Disclaimer: I Do Not Own Harry Potter.
Written for Divination Assignment 8.
The house is packed with people who think they share her pain and grief, but it is her loss and her's alone. Minvera McGonagall is one of the people in her house and Molly has to fight the urge to ask "You were his Professor why didn't you teach him anything that would have kept him alive?.".
Arthur is crying and she envies him his tears because she cannot cry. Not because she isn't sad, but because if she cries it means letting her anger go and she knows that once she does there will be nothing left of her.
People keep offering her things like cups of tea and sandwiches like that will make everything okay, but no one can offer her the one thing she desperately wants and that is Fred.
She wants to hold him tight and whisper "I love you more than chocolate." like she did when he was little. She wants to run her fingers through his hair that smells like Apple because Fred always has Apple smelling shampoo and George always has coconut.
But she can't have what she wants and it isn't fair.
She will never get to hold him again or hear him reply with the words "I love you more than ice cream.".
Her arms ache to reach out and pull him close an hold him tighter than ever before. It is an ache she has never experienced before and she knows it will never go away.
Her heart feels heavy with love for Fred and it has nowhere to go because never again can she show him that she loves him.
Because he isn't here anymore, no he is buried in the ground in the dark and cold.
There is nothing she can do for her son anymore and it hurts, it is the worst pain she has ever felt.
There is only one thing in the world that Molly Weasley wants and will continue to want to until she draws her final breathe and that is to hear her son's heart beating, to hold him again.
But Molly can't have that and it's not fair that she can't have it.
