Disclaimer: What?! I don't own Life With Derek?! Damn, it must have been a dream...
A/N: I will give a prize to whoever can tell me what this means: draco dormiens nunquam titilandus.
The prize will be... I have no idea. But it will be (theoretically) awesome! Yes, alright, here's the story!
Oh, and warning , Casey is a bit out of character. If you don't like that, then don't read this. Simple as that. No flames. You send me flames, i will bite your head off. Plus you will go on my shit list, and you won't have a chance at winning the prize. So HA!
Lies
You live through a disguise all your life
But it's not what you want.
You go about like everything's normal.
But it's not.
You act like you haven't been suffering in the month since he died.
But you have been, and still are.
He died. Derek . He left you to fend for yourself in this godforsaken world.
You want to scream.
But that won't ease the pain.
You feel numb. So you cut. It's simple. You can control it. It eases the pain.
One night, you cut a deep "D" in your left wrist. You don't feel it.
You don' t feel anything.
You don't eat.
You sure as hell don't sleep.
You barely get by. You can tell people are worried about you. They whisper behind your back, and their concerned eyes drill holes in the back of your head.
"He wouldn't have wanted this, Casey!" they say. How would they know what Derek would have wanted?
They don't. They think they do, but they don't!
But they don't seem to see it that way.
Tonight you decide that the cutting just isn't enough. You go into the kitchen and grab a knife.
One of the big carving knives that your mother doesn't use anymore.
You make a cut in your wrist. Dipping your finger in the puddle of blood that drips steadily onto the countertop, you begin to write on the wall.
Then, you do what you have wanted to accomplish since he died.
You take the knife, put its sharp tip to your shoulder, and push it in. It plunges into your flesh. You cry out in pain and collapse to the ground. Dead.
The family comes home, to be greeted by your cold, lifeless body. You watch from beside them. Lizzie shakes you, everybody is crying. Then they see the note.
I'm in a better place..I'm with him. It reads. That's all it says. Nothing more.
You find yourself rising up and away from the scene. You are weightless.
"Casey?" He is there to meet you.
"Derek!" And as you run into his arms, you know you did the right thing in the long run.
He kisses you.
The sweet and familiar feel of his lips on yours is home to you.
Your suffering is finally over.
You are reunited with your other half. Together you make a whole. Two souls joined for all eternity.
A/N: REVIEW!! I mean come on! That little green button down there is begging to be pushed! Listen to it, it's saying "Push me! You know you want to..."
Listen to it, it knows best.
~Alanna (Which is, in case you didn't know, my real name)
