Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Twilight despite how cool that would be :) Stephenie Meyer does

Okay, This is my first fanfic so don't be too cruel please. I've been reading Twilight fanfics on here for a while now and with some of them i noticed that Bella will get over Edward in the first chapter and then she'll dive into bed with Jacob. I don't like that cos it's all too quick and in most cases kinda unrealistic. I just wanted a go at writing cos i'm sure there are others out there who think like me too, and hopefully i can satisfy them with my realistic fanfic :)

I mega appreciate anyone who reads this and i'm sorry if you see it's many flaws and don't like, this just keeps me amused for a while :D

Kuyenne


My legs felt like jelly. What was I doing? I looked over the cliff face and my head started to spin. My legs gave in and I collapsed to the ground gasping for even the smallest amount of air. The sobs started to pour out of my body and I placed my head between my hands.

Was i going crazy? I was seriously considering jumping off a cliff to hear the voice of my ex-boyfriend in my head. The sobs turned into a full crying fit now. I was cold and wet, the rain was stinging my face. I thought about getting up, heading towards my truck. Maybe sitting in it for a while before driving home. But then i thought about how i'm in no state to drive. My tears blurred my vision too much and my arms were shaking too much to hold my head still let alone keep my truck on the road.

I just sat there. Staring at the ocean. The waves were fierce now. If i had jumped i could have died. And i couldnt leave everyone now. I couldnt leave Charlie, I couldn't leave Renne. And theres no way i could leave Jacob. He's been there for me when no one else has. I need him.

"Bella?" My body tensed at the sound of my name. I instantly recognised the voice and a wave of relieif swept over me.

" Bells, what the hell are you doing out here?"

"I...I..." was all i could get out, i was shaking more then i realised. Suddenly a massive pair of arms scooped me off the ground. Thats what i loved about Jacob. He was so warm. I couldnt get any closer to his skin. I buried my face in his neck as i felt him carry me to my truck. He placed me in the passengers side and jogged round to the drivers.

The vibrations of my truck sent me to sleep. The last thing i felt was Jacobs arm snake round my side pulling my closer to his chest.


I woke up in my usual bed. I looked around despretly trying to find Jacob but he wasn't here. He must of brought me here and put me in bed. The hands on my clock read 7:35. Charlie should be back by now and he must be wanting dinner. I crawled out of bed and put on the nearest thing to me i could find. Putting on my clothes i reallised. Who undressed me? I was stood in my undies and a jumper that was much too big for me, it must have been Jacob's. I kept the jumper on and just put on some pants. Charlie wouldnt care what i looked like.

My legs were still a bit shakey walking down the stairs but i didnt collapse. Which to be honest, was a miracle for me.

It wasn't Charlie's voice i heard in the kitchen. It was Jacob's. He seemed to be on the phone, I assumed with Billy. I stood at the bottom of the stairs for a bit, contemplating whether or not to enter the kitchen. I looked a mess, but i dont think Jacob would mind, he's seen me worse. I'd have to explain to him why i was at the cliff, but i wouldn't have to tell him the whole truth. No. I'm a terrible liar.

Just as i turned around to walk up the stairs to my room I was thrown over Jacob's shoulder.

"Jake! What the hell! put me down!"

"Nah i'm good ta"

I couldn't see Jacobs expression but i knew he was grinning to himself.

"Jacob please!"

Jacob let out a huge sigh and chucked me on the sofa. I hit my head slightly on the arm of the sofa and brought my hand up to my head to rub the pain away. The whole sofa shook as Jacob threw himself next to me squeezing me in a hug.

" So then stupid, are you going to tell me why you were in the pouring rain on top of a cliff?"

I brought myself to look at his face. He truely was breathtaking. The expression on his face was very questioning, trying to make me answer him. His eyes had a hint of sadness in them, i probably had him worried. My eyes wondered away from his and i found myself staring at his chest. His whole body was perfect. Every muscle perfecly defined.

He brought his hand to my chin to lift my face up to his.

" Bella?" I knew he was looking for an answer. I couldnt tell him the truth. "Oh i wanted to jump. To get that rush of adreneline to hear HIS voice in my head. Messed up right?" No. Of course i couldnt tell him that.

"I...I just wanted to think alone. I was just driving and i liked the view" I tilted my head down but kept my eyes on his waiting to see if he'd take the lie.

I was suprised when he laughed. " You're a terrible liar ya know Bells. But if you don't want to tell me, it's cool with me. Just don't do it again, kay? If you had fallen i don't know what i would have done without my girl" He winked at the last bit. I rolled my eyes. It's never been a secret that he likes me. He knows i can't return the feelings he wants me to but for some reason he's fine with that.

My thoughts were rudely interupted by my stomach churning in hunger.

"Hungry much?"

I looked sheepishly at Jacob nodding. He took my hand and walked to me the kitchen. Why i couldn't walk without the help i don't know but he seemed happy to do so.

We just sat there for what felt like hours. Helping ourselves to the pizza i had put in the oven. Of course Jacob needed another put in to cook. How Billy affords to feed this boy is beyond me.

Jacob was just so easy to talk to. The conversation needed no effort to continue and if it came to a hault it was never arkward. It was easy.

Jacob told me how Charlie was out with Billy fishing and probably wont be back till morning. Charlie didn't have work tomorow so he needn't worry.

When it was time for Jacob to leave i felt a sudden drop to my mood. I didnt want him to leave. It felt right with him here.

I walked him to the door before he embraced me with a massive bear hug.

"Hmm.. Jake.. Kinda need to breathe" I felt him chuckle around me as he released me but only enough to see my face.

" See ya tomorow right?"

"Right" I nodded. I see him nearly everyday, so i wasn't sure why he'd need to ask me.

I didn't know what to do with myself once he was gone. I had done all my homework and Charlie wasn't here to feed so i just went up to my room and collapsed into bed removing my pants in the process. I had forgotten to ask Jacob why i wasn't fully dressed earlier.

My clock read 9:55. Still a bit early to sleep but as soon as my head hit the pillow i was unconsious.


Okay, I know I'm not the best writter in the world and I also know about my many grammer mistakes, spelling mistakes and punctuation mistakes. To be honest I can't be bothered with them. If you get the jist of the story i'm happy :)

Also, I know the first chapter was slow because i wanted it that way :) i didnt want to go too quickly like other fanfics do

Reviews would be appreciated but i'm not fussed :) They'd probably be bad anyway XD haha

Anything nice to say would be cool though :)

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