A/N: This came to me in a crisis of OTP, should my ship be MASTER/DOCTOR or 11/RORY? I don't know I've always been a Master/Doctor shipper but after reading fanfics and seeing all the sexual tension and touching between Rory and 11. (C'mon the disapointed face he made when the Doctor called himself handsome) has left me all aflux. This is a story where both preside and are co-existing. M/D was there and 11/R will come in. (IT'S ALL A GRAND PLAN!)

Chapter One: All That Remain is Pain

Rory didn't mean to find the Doctor in a sobbing heap clutching an old 'Vote Saxon' sign he didn't even mean to get lost in the TARDIS. He just tried to get to the kitchen and lost his way. He was also sighing "Koschei, oh Kosch I'm so lonely."

Needlessly to say, Rory was over come with curiosity (as all humans are) and had to comfort the Doctor at any means, as Amy's sanity depended on her Raggedy Doctor's giddiness.

"Doctor, what's wrong?"

"Nothing! Nothing's wrong! Don't worry Rory the Roman! No need to worry! None at all!" The Doctor said tossing the sign in the trash. And jumping up.

"Who's Koschei?"

"A thing of my past I need to let go of."

"Why?"

"He's dead, so dead. I died. All alone. But now I have you two!" Then to change the subject: "Amy gets to pick where we go all the time. How about you pick our next activity."

Rory was over come with chargin. He must know why the zany Doc was in such an un-zany state. He pressed, "Fine, you tell me why you we crying."

"No I can't, your human mind couldn't wrap around it."

"Try again, I was a plastic Roman for millenia. I think I could handle it."

"You're really going to force this out." The Doctor said throwing his, Rory noted, skinny muscular arms in the air.

"You were crying. You don't cry!"

"I used to," he sighed,"a life ago."

"Rory Roranicus Pond Pondicus. Fine I'll tell you." He braced and took a breath, "Shortly before I Regenerated an old...adversary came back form the dead. The Master. You probably know him as Harold Saxo-"

"The old insane prime minister?"

"Yes, now don't interrupt or I'll stop."

"Fine." Rory rubbed his nose.

"He was my enemy, my friend, my lover at one distant point so long ago. We met at the Pyrodonian Academy and we were roommates. I kind of had a crush on him. We had a close friend named Ushas, we went renegade. We all didn't exactly follow rules. In our last two years, the Master and I secretly started dating, as dating wasn't allowed for students. I was betrothed to a female Time-Lord after my parents found him and I deeply entangled. Rani, she was exiled and then killed. I loved my daughter and later my granddaughter. I could never love my wife though-I was stuck with the images of him and I running through Gallifrey's red grasses, shouting up at the gold skies. I still see it. I just want to go back that. We batttled viciously. He killed my wife. I stole the TARDIS, the Drums-later we found out Rassilon raped the Master's mind as a child and placed a phantom drumming. The need to take over the universe and end death at all forms cost. Always tried to kill me. Fair, now I look at murder was his form of flirting with me. I never believed dear Kosch about it. He died, sacrificed his life to save mine and seal off the time-lock. Saving Earth as well. Bless his hearts. I love him still. i should get rid of my memories, but I can't. The only thing I can't throw away of my past. I promised myself with this body I'd not forget but move forward entirely. Now we should get going." The Doctor said wiping the last of the tears away and cracking his neck. And breathing heavily as he was talking very fastly.

"I'm sorry for you. I know-"Rory couldn't get this sudden picture that flashed through his mind of him kissing the man in front of him. So wrong, as he was married to a lovely sleeping Ginger. But a handsome ancient-but-young man stood in front of him. Rory wasn't rash but somehow he had a rash thought."I know I can't top that. I know I said that you're dangerous. I don't know. I know you walk basically alone. You had River, you still have Amy. And me."

"I know. Believe me every night I count the things I have. My family, my friends, my dear Kocsh. My one and only Master."

"Doctor anytime you need to talk, I'm here." Rory helpfully pointed out.

A/N: MORE TO COME! Still having a crisis of OTP, but both can be due to time can't they both happen?