Winning
Paperdoll rating
For: Hitoki, who won't stop nagging at me to publish a piece of fanfiction poetry (I can't really write proper fanfiction, especially not stories)
Every time I play a game
I'm meant to keep on winning
But I don't know wether I'm good or bad
Am I blessing or am I sinning
The worlds collide inside my head and nothing seems quite right
I'd rather give up all my darkness
Than someone hurt my light
I feel a slight twinge when
I punish a loser of game
Because I know deep down it is not right
I'm putting them in pain
But whatever happens, good or bad
I will always confide
In my innocent opposite
My other lighter side
I want to win
I've got to keep on winning
No matter if I'm good or bad
Blessing or I'm sinning
I feel the pain of insolence
The punishment of pride
I want to learn how other people
Take all that in their stride
I want to know how wrong I've been
To take away a part
Of someone who's opposing me
Or ignoring the card's heart
If I keep on winning it's got to get better
Maybe it'll get drier and maybe it'll get wetter
I want to try and clean my sins but
Now there's so much blood
That's dried upon my killing hands
There's no way to be good
I must have learned a lesson really
From my life, whence
In that life I didn't even
Think of the consequence
But everything's so new to me
I'll try and make it through
My light keeps on directing me
But I still don't know what to do
Gotta keep on winning and keep on trying
My confidence is never dying
I'll carry on but still in my mind
I wonder what good parts I left behind
