A/N: Hey, I'm currently working on stuff right now for FFX so my FMA stuff probably won't come out for a while.. in fact it may never come out.. so um, sorry. But about this piece, I don't know, I just had some fun with it.
You know, the first time you realize you love someone, it's kind of a shock.
It's also kind of a shock when you realize they will never love you back.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not being completely stupid (though pathetic might be the right word). I'm not wallowing in self-pity saying, 'Oh look at me, I'll never be loved, waa waa waa'. That's not my style. Okay, so it sort of is, but still, not right now. This is plain fact: the person I love will never love me back. You think I'm exaggerating? Well, fine. Let me take you through steps 1-3 of how and why the person I love will never love me back.
#1 Person A (my love interest) does not know I exist. No, this isn't a case of, 'Person A ignored me in the hall, wah wah wah'. This is a case of Person A has never seen my face and Person A never will. We do not exist in the same realities. Person A can never know of my love because Person A does not know me. Again, to Person A's knowledge, I simply do not exist. I believe I've exhausted that point.
#2 I am not Person A's type. Person A's type is an attractive adventurous active person. I am not ugly, but I am not attractive. I do not have the slightest sense of adventure and would most likely sit in front of the TV, chowing down on chips and candy and other unhealthy junk foods WATCHING adventurous things happening. So even if Person A knew of me and acknowledged my existence, Person A would most probably be horrified and/or disgusted by me. Thus, Person A can not love me.
#3 I am obsessed. I pretend to have a relationship with Person A. I endeavor to find out all the things I can about Person A and once I have, I use these facts and twist them in my own little fantasies. Then, I find numerous pictures of Person A and proceed to drool. I have become Person A's stalker and nobody, in my experience, has ever fallen in love with their stalker.
I do believe that covers the major points of my argument. Oh, I forgot to mention that while Person A totally kicks butt, I have no powers and/or skills that could be even the slightest bit useful in any of the situations Person A has gone or may go through. And like I said before, it's kind of a shock when you realize that there is no way that they could love you back.
Believe me, I tried. I tried to twist all these things into a semi-understandable shape that would work in my favor, but even my twisted mind couldn't do it. I'll forever have to live, seeing Person A smile, wink, laugh, and know that none of it is aimed at me. I'll know that Person A will never even spare me a passing glance.
The first time you realize you love someone; it's kind of a shock.
It's also kind of a shock when you realize they will never love you back.
But every pathetic fan girl learns to deal with the fact that their love interest is a fictional character.
It's just the way of the world.
