SPOILER WARNING FOR SACRIFICE!!!
I hope this to be a series of Vignettes (though this is more of a drabble) based aroundthe family (but mostly Luke and Ben) dealing with Mara's death.
If you read this before, I'm sorry that this was all jumbled up... I don't know why that happened. Hopefully it is fixed!
This is from Luke's POV.
Void
Pain. Physical and emotional pain.
Luke had felt both of these things over and over again in his life. He wasn't a stranger to these feelings, nor they to him. Finding out that his father was the most hated and feared man in the galaxy was at the top of his emotional ladder. Having his hand cut off by his father and being electrocuted by Force Lighting were at the top of the physical one.
But now as he sits in a ravaged room, his breath coming in gasps from the exertion of tearing the room apart, tears roll down his face; he begins to understand pain. The places in his heart and mind that have always been occupied by his beloved Mara are now a void; dark as a black hole. Every time he tries to access those places, to try and feel her warmth beside him as they lay in their bed, to breath in her wonderful scent, or to recall the feeling of her entering his mind just to say hello , the void tries to pull him in.
He has already fallen in the shallow depths a few times. He finds himself staring at a blank wall for hours. From somewhere he can hear his sister calling his name, trying to rouse him; his brother-in-law trying to make him laugh, but he continues to stare. There is some comfort in this because here he does not think, he does not feel, it is nothing. A part of him wants to fall in for good, wants to be nothing, for that is how he feels without her; but he knows this is something he can not do. Ben has also had a tremendous loss, and needs his father, whether he knows it or not. Luke can not, and will not let Ben lose another parent, be it to death or the void.
So instead he must hope. He hopes that he can imagine hearing her laughing and calling him 'farmboy' or of hearing her frustrated growl of 'Skywalker!' and not feel pain or empty space. But for now he will settle for distraction, and though he knows no one expects him, he has a counsel meeting to attend.
