Winning

Paperdoll rating

For: Hitoki, who won't stop nagging at me to publish a piece of fanfiction poetry (I can't really write proper fanfiction, especially not stories)

Every time I play a game

I'm meant to keep on winning

But I don't know wether I'm good or bad

Am I blessing or am I sinning

The worlds collide inside my head and nothing seems quite right

I'd rather give up all my darkness

Than someone hurt my light

I feel a slight twinge when

I punish a loser of game

Because I know deep down it is not right

I'm putting them in pain

But whatever happens, good or bad

I will always confide

In my innocent opposite

My other lighter side

I want to win

I've got to keep on winning

No matter if I'm good or bad

Blessing or I'm sinning

I feel the pain of insolence

The punishment of pride

I want to learn how other people

Take all that in their stride

I want to know how wrong I've been

To take away a part

Of someone who's opposing me

Or ignoring the card's heart

If I keep on winning it's got to get better

Maybe it'll get drier and maybe it'll get wetter

I want to try and clean my sins but

Now there's so much blood

That's dried upon my killing hands

There's no way to be good

I must have learned a lesson really

From my life, whence

In that life I didn't even

Think of the consequence

But everything's so new to me

I'll try and make it through

My light keeps on directing me

But I still don't know what to do

Gotta keep on winning and keep on trying

My confidence is never dying

I'll carry on but still in my mind

I wonder what good parts I left behind