The Man I Want to Be…..
When I heard this song by Chris Young, I could just see thought like this going through Morgan's mind as he prayed in church. This takes place during the episode "Penelope."
Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or this song.
God I'm down here on my knees
Cause it's the last place left to fall
Beggin' for another chance
If there's any chance at all
That you might still be listenin'
Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me
Morgan was sitting on the church pew thinking about life, more importantly, his life and where he wanted it to go. He knew deep in his heart that he already knew one of the answers, but after his remarks to his Baby Girl regarding the new guy she had met, he knew that he needed her forgiveness. Little did Morgan realize that the exact time that he was talking to God, that his one love was fighting for her life.
I've spent my whole life gettin' it all wrong
And I sure could use your help just from now on
I wanna be a good man
A do like I should man
I wanna be the kind of man the mirror likes to see
I wanna be a strong man
And admit that I was wrong man
God I'm askin' you to come change me
Into the man I wanna be
Penelope was on the operating table, blood pouring out of her bullet wound. The doctors could not find the bleeder. As her life flashed before her eyes, she could not help but think just how much of her life now revolved around Derek Morgan. He was her one true love, but would he ever recognize it. Maybe,,, maybe not?
If there's any way for her and me to make another start
Could you see what you could do
To put some love back in her heart
Cause it gonna to take a miracle
After all I've done to really make her see
Morgan stood up from his knees with a sense of peace. It was then that he realized that he had put his phone of silence in the church. He panicked when he saw so many mixed messages. As soon as he heard the first message regarding Garcia being shot, he raced as fast as he could to the hospital. He was silently praying for God to keep her alive. He could not fail her now.
Well I know this late at night that talk is cheap
But Lord don't give up on me yeah
I wanna be a givin' man
I wanna really start livin' man
God I'm askin' you to come change me
Into the man I wanna be
Morgan was there when she opened her eyes. The love that he felt was so strong, that he felt that she could feel it radiating off of him. As she gently turned her head to him, he grabbed her hand and gave her a squeeze. Maybe, just maybe, God was still answering prayers. Maybe, just maybe, God would open her eyes and let her see what he was trying to be.
That I wanna be a stay man
I wanna be a brave man
I wanna be the kind of man she sees in her dreams
God I wanna be your man
And I wanna be her man
God I only hope she still believes
In the man I wanna be
