I was losing you.

I could tell. It was plain to see, and it hurt all the more for the fact.

You used to protect me.

You had always been there for me, even when the Muggles had tried to hurt me.

Blood, falling like rain on the pavement.

I could feel a part of me die that day. The Muggles had killed it, but I knew what it was like to be scared and couldn't hate them.

Red, everywhere, falling on the sidewalk, rising in my lungs, choking…

Even after that, you had still protected me, still been there even when I couldn't see you and you couldn't understand me.

Black closing in, red drops splattering on the dark that was surrounding me.

Then he came. I remember that day almost clearly, though I wish I couldn't.

Colors shapes blur twist change… then a face, a cocky grin and dark, dark eyes.

You were pulled to him like a moth to a flame, and like a flame he almost killed you-gone blood dead-before someone blew out the candle.

A momentary snarl, fading, stretching, dying, then the same cocky grin and frightening, horrifying eyes.

I told you about his dark eyes, the ones with the pain in them - the madness, the deception, the - but you didn't hear me.

I called out to you, you were always there, but you couldn't - wouldn't - hear me.

You told me all about your plans - foolish deceived harmful-open your eyes- when you thought I was gone again, but I heard.

Words echo silently in the void, splashing through the river rippling still waters, words of anger and pride and deception.

You even shouted at me once. You thought I wasn't there wandering far almost gone-but I was there and I heard everything.

Pain, pain, red black red black red red black red red red red blood.

Those words hurt me more than the Muggles ever did, but I knew you didn't mean them. You couldn't - you didn't - you wouldn't - you did?

The other colors were fading, more red now more black blood and ink-pain.

You would - you said - always - forever - protect - help guide save - me, but now - now and not then, not forever - I was - gone wandering lost - in your way - your path your glory your bright burning flame - and not part - broken bleeding - of the Greater Good.

Gone, wandering, lost, broken, bleeding, choking, drowning.

Then finally - almost - when - forever too long not long-always-you broke - bleeding dying hurting - through his deception - lies dark eyes pain madness-blood- and protected - save me where are you-save-me.

Anger madness betrayal pain red black blood ink lost found gone blue.

Time froze. You looked straight into my eyes and for the first time in a long time, you saw me and I saw you.

He was coming-Death-from his wand green.

Perhaps I was wrong. True, he was the candle, but I was the moth and you the one who blew the candle out.

Black red brown white yellow purple orange blue-green-I missed you.

I don't blame you for what happened - is happening - time stopped - I knew - Death - coming in green. Green was comforting, after so much red and black.

I'll always miss you-not your always - short gone lost - but mine, always forever never forgotten.

I don't blame you. Maybe, if you couldn't protect me, you would protect the others. I was already dead anyway.

Black red white orange blue-green.

I love you, my brother.

Blue-green.

Live for me, protect for me.

Green.