Chapter 1. Letters to My Love.

(Naomi POV)

Kili,

I miss you soo much! I miss Auntie and Mom and Thorin and Fili too, but I miss you most. It's been two birthdays since I got taken away, and I just learned how to write because Daddy won't let me go to school, and it took forever for him to teach me. I was waiting until I could spell good and write really good to write to you, because I don't want you to tease me for bad writing when I come back.

I have to go. It's the second birthday party and Daddy said he had something special for me today. I'll try to write more later and tell you about it.

I can't wait to see you again.

Naomi Summers.


Kili,

My Daddy's surprise wasn't good. There was a man who took me into a room and did stuff. I don't know how to explain it but it hurt, and the man wasn't really nice. He put his hand on my throat and pressed and when I tried to move his hand when I couldn't breathe he smacked me. I don't know why he did it but afterward we when out to the living room and had cake and presents and did everything else. Daddy was asking the man about how I did. I don't get what he means but I guess the man said that I just needed to learn more. I'll write more as soon as I can. Daddy said that I needed to go to bed before I started this letter. I don't want him to catch me awake.

Goodbye for now.

Naomi Summers.


Kili,

I don't get it. Why does Daddy let these men do that to me? I don't understand. I thought that Daddies were supposed to be like Thorin, loving and gentle and they don't let people hurt their little kids. I'm not a little kid, but anyway. I hurt a lot. I just want to be home with you and Mommy and Auntie and Thorin and Fili. I don't want to hurt anymore.

I'll write more later.

Naomi Summers


Kili,

Today a lot happened. Daddy woke me up really early and there were more men than normal and they had cameras. They didn't do anything worse than normal, they just wanted to get it on video this time. Daddy also gave me my first set of books for home school. I got tested about a week ago and the school said that I was really advanced for my age and I got started in the third grade.

Please don't forget about me.

Naomi Summers


Kili,

I'm sorry that I haven't written in almost four months. Daddy found the journal that I kept my old letters in and he got really mad and he tore up all of my old letters, except the copies that I made that I keep in a shoebox under my bed. He took away y notebook and locked up all of my writing supplies unless I'm doing school. And he watches me when I do school so that I can't write then. I'm in the fifteen minute break of my end-of year exams and I'm writing to you. I miss you all tons. I can't wait to come home. I know I said this to you before I got taken but I love you Kili.

I'll see you soon, hopefully.

Naomi Summers.


Kili,

It's my eleventh birthday and for some reason I started to bleed today. I asked Daddy about it but he just got mad. He told all of his friends that had come over for the party that it was canceled and they a had to go home. Then Daddy left for a little while and he told me to clean up the house while he was gone, I tried Kili, I really did but the blood made my jeans stick between the legs and I was really tired. When Daddy came back he gave me a book called "Puberty for Girls." and a box of rectangle things that I found out were called pads. I'm really tired Kili and I want to come and see you. I asked Daddy if we could go and see you all soon but he just went into his bedroom and ignored me.

Love always.

Naomi Summers


Kili,

I haven't written for almost five months. After I read the book that my father gave me for my birthday I realized what had been happening for two whole years. It's called sex. The book said that I shouldn't have had it until I was older but when I told Daddy he just laughed and said that the book didn't know anything about making money. He was really drunk.

Yesterday Daddy took me to a scary place in the back of a Chinese restaurant. I had been throwing up in the mornings and not sleeping well. Daddy gave me a pregnancy test and I guess it came back positive because when we got to that place a 'doctor' got between my legs and put something up there and took out this strange blobby thing and Kili it hurt! Daddy gave the man money and we left. The man in the alley took my baby away and when I asked Daddy why he said that it would be bad for business if I was pregnant.

I'm scared Kili. I just want to come home.

Naomi Summers, Ex-Mom.


Kili,

It's been just over four years since last I could write to you. Since then I've been used by enough men that I've lost count, had so many abortions that I don't think that I'll ever be able to have kids and missed you all enough that it's become a constant ache. I'm well above my age level in my schooling and I have several options for college.

Tomorrow is my sixteenth birthday and I'm running away after the party. I can't do this anymore. I have a bag packed, money that I've stolen from 'clients' and food that I've slowly squirreled away. I'm leaving and I'm coming to find you.

I love you and I'll see you soon. I promise.

Naomi Summers.


A.N. I hope you all enjoyed! I understand that Some of the content was off-color but it's necessary. RnR My Lovlies! And for my older reader they will be together soon I promise!