

Slowly she inched closer to her target, her imprisonment, her temporary distraction, the only thing that would keep her alive. Her legs began to feel numb; in fact they felt so numb that if you were to take a hammer, perhaps, and hit either of them, she would not have twitched. Yet, onward she continued, onward towards the all those horrid people that stressed her so far as to make her consider death over living.

Apathetic she was as all the shouts directed towards her for some hope of a bit of attention were ignored. "Himemiya-sama!" or even "Miya-sama" they all shouted but she really could not care. In a few more days she would not have to deal with them, so why not make it easier and start now? With each attempt they would make, her sanity dropped even lower.

"This world does not care for me. It merely banishes me at every chance it can. All these people are fakes, only clinging onto me in hope of getting notices by someone of the opposite sex. Foolish they all are!" she thought as a sly smile spread across her face. "But I suppose for today I must put on a show once again. If they discover my plan, they may try to stop me."

The school day seemed to just float past. Each hour past by at an incredibly slow pace but finally it was time for lunch and she knew just where she would be spending her time, the rose garden. Little did she know what would happen next…