now what?

chapter 1: the first month of my new life.

Ricky was in Amy's room getting little Jon to sleep. Amy had called him because Jon wouldn't stop crying and Amy was already crying when Ricky got there. As soon as Ricky got there Jon had stopped crying. Ricking picked him up and sat down in the rocking chair. He started singing to Jon and kept rocking him. Within twenty minutes Jon had fallen asleep, Ricky just stared at Jon. After a while Ricky put baby Jon in his crib. Ricky walked out onto the back porch. Amy looked up and smiled.

"How do you do it, Ricky?" Ricky looked down and looked at Amy with the most loving smile. "I know how to make people happy. You should know that."

Ricky sat down by Amy and put his arm around her. He looked deep into her eyes and smiled slightly.

"Amy you have no idea how beautiful you are, do you?"

"Ricky don't....." Amy didn't know what else to say. She knew she was still in love with him. She had been talking to Grace a lot lately ever since marshall died. Grace had found out what it was like to lose your virginity and lose her father all in one night. Amy had been talking to Grace about the baby and what to do about Ben and Ricky. Amy didn't know who she wanted more. She knew Ben really loved her, but she also knew Ricky was the one who made her feel like a whole new person. Amy knew she wanted Ricky and Ben, but she just couldn't decide.

"Amy....... I love you." Amy could feel her heart stop. She wanted Ricky to know how much she loved him but she could never get the right words out.

"Ricky.... I" Ricky bent his head down and gently kissed Amy. He took his lips away from hers and looked in her eyes.

"Amy, please, please tell me you feel something too." He looked so gorgeous and she wanted to tell him to go home so she didn't have to make any decisions but she knew she couldn't.

"Ricky I....... I do love you......." Ricky bent down and kissed Amy with all his might. Amy kept it going. They made out for a while and next thing Amy knew Ricky had her on the couch. They were still making out and Ricky took off his shirt. He threw it across the room and tryed to take her pants off. Amy smacked Ricky and pushed him off of her. You could see the madness in her eyes as she went across the room and threw Ricky's shirt back at him.

"God Ricky! Why do you do that? I don't get you! If you haven't noticed I'm not in any position to get anywhere near sex right now. Hint look in the crib in my room!"

"Amy stop yelling. The so called hint is still asleep in the crib in your room........ I... I wasn't trying to have sex with you! I just wanted to have a little fun. I love you Amy and i love my son. I don't plan on having any more children in a while unless you want to. I am not having sex with anyone else unless it is with you! You are the mother of my son and you will be the mother of any other child of mine." Ricky had hurt in his eyes and love at the same time,

"Ricky stop!" Amy lowered her voice. "I am 16 years old. I know you think that stuff now but you are only 17. I just don't know what else to say. I just don't get it! Why is it now that all guys have sudden interest in me. They all know I have Jon. I want all this crazyness to end!"

"Amy not all guys have sudden interest in you. I have had interest in you in a long time! What don't you get about that?" He walked over to Amy and hagged her and whispered in her ear.

"I love you. I always will. Goodnight." He kissed her on the cheek and walked towards the front door.

"Wait....... don't leave..... stay." Amy walked into her room while Ricky followed her. They both layed down and fell asleep with little Jon in the crib beside them.