Disclaimer: I do not own Haikyuu, Pocky's or the story of Canon of Lies, which was written by Bubun Hanten, and illustrated by Kazuki Rai. Canon of Lies can be found here post/110530449061/canon-of-lies-part-1
I know it's stupid I just thought that i'd write it out for no apparent reason really. First chapter's with Hinata's POV. Enjoy... Unless you just decide to read the manga version... that works too.
Canon of Lies
Lie 1
"I don't see you that way. And further-more... I have no intention of seeing you that way in the future. Sorry." He said as I blankly stared on.
'I feel... like i've seen this somewhere before...' I thought at the time. Watching Kageyama... as he said that to me... I remembered, my mind strangely calm.
'Oh yeah...' I suddenly recalled one time when I accidentally saw Kageyama rejecting a girl who had just confessed to him. 'Whenever he rejects someone...' I remember his face twisted up looking like he was the one who had just been rejected. 'He wears this tragically painful expression.'
My first love as a high-school freshmen... resulted in... utter failure.
The day after I couldn't help but cry, I cried all night, and I still couldn't stop, it was especially hard to hold back the tears at morning practice today. I sat at my desk in my classroom and bawled my eyes out in front of my classmates.
"Urk! What's up with him?!" One of my classmates asked another one of my classmates who was sitting by me.
"I dunno! He's been bawling the whole morning!" My glasses wearing classmate answered.
Suddenly a female classmate showed up with pocky's in her hands. "Hinata! Want a snack? Hmm?" She offered.
"Sure" I answered wobbly as I began to take pocky's from her.
"What's wrong? Did something happen?" My glasses wearing classmate asked.
It was silent for a moment before I answered. And with a mouth full of pocky's I said "I go' dumbed." I slowly began to munch away at the pocky's in my mouth while everyone stared on in shock, only the crunching sound of me eating remained.
"Hinata liked someone?" I heard my glasses wearing classmate whisper. "No clue." I heard someone answer in a whisper as well, but I couldn't think about it, just about how awkward this mornings practice was. 'I missed so often, and Kageyama was glaring at me tons... I wonder if he'll lecture me later...' I thought. I kept telling myself to shake it off, but that didn't help at all.
'This sucks... I mean, I knew this was how it'd turn out... so why... why did I go confess to him...?' I thought back to last night when it all happened.
~Flashback~
It was night time and Kageyama and I were practicing outside of the gym in a grassy area. I had just missed a receive. "Ah" I said as the ball started to get away from me.
"Ugh. CATCH balls like that!" Kageyama yelled at me.
"Well it's dark! I can't see well!" I yelled back as I ran to get the ball.
"No excuses!" He yelled. "Your focus has been off a lot lately!"
I got the ball and stood there for a short moment unsure of what to say. Then I turned to Kageyama with the ball in my hands. "Th- that's not true!" I yelled as I threw the ball back at him. It made a deep whap sound when it hit his hand.
We continued to practice receiving, and after a few more I failed to receive it yet again. I felt it as soon as it hit my arms and my eyes closed, but they quickly snapped back open only to see an angry Kageyama marching straight for me.
"EEK! Wai- no! That one was just-" I failed in defending myself by the time he reached me. I expected him to hit me and yell at me, but instead he moved behind me and took my arms by my wrists and brought them to where they should be when receiving.
"Your stance is too weak." He said firmly. He smacked my hip and said, "Drop your hips. Spread your legs." He used his right foot to scoot my feet farther apart. "Brace your arms after you sight the ball. Then use your whole body..." He explained surprisingly calm, but when I didn't answer him another gasket blew out in his head. He moved in front to face me and grabbed me by my shirt. "Oi! You're getting a hands on lesson from me! Are you listening to me?!" His face quickly fell from angry to confused and worried as he saw tears fall out of my eyes. He released his grip on my shirt with a look that screamed 'what on earth is happening right now!'
I was just as confused as he was "Eh...? Gah!" I exclaimed as I realized that I was crying.
"You don't have to cry about it!" He yelled with fervor.
"Nonono! That's not why i'm...! Something just... went all guoooh inside! Jus' a minute! I'll make it stop!" I explained as I wiped away my tears, and Kageyama continued to stand there looking confused.
"... Y..." I looked at Kageyema as I heard him talk. "You wanna break?" He asked while pointing to a spot under a tree. I only nodded to confirm that I did indeed want to take a break.
'I made him have to be considerate... REALLY considerate at that...' I thought.
"Well, uh... I... don't really get it but... hang in there, I guess?" Kageyama said actually sounding nervous.
"I'm sorry, Kageyama. I'm fine, let's get back to practice." I said carefully, trying not to upset him.
"It's fine, just rest. You've been pushing yourself a lot lately, after all." Kageyama explained.
However I still felt guilty about making him stop practicing because of me. "But..." I began, but I stopped when I looked over and saw him drinking his water, some of it dripped out of his mouth and down his chin making him look extremely amazing.
I quickly looked away, eyes wide, feeling the blush creep up on my face. I began slamming my head into my knees to get ahold of myself, while Kageyama was only concerned with the volleyball in his hands as usual. "Hm, It's deflated... we should pump it up later."
I looked over at him staring at the ball in his hands, finally done slamming my head into my knees. 'Kageyama's head... Is full of volleyball-related stuff. So there's no room for someone like me. I know that. I really do. So why do I love him this much, then?' I thought as I stared at him, feeling a slight blush grow on my cheeks. 'Tsk... Sure would be nice if he'd look my way at least a little...'
As I watched him out of the corner of my eye the wind picked up just a little bit at that moment and some leaves fell. One small leaf falling right onto Kageyama's head. I fidgeted nervously before I reached out to get it out of his hair.
His eyes were closed, but as soon as I touched his head they popped open, giving me a questioning look. "Huh? The hell's up with you?"
"Ah." I hesitated. "Um, I... You had... a... a leaf..." I stuttered nervously.
He didn't say anything, he just looked at me and then my hand that was still near his head, then closed his eyes and leaned his head forward for me to get out the leaf or any other leaves in his hair.
I got the leaf out, but I couldn't seem to move my hand away. My heart pounded in my chest and I felt paralyzed. After a few moments Kageyama looked up again, confused at me. Only to catch me staring at him with a major blush overtaking my face. He pulled away from my hand and I realized what was happening.
'Crap! With a reaction like that... even he's going to realize!' I thought worriedly. "Um, this isn't-" "Hinata" I was interrupted by Kageyama. "Hyeah?"
"Are you perhaps..." He began. "not feeling good?" He said getting closer to me. "Your face is red. It's a cold. Right? Geez, you should've just said so to begin with! 'Kay, let's head out." He said already standing up with his bag on his shoulder.
"That's not it you dimwitted Bakageyama!" I yelled out without thinking.
His bag dropped to the floor as he flung around. "Huh?" He stared at me questioningly. 'Ack! Crap!' I thought realizing what I had just said. He looked down at me patiently waiting for an answer. "Then what IS it? You're acting weird..." He said.
'Saying what's wrong... won't make me feel better. Kageyama doesn't feel anything for me at all.' I thought blushing nervously. 'And yet I still...' "I love you." I blurted out. "I'm... in love with you!"
Kageyama looked so confused and I couldn't blame him, it probably didn't make any sense to him. "Ah, um, you... probably don't understand what I just said..." I said blush still on my face, breaking out into a nervous sweat. "I don't mean as a friend or teammate..."
"You meant it in the romantic sense, right?" He asked. This time I was shocked. He did understand! "Y-yeah!" I replied enthusiastically.
"So you wanna date me, that kind of thing?" He asked. I was so happy he understood what I was saying. "Yeah!"
"I can't. I don't see you that way. And I have no intention of seeing you that way in the future."
~Flashback end~
'Sorry.' His words played over in my head during class. 'And yet... the whole reason that I confessed... was because I held out the faintest hope he'd see the real me then.' His painful expression filled my thoughts again. 'I never, ever... wanted to make him wear the expression...' I thought as I laid my head on my arms.
