Dearest Calliope...
Why can't you see that I'm still in love with you? Why can't you see me loving you? Why can't I love you anymore?
I miss you every single minute of every hour, every single second of every minute.
But you don't.
Atleast not like you used to. Maybe not even at all.
And that kills me. Knowing that maybe you don't love me anymore, that you don't care about me anymore.
I wish you did. I wish you'd let me love and cherish you. Like I promised I would.
Please give us a chance again. Don't leave me. Don't go. Please... I won't suffocate you. I'll be better for you. I'll change. I'll do anything for you. Just please don't leave.
Take me back. Please...
I'll love you forever.
I won't be able to make it if you left me. I won't make it.
I wish I could tell you myself how much I still love you. But I'm too much of a coward to say it to your face. That's why I'm writing you this letter. Instead of telling you. I wouldn't be able to handle the rejection and the pitying look on your face when you'd try and tell me that you don't want me anymore. I won't be able to face it. Thus the letter.
You don't want me anymore I know that, because you told me that I was suffocating you, that you felt stuck with me. That you thought I was feeling stuck, I wasn't I really wasn't.
You just didn't want me anymore. You stopped caring about me and then you stopped loving me. And you didn't want a family with me anymore. Right? I mean, why would you leave me otherwise?
And I had to let you go because you were getting suffocated by me. And you were feeling stuck in our marriage. And that broke my heart. It still does, because im still in love with you. I'll always will be.
Just please know that I love you. I absolutely love you with all that I am. And I'll always love you. And I'll wait for you. I'm waiting for you.
Yours always, with love,
Arizona.
