Hold me dear, hold me tight.
A friend, a passion unspoken. An ally, a promise.
From hidden tender glances to fierce unbridled exhibition, the secret remains ours.
The life reborn under each other's discovery. Fingertips, to tender lips.
Yours, mine, we melt together. Our infamacy, far from forbidden promise.
Above the lights of the city and the glimmering wave like movement below... It holds no breath to our own love.
Even the sweetest of scents hold nothing to your own natural musk.
The animal within raging to be released, from my busom to your heart.
If only.
If only.
But my heart beats without yours.
It never beat in sync.
Our lips only to meet in stolen exchanges in his deep sleep, during the given sanctuary in your home.
Brought unto Union by leaders out of our control.
Our bond began in distrust, tempered by heated knowledge and compassion to meld into unity.
An ally to be born.
Intially by duty, then... Something more.
Still I fear, I have lost him.
To a silence and my own unneeded shame.
To my pride and declaration of self reliance,
I have lost you.
I should have known that I alone was not the only love.
I should have pondered potential love from others.
And yet, I was content. For my eyes could only see you.
You with me.
The others, wouldn't touch you like I would.
They would, play, jest and be a friend. Never a lover.
Never like I yearn to be.
And then, the others appeared.
Pretty ones. Fair ones.
Just as strong, but far more bold.
Coy, respectable, beautiful.
Coming faster than I could blink.
I wished they had been more of sister's love than of her own type.
Perhaps they never searched to face me for your affections. They never knew of my love for you anyway.
And should one steal you from me, I know I shall have to swallow the bitterness of silent and unknown rejection.
Oh sweet bitterness it would take control.
But I could never take your happiness away.
You would forgo your own joy, give up your own chance at love, to keep peace.
A selflessness I adore.
So long my enamored state has been tangled in your glistening web.
A web you have long sense forgotten you have woven.
Oh what I wouldn't give to have you return, to notice and return the affections.
But I guess... It isn't meant to be.
Oh, why can't you love me too?
I'm hating life right now.
Ugh...
