*Tragedy Warning*
The skies were taken over by dark grey clouds looming over the small town of Lima, Ohio. Kids were scrambling to get to their cars before getting caught in the oncoming downpour.
"Hey Rach you coming?" The tall quarterback asked
"No you go ahead Finn I'm going to head to the choir room for some extra practice before going home" Taking his girlfriends word he gave her a chaste kiss n the lips before walking out into the parking lot. Rachel could feel the bitter taste left on her lips after Finn had left. It just wasn't the same, his were not the lips she wanted to feel, who's presence she wanted around her. She had fallen out of love with Finn but didn't know how to move on, Finn was familiar, Finn was safe. She was sure if she let him go she would be lost and irreparable.
When Rachel finally made it to the choir room she slowly made her way to the piano. Her fingers lightly slid over the keys before she sat down. She looked out the window observing the weather outside, she watched as the rain come down slowly hitting the window in an irregular beat.
She pressed down on a black bass note letting it's sound ring out in the empty room. After it faded away she hit another, one after another making a melancholy sound to fit the rain outside and the storm raging inside of her.
A month, it's been a month since the wedding, well attempted wedding.
A month since they canceled it.
A month since the accident
A month since-
Rachel's hand stilled the last notes fading out into nonexistence. Tears stung the corners of her eyes but she pushed them back. She tried to swallow past the lump in her throat and began to breathe. In. Out. In. Out. In.
She held it until her lungs burned and screamed at her begging for release.
Out.
She stared blankly ahead trying to keep her emotions in check. Her eyes slipped shut and her head bowed.
"Don't look so down Berry" the familiar melodious voice filled the singers ears. Her head shot up and looked towards the doorway only to see none other than Quinn Fabray standing there, emerald green eyes staring at her, a soft smile placed on the blonde's face. Rachel felt her heart seize up. "Quinn" the name slipped from her lips, disbelief and questioning behind it.
Quinn walked toward the piano, her smile never faltering. "Close you mouth Rach you'll catch flies" Rachel's jaw snapped shut, caramel eyes still boring into bright hazel. "What are you doing here?" the brunette asked. "Looking for you of course"
Rachel's moth opened and closed searching for words, but Quinn beat her to it, "Sing me something"
"What?"
"C'mon Rach I know you're not deaf. Sing me something."
"What do you want me to sing?"
"Whatever you're feeling right now, I sure you can find a song in your giant repertoire to sing."
"But-"
"Just do it, please, for me" Rachel silently nodded and began to think, sifting through jumble of emotions focusing on one of them and then began to move her fingers across the the keys.
Her fingers began on the left side of the piano, the notes slow and haunting.
'I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone'
She glanced to the side hey eyes locked with Quinn's who gave her a nod of encouragement. Her fingers picked up their pace, her left note hitting chords her right arpeggiating, her voice growing stronger.
'These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase'
Her voice was raw with emotion as she powered through to the chorus
'When you cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me'
Her eyes shone with tears that she refused to let go. She let her thoughts drift to the girl next to her, and everything she felt this past month past month as her voice grew soft and remorseful again.
'You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face – it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice – it chased away
All the sanity in me'
It was her fault, all her fault. She caused this, her and her stupid wedding, and her constant texting, needing Quinn to be there, rushing her.
'These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase'
The words rang true in her mind, nothing would ever be the same again, she'd always carry this pain, this longing in her heart.
'When you cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me'
Her tears were now falling down her face, her voice was slightly cracking, but she would hold it together and finish the song.
'I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along'
Why?
She's been asking herself her question over and over this past month.
'When you cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me'
Her voice trailed off lightly her tears coming in even stronger. Strong pale arms enveloped her and the dam finally burst open. Sobs wracked the small singers body as she cried into Quinn's chest letting all her pain and guilt spill out onto her dress. She tried to speak through the tears but her words were muffled and broken. "Quinn…" "Sorry…" "All my fault…" were discernible through her sobbing.
"Shhh, shhh Rach it's okay, it's not your fault, it's not. I don't blame you, it'll be alright." Rachel pulled herself together enough to look Quinn in the eye, there was no anger or resentment in them, only care and understanding. Rachel felt her heart twist unable to understand how Quinn was okay with this, how she didn't blame her, but she pushed her questions aside and said what she's been dying since she first saw Quinn in the hospital, beat up and broken.
"I love you Quinn„ I love you so much I don't know what to do. When we got the call about your accident I was a mess I couldn't stop crying. And when we were finally able to see you something in me snapped. It hasn't been the same without you."
"It's okay, Rachel. You don't have to keep punishing yourself for this."
"But it's my fault. My fault for texting you over and over. It's my fault that you got hit by that truck. It's my fault that you're.. you're… that you're dead." her voice that started off strong and indignant was now soft and broken again. Her grip tightened on Quinn's white dress, her eyes searching warm golden ones for an answer.
Quinn just laughed lightly and shook her head, her eyes filled with tears also. "Rachel, I don't and won't ever blame you for what happened, you have to forgive yourself, it wasn't your fault Rachel saw Quinn start to fade and she began to panic.
"No Quinn, please don't leave me I don't know how to live without you. I'm a mess, I don;t know what I'm doing. I need you, everything is easier when your here"
"Rachel forgive yourself, and don't forget your dreams, your drive, I'll always be with you in here-" she pointed to Rachel's heart, "And always remember one thing."
"What?" She asked. Quinn bent her head down and captured Rachel's in a kiss filled with love and finality. "I love you" Quinn whispered against her lips. Rachel's hands fell through her translucent figure. Quinn gave her one last smile and Rachel watched as Quinn faded away. She was gone, she was gone and Rachel was all alone. She lost the person who loved her the most, she was so blind, she should have realized sooner. If she did then maybe…
Maybe things could have been different, Quinn would still be here, with her.
'I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along'
MC: I swear I keep putting off updating 'Finally Here' cause I'm having this block, mostly because I have no idea where I want the story to go, but I swear an update will come, just give me so more time. But for now enjoy the random one-shots I keep posting to try to get my creative juices flowing again
Plus I keep forgetting to put these dang tragedy warnings in the beginning of these stories, I will find a way to remember, thank to gllover22 again for reminding me.
