Well welcome to the crazy world of my head! This story belongs to everyone that had ever inspired me: my cat, my dog and the other authors that I love. Of course the characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.

And by the way feel free to correct me! English is my second language and I can be really sloppy with grammar sometimes. As I had mentioned on my profile, I would like someone that can proofread my texts before I publish them just in case. Ok now that I had made my offer feel free to read your hearts away!

Epilogue

Thru the rabbit hole

The air was scarce, I couldn't breathe, and at this point I could no longer feel the pain. I know now that all the promises I made were worthless. Everything around me is shattered. I looked to my right and there was Jacob, his face showed a tortured expression; he either wanted to cry or throw up, maybe both. His gigantic muscles were clenched, frustration drowning his wide features. Looking to my left there was Rosalie, her appearance didn't change, always beautiful and collected; however today there was pain covering every single inch of her. She was holding my baby, my daughter, her little lifeless body; my poor baby is just as dead as me…

Another wave of pain shocked my body violently, I didn't want this, today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. My daughter was supposed to be healthy and strong, instead she looked too small, too fragile and breakable. I hadn't been strong enough to carry her to full term, my weak body broke her, I broke us.

I barely got us to the 6 month breakdown, by then she had broken my ribs and fractured my spinal cord in two different places. She didn't mean to do it; she was just an innocent baby. After all she had been as strong as her daddy. According to Carlisle once they took out her out, I was going into to cardiac arrest; which seemed to be the truth.

- Let me touch her! – I wanted to sound aggravated, I wanted Rosalie away from my daughter. I wanted to be the one holding her while she… crossed that invisible line between life and death. But Rosalie refused to let her go.

- Rosalie give her to me now! – His voice sounded furious, menacing, he was ready to kill, I knew it. I didn't want to see him like this but I couldn't close my eyes.

- No! Please I want to hold her until she is gone! Please let me hold her!- her pleading words didn't comfort my aching soul, she had no right, but to some degree I understood her.

However I still thought that my pain was greater than hers.

- She is not yours to say good bye to! Leach! Give her to Bella! – That was Jacob, he had cornered Rosalie by the wall, his body overpowering over hers. But she was not going to fall without giving a fight. She was ready to attack whoever got too close to the baby. I didn't get to see what happened next because it happened faster than what my eyes could follow, however the next thing I saw was Rosalie, her right arm was ripped away from her body, and Jacob transformed on top of her; now it was me who wanted to throw up.

Edward was at the end of the bed, holding our daughter safely in his arms, she was wrapped up in a pink blanket; he had taken her away from Rosalie's clutches before Jacob attacked.

- Take her outside Jacob; she is out of her mind right now. – His voice was dull; he had accepted the imminent end of our story. I could tell.

He had been the one that took the baby out once she was out of oxygen; everyone was out hunting, with the exception of Rosalie and Jacob.

My baby however is now lying peacefully in her father's arms, even though I tried not to look at him it was impossible not to noticed, him as well as us was broken, I was glad that he wasn't able to cry, I don't think I could be able to handle seeing him cry.

Edward placed my little baby to my side, she is so beautiful, I could see Edward and I could see Charlie in her face my beautiful girl. I wanted to touch her, her skin had started to look blue, purple spots around her mouth, she couldn't breathe and I couldn't move. I could see her chest rising slower every single time. I could feel it too, my life fading away; I didn't want to go without touching her, without touching him. With all the strength I could muster I raised my hand and took her little hand in mine.

I looked at Edward too, and without saying a word, he grabbed both our hands in his.

- I am sorry. – I could feel myself saying but I was too far gone to be able to control my words. – forgive me…

- Bella I love you please don't...- I knew he was talking, he was saying something else, but I couldn't hear him anymore. I could tell the exact moment I left my body behind, the same moment I heard his sorrow burst thru his chest in an aggravated scream.

Everything turned, spin in the air like a roller coaster. And then it stopped; I could tell I was no longer at my house, with my husband and my daughter. I was outside; the fresh air gave it away.

I can't describe the feeling of dying, I felt nothing, I was just floating on thin air. The obscurity involved me like an old friend. Just let me breath; I closed my eyes embracing the numbness.

It lasted less than a second.

The meadow, that's where I was, maybe after all that's happened, this was my personal heaven, my happy place, only this time I wasn't happy.

I am lost; the last time I had been here was before the wedding, on those endless afternoons after graduation. Surrounded by wild flowers, the meadow looked beautiful; he would've liked it. With a knot on my throat I looked around, my legs were about to give up on me.

My body covered in the same bloodied nightgown, shredded from the middle exposing my body to the cool air.

I looked around trying to understand why would I had to come back here, if the only reason why I loved this place was because of him, to my surprise, I rapidly found the reason.

I wasn't alone, at the other side of the meadow two strange figures were standing holding hands, one much smaller than the other one.

- Mama! – Even though I had never heard her voice before, I knew who she was. She was beautiful, her red hair was unmistakable, and after all she was her father's daughter.

She ran towards me, the grass almost as tall as she is, she was so petite. Her curly hair was braided with a lace, and her dress was blue, a baby blue shade. Without thinking, not even caring at this point, I took her in my arms, I didn't know how my newborn baby turned into this toddler in question of minutes but I didn't want to dwell on it either.

My little girl is healthy and strong, just like she was supposed to be. The other figure got closer and closer, it was a very tall woman, and her brown hair didn't even reached her shoulders.

- She is very beautiful isn't she? – The strangers voice was sweet, very maternal. But I didn't know who she was. She looked familiar, but I couldn't quiet place from where I knew her. She is wearing an old fashioned dress, silky and intricate; the epitome of elegance. She reminded me of old movies, black and white.

- Who are you? – I took my baby in my arms and lifted her away from the stranger. She didn't answer immediately, she even chuckled a bit.

- I am your child's biological grandma darling. – It took me a bit to understand, when I could recognize her, the shape of her eyes and high cheek bones gave her away, and they were Edwards too!

- I.. I don't know what to say…- speechless, thoughtless, do you need more adjectives? I've never thought this day would come, but then again I thought I was going to live forever.

- You were not meant to die today, Bella. – She was looking at me sadly – My son was not meant to see more of his loved ones die.

I felt weak on my knees, the pain too strong to hold myself up. I held my baby tighter against my side.

- I fought, I couldn't, my body gave up way before I did... – While new sobs shocked my body I could feel my baby cuddling against my neck, and all I could do was to hug her tighter.

- I know darling, that's why you have to go back.

- What? – No fucking way.

- You have to see the truth Bella, after all that has always been your gift.

- I don't understand. – I could not comprehend a single word. What the hell!

- You don't have to darling, you will eventually! You will have four years Bella, make them count. – She extended her hands in Renesme's way reaching out for her.

- Four years? – I questioned her, doubting my sanity, Renesme moved around until she was standing beside her "grandma" she is waving at me, I didn't wanted her away from me, I reached for her but she just ran away, she didn't run too fast, but before she could get too far away, she looked back at me.

- Mama my name is Emma! – Emma… I never thought… but I couldn't let this happen, I didn't want this!

- Baby! Please come back!

- It's time to go! Bella.

Panic was raising, I couldn't stand to watch my baby get away, so I just ran towards her until the air was out of my lungs, I ran but she disappeared on thin air, she was nowhere in sight.

- Emma! – Please where is she? Where is she? What's going on?

And just like a nightmare, everything faded, a blur, a haze. I fell face first into the ground, but it wasn't dirt I fell into, it was harder and smoother than dirt, a rug, I opened my eyes, the green and blue patterns braided in the fabric were familiar. I knew this rug, I knew where this rug was supposed to be.

A place I used to call home, my old bedroom, this is my old bedroom in Phoenix.

Standing up, I could see my room, the queen size bed in the middle and the dresser, the closet and the bathroom I didn't have to share, and then there I was, me, the old me, the fifteen year old me that barely got out of puberty.

This is madness.

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