Hikaru's POV

"Kaoru... No! Kaoru!" I yelled, waking up. Sweating, I looked around and sighed. Another day for me to go through without him. I stood up and sulked to the bathroom, taking off my pajamas as I was walking. I can't believe he's gone. It's been more than a week, and I still half expect him to come over to me and say, 'No, Hikaru. I was joking. I'm still here.' but that wouldn't happen.

I had to go to school, and face the Host Club again. They look at me with such pity, it is unbearable. Don't they know that they're looks hurt me more than help me? I don't want them to feel bad for me, I want my twin brother back.

On my way to school, I saw a couple girls that were guests at the host club. They were looking at me, wondering where my twin brother was. They hadn't known that he was gone. They'd find out today, of course. A single tear fell down my face, but I toughened up and kept walking, ignoring their painful questions. I didn't want them to see me crying. I didn't want anyone to see me cry. Not even anyone in the host club.

I was at the high school, and was interrupted by Haruhi, the last person that I wanted to talk to.

"Hikaru, I'm sorry. Are you ok-"

"Leave me alone, Haruhi." I interrupted, pushing past her. Without realizing how hard I'd pushed her, I noticed her fall to the ground. She stood slowly, and dusted herself off. She looked hurt, not physically, but emotionally.

"So, that's it then?" She asked. I just nodded and walked away, not even bothering to apologize because, at the time, I wasn't sorry.

I went to class and everyone looked at me, noticing that there was no other twin. The chatter started, rumors flew around, and all of it came back to me. Some guy in front of me turned back and asked seriously, "Did you and Hikaru get in a fight, and you pushed him out the window, Kaoru?" I glared at him, and didn't bother correcting him, or answering for that matter. It was none of their business. I stood up and stalked out of the room. I heard Haruhi call after me.

"Hikaru!" She was out in the hallway with me, and she was talking but I wasn't paying attention to what she said, except for one part.

"-Need to know that it's not your fault!" She yelled at me, crying herself.

"But it is.." I said, thinking back to when I'd asked Haruhi out.

Flashback

Kaoru and I were walking towards Haruhi, a mischievous grin on our face, on mine because of what I was about to do, Kaoru's because that's how he always is. He didn't know that I was asking her out.

"Hey, Haruhi, miss us?" Kaoru said smugly and put his arm on her shoulder.

"No, no I didn't." She said to him. Just for a bit, I thought, 'Maybe she doesn't like me..' but decided to try anyways.

"Hey, Haruhi," I started, leaning towards her ear to whisper, "Will you go out with me?"

I saw her blush, and Kaoru's confused look. She nodded, and I smiled and kissed her quickly.

End of Flashback

At the time, I hadn't noticed Kaoru's hurt face. If I had, I wouldn't have continued to be cute with her. I wouldn't have asked him to come on every date. He wouldn't say no, I figured, because he wanted to be with me 24/7. I wouldn't have pushed my own twin brother away.

"Leave me the hell alone, Haruhi! I hate you!" I yelled, running away. I knew she wouldn't follow me. I hurt her too badly for her to register that I was running away. I wasn't going to the Host Club meeting today.

I went to the place Kaoru and I used to skip class at all the time. It was under the stairs, there was a janitors closet that wasn't used anymore, so we hung out in there until the end of class. I sat down and looked around at all the things Kaoru and I put to make it better.

Flashback

"Hey, Hikaru, how about I put this up here?" Kaoru had asked, holding up a picture of us holding hands. It was taken in the club by Kyoya, but it was our favorite picture of us. I nodded with a smile and he put it up. He looked at it for a bit longer, and ran his hand over the picture.

"Uh, what are you doing, bro?" I asked, walking over to him.

"Oh.. Uh, nothing. Sorry. What else should we put up?"

End of flashback

I walked over to the picture and ran my finger over his face, letting the tears fall. I fell to the ground, my back to the wall, and curled up with my arms around my knees. I was sobbing and I didn't care anymore. No one would see me here. I was completely cut out from the world. I was safe, finally.

"Kaoru, I miss you so much.. Why did you have to leave me?" I asked, wiping my tears and looking up at the ceiling.

I didn't expect an answer, but, sure enough, I heard a voice.

"I'm sorry, Hikaru." The voice said. Kaoru? No, it was Haruhi again.

"How much did you see?" I asked quietly.

"Almost all of it.." She said sitting down beside me, "I know you don't hate me, Hikaru. You're just hurting, and I get that. If you don't want to be with me anymore, I completely get that." She hugged me and for some reason, I didn't push her away. It was comforting. I also didn't answer. I fell asleep in her embrace.

Haruhi's POV

I looked at Hikaru sleeping peacefully, his face stained with tears. He looked so pitiful, I started crying. I tried to hide the noise, so I didn't wake him up from his sleep. I was sure that he hadn't gotten any sleep recently. I knew too well how it was to lose someone close to you, even though it wasn't my twin. That must have been a lot worse.

"Poor Hikaru..."

"Kaoru, please come back.. I love you." He muttered. I looked at him again, and noticed that he was talking in his sleep. He really missed Kaoru.. I took out my phone and flipped it open. My background was all three of us, Hikaru, Kaoru, and myself. It was when Hikaru and I were dating, and he had his arms around me. I had noticed that there was something wrong with Kaoru every time Hikaru brought him to our dates. I didn't know that it was that serious.

Flashback

"Hey, Haruhi," Both Hikaru and Kaoru said at the same time. I looked up from the menu that was in my hands and smiled at them.

"Hey, guys." I replied, and Hikaru grabbed my hand and held it. I noticed that Kaoru was looking at our hands and smiling, but I didn't get why. Something just seemed wrong with him. He seemed upset for some reason.

"Oh, crap, I forgot. Tamaki wanted me to do something for him." Kaoru said before walking away.

"What are you gonna do, Kaoru?" Hikaru said, trying to stop his brother from leaving.

"It's nothing, Hikaru. I'm just gonna go. Bye." Kaoru said coldly. Could it be that he is jealous of Hikaru? Does Kaoru like me too?

"What's his problem?" Hikaru asked, glaring in the direction Kaoru had disappeared into.

"I- Um, do you think it is possible that he likes me? I mean, it all makes sense, he always seems upset whenever he comes to dates with us, and always makes an excuse to leave. HE looks like he's honestly about to cry when he sees us together." I said, and Hikaru let that sink in.

"That's probably it then. He needs to understand that you are mine, not his. You are the one thing that we won't share." Hikaru said, kind of selfishly. I didn't mind though, it was kind of adorable to be honest.

End of flashback

I didn't think that I was wrong at all at the time. I thought that I was completely right, but I was way off.

Tamaki's POV

"Guys! Where is my little Haruhi and Hikaru?" I said, gasping, "You don't think that they are off doing... The dirty, do you?!" I yelled, falling to the floor with my arms around my legs.

"Just after Kaoru.. Left, I don't think that Hikaru would be up to much of that, even if it is Haruhi." Kaoru said, coming behind me. Hey, that's true. I stood up quickly and instantly smiled, on the outside. On the inside, my mind was wandering.

Now that I think about it, I never really talked to Kaoru much. I didn't really talk to anyone except Haruhi much honestly. That really needs to change. I feel really bad for Hikaru, so maybe I should throw a party or something for him.

Of course! It will be a school-wide party just for Hikaru!

"Hosts, we are going to throw a party!" I announced, proudly.

"Will there be cake?" Honey asked, excitedly.

"Of course there will be cake, lots of it!"

"YAY! Cake! Cake! Cake!" Honey yelled happily, bouncing around with Usa-Chan. Mori came up behind him and stopped his jumping.

"Remember, Mitsukuni, you can't eat too much cake, or you'll get a belly ache." He said, causing Honey to whine. I needed to draw the attention back to me.

"But," I started, getting everyone to look at me, "You absolutely can NOT tell Hikaru!"