So this is my first fanfiction. I hope you'll enjoy it just as much as I do :)

AND I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! THE BELOVED CHARACTERS BELONG TO THE AMAZING WRITER: CASSANDRA CLARE! The only thing I own is the plot line


1. Peacock

I felt the ruler slap over my fingers, again and again. I closed my eyes tight, and tried to ignore the pain. The pain went straight from my fingers to my brain, telling me it was okay to scream, but I couldn't. I would bite down my bottom lip to hold in the screams and the whimpered sounds. The ruler went up in the air and my eyes would open and see it swaying above.

"Please, dad", I begged and shook my head. "I can't no more. I'm so sorry". I looked up at the man with the ruler. His hands had a strong grip, and his pale blue eyes would look at me, with nothing. His black hair would fall down against his face and his beard was big and thick, and I suddenly remembered how I loved to play with it when I was younger and how I loved the way it would stick against my skin. And now, I barely dared to touch it.

"Alexander," he said and I felt his other hand go under my chin to lift my head up. "You need to look proud". I blinked and regretted it as soon as I felt a tear run down my chin.

"I am proud, father," I said and felt the ruler once more against my fingers. I looked down seeing the skin getting red and one of my knuckles began to bleed.

"So, say you are sorry," he said and took the ruler up in the air again. I nodded and looked up at him. Hating that I looked like him, having the same pale blue eyes and black hair.

"I'm sorry," I said, "I wont… I will never yell at my brother, he didn't deserve it". Father took the ruler down and sighed with a smile on his lips.

"And what do we say, Alexander?" He asked and started to fix my shirt, most to my distaste.

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity," I said and looked up at my father, who I mostly preferred to call Robert. No man like him deserved to be called, a father.

"That's right my son," Robert said and fixed my collar. "Now go down to Sebastian, he is waiting for you, and do you're duty to save those who needs saving". I took my arms down to my side and made my hands into a fist.

"Yes-", I said with hesitant. "-Father." I turned around on my heels and walked out the door, closing it slowly, letting it only make a click. Other teenage kids would probably slam it, but in my case I would just get spanked with my fathers famous cane. I sighed as I entered the hallway feeling the cold air against my arms and as I turned around I saw a small shadow leaning up against the wall. He was around 9 years old and wearing big black glasses. He looked up at me with his big brown eyes, matching his hair. And his brown eyes were red with tears. I walked over to him and let myself fall down on his level.

"Max", I said and touched his shoulder lightly. "Why are you crying?" Max sniffed and took a small hand up to his cheek, to remove a tear.

"It's my fault that daddy hurt you", he said and looked down at my red knuckles. "Why didn't you tell him that it was me there was yelling at you?" I smiled and touched his hair.

"It's okay, Max", I said, "You don't deserve something like this…" I looked down at my knuckles, "Max, I need you to promise me something?" Max nodded with a slight of hesitation. "If father ever blames you for anything, no matter what, you blame me…" Max´s eyes grew wide and he was about to say something when I touched his cheek. "I will take the blame, I will take what ever comes to me. I'm you're big brother, and I will protect you, so… promise me!" Max looked down at his anime book and tightened his grip and nodded, "Max, I need you to say it". Max sighed and looked up at me.

"I swear on God, that I will blame you for all of my mistakes", he said and his lips made a small twist. I smiled and got up.

"Now, go", I said and pushed him slightly behind his back, making him stumble forward. He looked over his shoulder and made a small smile at me, and I just nodded.

I need to mention this. My family is very Christian. We do the whole praying before dinner and we have to wear crosses around our necks for protection. Ever since we were born, we have been taught to live by God and do whatever the bible says. We are not allowed to have sex before marriage, though I doubt that Izzy and Jace live up to that. And we shall be kind to everybody we meet on our path, so today I have to go around giving people brochures about the bible and God. I have to save them. I hated to do it, I'm no saint or angel; people can save themselves if they want to, why do a piece of paper have to tell them different?

I met Sebastian outside. He was leaning up against the wall and played with one of the brochures, ripping it apart. He looked up at me and I met his dark and black eyes, it sent shivers down my back. Sebastian had been my friend since kindergarten. We did everything together, but as we grew up we started to grow apart, though we still hang out sometimes. My mom thinks he is a good boy, and she wants Izzy to marry him, even though Izzy keeps telling me that the boy gives her the big amount of PMS's and she just wants to throw a bag of shit in his face. I smiled of the memory and as I approached him, he leaned away and gave me 20 brochures.

"Here, pretty boy", he said and looked up at me with a smirk. "Are you ready to do nothing at all?" I knew what it meant partnering up with Sebastian, it meant doing nothing at all. We would probably find a corner and just stand there, trying to give away these stupid brochures.

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The air around us smelled like new cut grass and car gas. I looked over at Sebastian, who was standing on the opposite side of the road, talking to 3 girls. They were all laughing and smiling, and one of them touched his shoulder. They were flirting all 4, and Sebastian loved any minute of it. He looked over at me briefly and winked. He then leaned down and whispered something to the girls, and they all walked over to me. I felt my heart pounding and I turned around, trying to pretend I didn't see them.

"Hey pretty boy!" Sebastian yelled and made me turn around. "Look what I got." He had his arms around two of the girls while the third just stood beside her friends with a smile.

"He-hey", I said, "you want a brochure?" I took the brochures towards the girls, and they started to giggle. I always made them giggle, I don't know why. I think it is my way of not knowing how to talk to them.

"You were right, Sebastian", one of them said. She had short red hair and her eyes were big and golden, "he's adorable". I blinked and looked at Sebastian who just smiled.

"Oh please", he said and took his arms away from the girls. "He's more than adorable. He is amazing. He is my best friend, and therefore he is sexy, sexy and adorable". I blushed even harder, feeling his fingers touch some of my exposed skin, underneath my shirt. I tried to take my shirt down to cover myself, but Sebastian let his nails squeeze into my skin.

"So girls", Sebastian said, "what do you say? Wonna hook up later today?" The girls looked at each other and nodded.

"If… you take him with you", all three said and pointed at me. Sebastian looked down at me and leaned closer.

"Say yes", he whispered against my ear. "You don't want me to ruin that pretty face of yours, do you?" I squinted my eyes and looked up at him, seeing the fake smile on his lips and the seriousness in his eyes.

"I guess I can come", I said and looked over at the girls and tried to smile. They giggled again and the one with the short red hair leaned in on Sebastian and whispered something in his ear before letting a piece of paper slip into his hand. He kissed her cheek lightly and nodded, before letting her go. They all three walked away giggling like small schoolgirls, while they would occasionally turn around to look at us.

"So…", he said and turned to look at me. "I guess we got rid of 3 of those brochures."

"Seriously, Sebastian," I said and looked up at him. "Why cant we go out, without you hooking up with someone." He shrugged and leaned against the wall.

"I can't help it," he said. "I'm stunning." He turned to look at me and smiled. I frowned and tried to give a brochure to an old women, who grabbed one but let it fly out of her hand.

"Stop it pretty boy," Sebastian said behind me, "no one will take one of these stupid brochures."

"At least I try," I said and turned around to look at him, "You don't do anything." Sebastian raised an eyebrow.

"Hey, I just got 3 hot chicks to both of us," he said and let the rest of his brochures slide down his back pocket.

"Like I care," I mumbled, "besides, I don't think you can get any girl."

"You say I can't?" He asked and leaned away form the wall. "Is that a challenge?" He sneaked up behind me and his hands grab my shoulders. I felt his hands tightened and he faced me towards a diner at the other side of the road. It was called "The Peacock", and had a light green color on the walls. There were small tables and chairs outside, and a few people were enjoying their beer or coffee. The door was open and I could almost smell the sweet scent of new baked bread. I licked my bottom lip, wishing I could just go in there and eat everything. There was a young waitress coming outside. Her golden hair was curled and hanged down her shoulders. She had a short black skirt and a white tight t-shirt, with the diners name and she had a peacock feather in her hair. She smiled at her costumers and gave them their order.

"Her," I said and pointed over at the girl. Sebastian followed my finger and I felt him smirk. He clapped my shoulder before going crossing the street.

"Piece of cake," he said and turned around and looked at me, while he licked his lips. I started to run after him as he entered the diner. I was numb by the sweet smell of bread and cakes. I inhaled and as I exhaled I couldn't help but close my eyes. I felt my mouth dripping and I opened my eyes slowly. The diner had a light green color on the walls, while the chairs and tables had a brown color, with a green pillow on each seat. On every table there was a red flower with a peacock feather. I felt like I just walked into a fairytale, it was so beautiful.

There was a bar, with a few costumers drinking beer. The glasses and bottles, was so shiny and the colors was mixed up like a rainbow. I felt my feet almost instantly walk over to the bar. I let my hands land on the smooth surface, and I closed my eyes and I listened to the music. It was a sweet and slow song, and it was so beautiful I almost started to sing.

"Are you enjoying yourself?" A sweet voice said.

"Its…" I said almost like a moan. "So beautiful."

"It sure is," the voice said and I felt it right beside me. I opened my eyes slowly and turned my head, almost touching the persons face. My eyes grew wide and I took a step back. He was tall, taller than me, and that never happens. His hair was spiky, with rainbow glitter. I let my eyes slide down, he had bare legs, and his skin had a caramel color. He had short black shorts and a tight white t-shirt, just like the waitress. I let my eyes slowly land on his eyes, and they looked straight at me. They had a beautiful green and yellow color and they were shaped like a cats. He looked almost not human, he was to perfect.

"I don't think you are allowed at the bar," he finally said and smiled. I blinked and blushed.

"No… erm," I said, "I'm sorry, I was just caught in the moment." He looked down at me and smiled.

"I see," he said and his eyes slowly found mine. "Do you… want anything?" I looked at the bar, only seeing alcohol with names I couldn't even pronounce.

"I don't know what to get?"

"How about-" He said and leaned in on me. "- A blowjob?" I blushed even deeper and as I took another step back, I fell down on a bar chair. Did he just ask me if I wanted a blowjob? I almost felt my head explode, no one had ever said something like that to me.

"Don't bother the poor kid", a voice said from behind. "He's just a innocent little choir boy." I turned around and saw the blond waitress, and she smiled at me. She walked pass me and she smelled like vanilla. She stopped by the other waiter and kissed his cheek. They must be a couple. They looked perfect together, all tall and they both had a perfect body. Lean and not to muscular. I gulped and looked down at my hands.

"I'm not a choir boy", I said.

"´scuse me?" The waitress said. I looked up at her and saw that she had leaned forward.

"I said I'm not choir boy."

"Oh", she said and leaned away with a smile. "So you're not innocent either?" I was about to say something when I saw Sebastian walk pass a few people. He stopped next to the waitress.

"I can't find the waitress anywhere", he said and when he saw the look on my face he raised an eyebrow. "Wow, who touched you?" I let my gaze turn to the two waiters and Sebastian finally looked to his side and saw the waitress. He almost jumped, I don't know if it was for excitement or chock.

"Oh there you are", he said and took his hand forward for her to shake. She smirked and raised an eyebrow.

"So I'm the famous waitress?" She asked and looked down at his hand. "Who are you?" Sebastian frowned and took his hand away.

"I'm Sebastian Morgernstern", he said and smiled brightly. I raised an eyebrow and made a small frown, hoping no one would hear. Though the male waiter raised an eyebrow and smiled at me.

"How formal", she said and leaned backwards to the waiter. "Isn't he formal?" The waiter finally took his gaze away from me, letting me breath and I looked at Sebastian.

"He doesn't look formal". I saw Sebastian eyes grow wide.

"I do actually come from one of the finest families!" He yelled. The waiter smirked.

"I guess that's only true in the Christian community?"

"Who… Who the hell are you?" He asked and for a second I feared for the waiters life, but he seemed calm and just smirked. I admired him for his bravery.

"I don't think you deserve that knowledge", he said, "It might hurt you precious head."

"Oh yeah", Sebastian said and leaned in on him. "What head?" My eyes grew wide.

"Sebastian!" I snapped, "stop it." Sebastian turned to look at me.

"You saw that didn't you?" He asked and pointed at the waiter. "He just verbally molested me, and you are my witness."

"No he didn't, Sebastian", I said and got up from the chair. "You sort of started it and implied it." The waitress made a laugh and the waiter just smiled.

"What? So you're on the fags side?" He asked and kept pointing at the waiter.

"Fa…" I didn't get to say anything, when he turned around to look at the waiter again.

"Tell me I'm right", he said.

"You are", the waiter said and shrugged and didn't really seem to care. "Though I actually like both, you know, bisexual."

"It doesn't matter!" Sebastian snapped, "you still like boys. God says men shall not lie with men. You are disgusting. You're kind is disgusting." I felt my heart stop at a point, not knowing why. I couldn't believe he called him disgusting, he didn't even know him.

"Okay that's it!" The waitress said and grabbed Sebastian's wrist. "You're out of here, you piece of shit." I watched as she almost throw Sebastian out.

"Hey, Pretty boy!" He yelled back at me. "Look I got her so hooked up on me, she can't get her hands of me!" He laughed as she pulled him after her. "Come on!" He yelled back at me, "You cant stay in there! You don't know what that scumbag will do to you, unless you wa…" And then the waitress slammed the door in his face. A few looked in our direction and I felt myself blush.

"Erm… I should go", I said and looked at the waiter. "I'm so sorry, though." The waitress came walking back and as she had forgotten me, her look went straight at me and I thought she was going to kill me.

"What are you still doing here, huh?" She walked towards me and I could feel her breath against my lips. It smelled like beer. "You should leave before I torture you!" I jumped a little and was about to go when someone caught my wrist.

"He's not like the other one", the voice said and I looked down, seeing a hand with dark blue polished nails.

"Oh god! How do you know?" The waitress said and looked at her friend. "What if he's just to big of a pussy to say anything!" She looked at me and her face was red, but not in a sweet blush red way, it was a dangerous angry red. "Are you… are YOU?"

"Would you relax," I said surprising myself, seeing her face getting it's pale color again. "Sorry, I didn't mean it." The waiter let me go and started to laugh.

"Ooooh Camille", he said and looked down at her. "He just sat you straight!" She looked up at him and sighed.

"I'm sorry", she said and looked at me. "I shouldn't judge you because you hang out with such a dick of a friend."

"He is not my friend," I said and removed some of my hair there was covering my eye. "He's just my partner in this thing." I pulled up the brochures and they both took one and stared blankly at the front page.

"Oh so I was right," the waitress said and looked up at me and smirked. "You are a choir boy."

"Im not… a choir boy," I said, "I hate to sing, but if you mean Christian yes. If you mean crazy Christian then… no. My parents are though. They believe in the whole no sex before marriage, and punishment if you are being cocky." The both stared at me with wide eyes.

"So you are a bad boy," the waiter said and raised an eyebrow.

"I… don't know."

"I mean…" He took my hand slightly and touched my knuckles and made me flinch, "this is a punishment." I looked down seeing my red knuckles, remembering my father with his cane, hitting me over and over again.

"I… I should go", I said and pulled my hand away. I don't know what was wrong with this guy, but he made me nervous. I felt my heart pound hard against my chest. I felt so embarrassed, when he touched me.

"Oh well", the waitress said. "I'm Camille, and next time you come to visit us, I will give you a cup of our famous and delicious hot coco. And by next time, I mean tomorrow." I raised and eyebrow and nodded.

"Sure", I said and smiled and looked at the waiter. "Then, we will se each other tomorrow." The waiter smiled and his gaze slide down and up again at me. My heart pounded harder and I wanted to turn around to avoid him, but I couldn't take my eyes of him, he was smiling at me through his eyes. I could see them shine and glisten. He had thin shaped eyebrows and thick eyelashes covered in a golden mascara. I smiled again and looked away and I saw Sebastian hammer on the window, saying something. I started to walk and as soon as I grabbed the doorknob.

"Hey!" The waiter yelled and ran towards me. "What is your name?" I turned around and I saw his desire in his eyes. He really wanted to know who I was. I smiled.

"That's a knowledge you don't deserve", I said teasing. I turned around and rolled my eyes, why would I say that? I know he had said that to Sebastian, and I thought it would just be fun to tease him a little. I opened the door, and heard a small bell cling, before closing it behind me. Sebastian came running towards me.

"What the hell, Alec," he said. "What were you doing in there?" I walked pass him and hugged myself.

"I didn't do anything", I said. I turned around to look at the diner, seeing Camille and the mysterious waiter laughing with each other. Sebastian ran to my side and sighed.

"Well", he said, "That waitress was tight as an asshole! I mean did you see her? She totally overreacted! That other waiter was just…" and he kept talking. The only thing I heard was the waiter's voice, silky and smooth with every word. He didn't even snap at Sebastian when he called him a fag. He was so calm. And the way he looked at me, so full of desire and with the small shiny star in his eyes there would shine so bright every time he blinked. I turned around again, and saw the diner was far away, leaving only the smell of new baked bread. Maybe I would come back tomorrow, to get that hot coco and maybe he would be there, and maybe then I would get to know his name. I guess that's why I didn't tell my name to him. I wanted to keep him interested. Because I'm not that interesting, so him not knowing my name, made me feel like the mystery I always wanted to be. A mystery people would want the name of.


So did you likey likey? The two first chapters, are just going to tell the plot, so saying that chapter two will be up later TODAY (: I just have to make a few changes

I wanted to make a prologue but I suck at that, so I thought I would just mix it up in the two first chapters – I feel so smart, that's why they are long, loooooooong

Well, review if you like, even though the next chapter is coming up soon ;) xxxx