Why do I love you Sasuke? Why do I keep chasing after you when I know you'd only reject me, could it be that my heart is clouded by want, but it doesn't explain the pain I feel when you turn your back on me and leave. If it was truly a desire of wanting you, than why do I feel such pain, and hurt in my chest? Why are the wombs in my heart filled by your presence, why do I become so afraid when your near, why can't I ever stop this agonizing feeling from happening? Is it true, that maybe, Sasuke, is that I am afraid of you because of what you'd become?
When you left the village, and set off in the accompany of Orochimaru, my heart felt broken. It felt as if everything I had worked towards is now gone because all I wanted was you Sasuke, not Naruto, not Lee, not any of the men that asked for my hand, I only thought of you. I didn't understand, I couldn't understand why you were the only one to capture my heart.
We have Lee, spontaneous, open minded, smart, strong, and a very kind shinobi, although he can be weird at times, he's actually a really nice guy. Then we have Naruto, whose although dumb witted, is courageous, energetic, strong willed, strong physically, he also does have his quirks at times when he can be smart, he's also very kind to me no matter how many times I hit the poor guy, and he saves and protects me all the time in need, and yet I still can't find it in my heart to give him a chance. Maybe if you were dead Sasuke then maybe me and Naruto would be together.
Heh, I'm so stupid, what am I even saying! My heart wouldn't change just because of your death, I would grieve in your last hour, I would want to die alongside you. A world without you is a world I wish to not be in. I feel bad now. What about Naruto, he wouldn't want us to die. Each one of us means so much to him, how could I be so selfish to even think that? Still, I can't deny the warm feeling in my heart when I'm with Sasuke. It always feels similar to Naruto when he comes to protect me, however, this is different. I know this is different, what is this feeling I crave for you Sasuke, could it be that I am truly in love with you?
How could I be in love with a person that drowns himself in hate every day, a person that only have one dream, and that of killing a man. Someone that I never truly associated with, and yet I still can't get rid of this feeling, this aching feeling when I'm worried for you. Why, why Sasuke did you have to leave the village, leave me. That day I wept, cried to myself, I even gave in to Naruto asking me out on a date. I clearly wasn't myself that day, no matter all I could think of you.
"Sakura." Sasuke whispered.
"Sasuke, please come back with me to the village," Sakura desperately shouted," I can make you happy, I can make you smile again, revenge won't bring anyone happiness! Not you,not me, not anyone, so please, come back and stay with me and Naruto."
Sasuke glanced over his shoulder at her, "It is because of you and Naruto that I want to leave this village," The wind picked up, the sound of leaves ruffling filled the air, Sasuke mind was made up," I can't stay in this village knowing deep inside the man that salutered my clan is still alive and breathing."
"I won't rest until this man is dead Sakura." He looked her dead in her eyes, tears flowing down her cheeks, she shouted," But Sasuke, I don't want you to leave, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T EVEN STAND IT!"
A gust of wind came from behind, and so did the voice of the man she had always longed for, "Thank you for everything, Sakura."
That's right, I remember this, the day I confessed my love for Sasuke, and he left the village. I feel like there's something missing in my confession, but what was it that pounding in the back of my head?
Revenge can't bring anyone happiness, not you, not me, not anyone.
Sakura…thank you..
It is because of you and Naruto that I want to leave this village.
I can make you happy.
I can make you smile again.
I can't reside in this village knowing my clan murder is still out there alive and well.
Sasuke, please come back to the village with me!
You of all people should know Sakura, I'm a avenger.
Is this all, is this really all that I remember that night? No, there was something else, something big that I'm missing.
"Sasuke you once told me you didn't want to be in pain anymore. You told me you wanted to be happy!"
That's right, I recall that moment when me and Sasuke were in the middle of the bell test with Kakashi-Sensei. Just that sentence alone, tells me there was obviously something there, since I wanted to as far as to save Sasuke up til now.
Once, I even had given up, in hopes that Naruto would do the same too. What if Naruto did give up, what would have happened if we would have left to the village together? I probably would have distracted Naruto by going on another mind less date with him. I know taking advantage of Naruto feelings wasn't right, but why did I feel so guilty when Sai told me Naruto loved me. I guess I felt that guilty, in tears, because the truth of the matter is, I didn't feel the same way. I know the pain of have unrequited love, as I have the same with Sasuke. Now, standing here, I can't help but think of how Naruto may have felt all those days I've tormented him. He must be in pain.
Still, this is about Sasuke. I noticed a few things about myself. I tend to go for the one that barely gives me anything in return, much same as Naruto. Even if there were a chance between us, I don't deserve someone like him, not after what I had done. Besides, he needs to find someone who will love him endlessly, someone who have already been there even when I hadn't.
This is different with Sasuke though. I understand the desire to be with him comes with the thought of Sasuke being alone in the world. I can't bare it. Everything that had every mattered to him was taken away from him in just one night. I can't even imagine how that would feel. Sasuke, you just don't understand me do you? Can't you see that I want to be the one to feel the gap in your heart. I want you Sasuke, I need you, my soul craves you only.
You were the first boy my eyes lain on. I can't say that I loved you as soon as I saw you. I mean, cause that would obvious be a lie. At first, it was nothing but a petty crush, I thought you were strong and cool, pretty much the only thing I saw in you at the time. It was around the time when I saw you smile, you were so warm hearted then, not to mention very handsome. It was your smile, how you talk, and you were verbally nice to almost everyone. I can't believe that I split me and Ino relationship up over you. I mean, not even best friends should do that, that was one thing I've always regretted.
I found out that you're clan had been slaughter, and knew you were never going to be the same again. I reached out to you, I felt your pain, I knew deep inside that little boy I had known, is still here today! I want to see you smile again Sasuke, I want to see you happy. I want to be by your side Sasuke because I love you.
You protected me when we were a team. In the forest of death against Gaara, and when those sound nin had attacked me, you had asked me who done this to me. You saved my life, you cared for me, you told me that you didn't want to see any of your comrades suffer. Back then, there was still some sanity in you, Sasuke. That is the Sasuke I know and love. I know standing here before me is the Sasuke I love too. I'm not in love with what you were in the past because the person you were in the past is still here in the present.
That is why me and Naruto were so determined to bring you back to the hidden leaf. Now, I'm more than happy Sasuke, here we are standing as a team, all together. It was just like old times only that we have gotten immensely stronger since then.
I looked over to my left, then my right, I smiled at my team mates, "No longer will I have to be rescued, I refuse to be the damsel in distress anymore! I am Sakura Haruno, apprentice of lady Tsunade-Sama, the powerful slug sanin!"
