Thank you all for taking a chance with me and reading my first non one shot! This a still not a novel, only a short story, but it is progress! This idea has been floating in my head for a while now, and I finally sat my booty down and wrote this up! I think everyone has the desire once and a while to undo something the author decided and here is my chance! So sit back, enjoy and I'll see you at the end of this chapter.

And without further ado,

What If?


I stood there bouncing Harry in my arms while I watched James and Albus Dumbledore in a heated argument, sitting in our living room. I had honestly gotten lost and could do nothing but watch. Not growing up in a wizard family, some of things or terms were no familiar to me. They had talked about prophecy and visions, Secret Keeper and the such. I thought about Divination class at Hogwarts a few years back. I had thought the class was complete nonsense, but James had always liked it. He had a strong "Eye", which supposedly ran in the family. James, however, shook his head at what his old headmaster was saying.

"You all three are in trouble. There is a spy in the Order and I think I know who it is."

My head immediately snapped to Albus Dumbledore. I was taken by surprise when I heard this, but then I began to understand. Of course there was a spy. Last week, a few of the Order members were suppose to be patrolling a small village in Kent when they had been bomb-barded. They were heavily out numbered three to one. Luckily, none had been to severely injured and had immediately come to me, being the only Healer in the Order.

James continued to shake his head. I hadn't understood why until he spoke.

"It's not him."

I silently started to put the pieces together. They must have had this discussion before and whatever they talked about did not get resolved. Whatever Dumbledore wanted, he wanted me to side with him instead of my husband. I still had only a clue what they were talking about, but I remained silent until they addressed me.

"Lily, please don't let him be stubborn. You need to change your Secret Keeper."

I turned to James to see him roll his eyes and I widened mine in surprise. Sirius Black, our best friend and practically our brother, was currently our Secret Keeper. His family had been on the opposing side, to put it nicely. Sirius, however, was as different from his family as humanly and magically possible.

It dawned on me what Dumbledore was implying. "Sir?"

Dumbledore uncharacteristically rolled his eyes and looked pointedly at me. "I have reason to believe Sirius Black is the spy."

James growled and stood quickly up. "How could you think it was him? Hasn't he proven time and time again he is loyal? What about Micheal? He wasn't at the last meeting when there was a big attack on Hogsmade!"

Dumbledore angrily shook his head. "Micheal was doing something for me. I don't fully trust Sirius. You all are very important in this upraise. Don't let yourself be wiped off simply because you think you know better than you do!"

I stepped in between the two men and switched the weight of my baby into my other side. "Albus," I spoke quietly, but still managed to calm both men. "We trust Sirius with our lives. Until you give us reason not to, I'm afraid you cannot change our minds about him being our Secret Keeper."

He looked softly at us. "Lily, think please. He may be trying to please his family."

This is when James stepped forward. "We are Sirius' family. We know he would die before giving them any information. "

I nodded as I cuddled closer to James, creating a united front. "Albus," I spoke again, "in a world where you can't trust almost anyone, why would you try to take away the one person we do trust?"

This had seemed to be the final word on the matter. He sighed deeply and looked hurt. I could understand why he felt like he needed to push the matter. James' parents had been the closest Albus Dumbledore had to a family. When they past nearly two years previously, Albus became very concerned with James and myself. I had always been thankful for that, but at the moment, his suggestion had been close to crazy.

I smiled, realizing the issue had been over … for now. I stepped forward and handed Harry to an awaiting elderly man. He bounced our son for a few minutes, making the little boy laugh with joy. This seemed to do greatly at lightening the mood. Albus even chuckled for a bit before he returned Harry to me.

"Well, I suppose I must be going. With the Halloween Ball in a few days, the Heads are overwhelmed with work!" I nodded as James finally smiled.

"I remember doing that!" I smirked at him playfully.

"What are you talking about? You didn't do anything except try to spike the punch bowl, which failed because I figured you would try it and set up a ward on it!" James pouted for a moment before starting to make faces at his one year old. Dumbledore chuckled before he made his way to the fire place. He turned right before stepping into the fire. "Just promise me you'll think about it."

I nodded while James paid no attention to his superior. He started tickling Harry, making him squirm in my arms before I finally handed him over to James. By the time I turned back to the fireplace, Albus had vanished. I plopped onto the couch with James doing the same, only with more caution since he was still holding his son. We sighed together and just sat there for a moment, enjoying the silence. Suddenly, he planted a kiss briefly on my lips. He pulled back when I turned to look at him.

"What was that for?" I asked with a smile. He merely shrugged as he kissed Harry's tight fists that wrapped around his pointer finger. "I don't know … just … thanks."

"For what?" I asked, confused. James looked back at me as if he was truly troubled. "For having my back." I smiled and quickly kissed him on the cheek.

"Anytime, babe."

There had been a content silence for a moment while James started giving raspberries to Harry's stomach. He pulled Harry up to his mouth and blew, making Harry giggle and squirm each time James did it. I just stared lovingly at my two favorite men in the world, wondering how I had ever been so lucky.

James placed Harry on the floor and watched as he crawled over to his toy chest in the corner of the room. Harry used it to prop himself into a standing position, but just banged on the top, as if trying to open it up. I giggled as I stood up and opened up the chest, pulling out Harry's favorite toys. When I made my way back to the couch, James pulled me onto his lap.

"So," he started as we both watched our son, "are you really going to think about it?" James had seemed tense. I shook my head and looked at my husband. "I know Sirius would never do such a thing. Who was Dumbledore thinking of replacing him with?"

James scoffed at the idea and gave me an angry look. "He claimed to have two excellent recommendations."

"Oh?" I asked, fearing his response given his present attitude. James nodded his head, then sighed. "First one is Peter."

"Pettigrew?" I asked angrily. I shook my head at the very idea. "No. No way!"

James had known that I had not been fairly keen of one of his mates at school. I have of course known all the Marauder's secrets after being with one for coming on four years. One of their secret had been their Animagus. While James had transformed into a beautiful and magnificent stag, Peter had turned into a pathetic rat, which both forms suited each other nicely.

James had merely nodded in agreement, but began to sulk a little as I mentioned for the other name. "Severus Snape."

This had taken me by surprise greatly. Especially since, although he was at attendance in the Order meetings (much to James' displeasure), he still had that dark mark forever tattooed on his arm.

I turned away to look back at my son. He animatedly crashed his car into his building blocks, giggling. He looked up at me and said, "Uh-oh!"

"Oh no!" I replied happily. I got off James and walked over to Harry. I helped him rebuild the blocks before glancing at James.

"Well, I would choose Severus." I had not fully been expecting his response as he jumped up angrily.

"WHAT! Do you want to kill us?" I stared wide eyed at my husband as Harry knocked the blocks over again, with another, "uh-oh."

I shook my head as I rebuilt the blocks. "I'm not saying he's our new Secret Keeper. All I am saying, is I trust him more than I trust Peter. And I trust Peter as far as I can throw him, but seeing how I can't even pick him up …" I trailed off as Harry handed me his toy broom. It was a small, 6in stick that once you grabbed it, would spin around and around. It was actually a clever baby toy, because it would only go if you give it a little bit of magic. Usually only grabbing it was enough to set it off and it was designed to draw out a child's natural magic. But seeing how Harry barely started walking, I doubted he would start shooting off spells.

James plopped back to the couch. "How could you say that? Peter is one of my best mates."

I nodded, getting slightly annoyed with the matter altogether. "James, don't do this! True, Peter is one of your friends. Severus was mine. I've known him since I was three." I took a brief pause, wanting to catch my breath before James had a chance to interrupt.

"You may trust Peter more, but I trust Severus more. BUT none of this even matters because Sirius is our Secret Keeper and always will be!" I raised my voice when James began to protest, but the comment of Sirius made him smile. He crawled over to us and planted a kiss on my cheek.

"I agree, let's just forget it." I nodded and laughed as James grabbed the dying broom and gave it a full charge before letting it zip around the room, much to Harry's enjoyment.


Yeah! First chapter is done! What do you think?

I actually wrote this chapter (and the next one) a few months ago and then when I got myself a new desktop, I transferred all my story ideas (that's right; an entire computer just for fanfics!) This one really seemed to be poking at me so in a few days, I finished the story. Completely finished!

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