To You, From Me

I am sorry.

The first ten years were lonely.

The first ten years were painful.

Fighting, yelling, hitting is okay.

Crying in the corner is my first memory

But then I met you.

You taught me how to love,

You taught me to trust

For once in my life, I felt okay.

Your smile, your laugh

Like a ray of sunshine to me

You were my light in the storm

The eye of the hurricane

My lifeline when I was about to drown.

When things got rough you took my hand

And you led me home.

You made me vulnerable

But it made me strong.

I feared so much that you would hate me

Raised how I was,

I had no choice.

But you accepted me, you collected me

Stitched together the seams in me

That I thought would forever be torn.

Every memory we shared together

Is here within my heart

And I am sorry for the price you paid

You paid for my mistakes.

In a flash of green, you hit the ground

Because you were in his way

And when I found you, lying there

I held you in my arms

But you were gone

I fell to my knees

And I cried.

I am broken beyond repair

But I seek redemption.

Now I will protect your son

And someday I may die for him

I see you in him, every day.

I am sorry.

To James, from Sirius.

To Lily, from Severus.