TO HOLD HER

Regina Mills was alot of things, but she would not call herself a distracted person. She actually took pride in the fact that she could concentrate on one thing at the time and give her everything to it.

But right now, in this moment, Regina knew she was distracted, more than she had ever been in her life. How could she not be when her Sheriff, her best friend, her secret crush was basically grinding herself against Regina's backside all the while kissing her neck.

Regina knew she could not get her front door open if Emma kept it up, so with great difficulty she turned around and put her hand on Emma's chest to push her away a bit, just enough to look her in the eyes.

"Emma… Stop…" Regina panted while looking at the blown green eyes and pink mouth that was slightly open to let out the puffs of air.

"Regina I want you." Emma whispered, her whole body shaking with arousal and something else she could not think about right now.

Regina could feel her heart rate speed up as she tried to keep her emotions under control. Of course Emma wanted her now, in this moment. They were both drunk, they had been flirting shamelessly for the entire evening and they had heavy makeout session behind the Rabbit Hole just some minutes ago.

Emma would want her now, but things would be different in the morning. Regina felt a cold stab in her heart. Of course she would lose Emma in the morning as the blonde savior would run off disgusted after realizing what they had done. Who would want her, the Evil Queen? Who would want to keep her?

Regina closed her eyes and willed the tears to stay at bay. She would not cry. Emma had seen her cry enough times, and she would not cry now.

"No you don't." a whisper was all she managed.

"Yes I do! I have this… need to be close to you, to devour you. To give you everything." Emma whispered hotly against Regina's lips as she pushed her gently against the front door.

Regina closed her eyes as she could not keep looking at the piercing eyes that tried to see into the deepest corners of her soul. She could feel Emma press her lips against her in much slower, much sweeter kiss.

During the evening they had kissed so many times, but this kiss shook Regina to the core. She was completely, entirely, fully madly in love with Emma Swan. And she wanted more than just a drunk fuck.

She kissed Emma back before seeking eye contact again. She cupped Emma's cheek before saying:

"I want you Emma. I want you more than anything, body and soul. If you remember this in the morning, you can have me any way you like."

Even in her drunken mind Emma realised the big meaning behind those words and how serious Regina was being. She wanted Regina, she had known that for years and tonight had been the turning point she had waited for.

Emma notted and slowly untangled herself from Regina who turned to finally let them in the house.

They moved up the stairs in silence, and when Emma's unsteady steps caused her to sway dangerously Regina laced their fingers together to lead them both safely upstairs.

With a silent mutual agreement they made their way into Regina's room. They had shared a bed before but that had been after sharing stories and pictures of Henry and accidentally falling asleep together.

This time was different though. This time things had happened and they would never be the same again.

Despite needing for them to not go any further without a clear head, Regina could not help herself. She stepped closer so they were standing toe to toe, and they breathed the same air while looking at each other in the eyes.

Regina reached to turn Emma around which the dazed blonde allowed while holding her breath. Regina reached the zipper that was resting against Emma's neck and started to slowly pull it down.

"Regina?" Emma's breathy voice sounded like a thunder in the otherwise quiet room.

"We need to sleep and you cannot sleep in this dress." was the only explanation that Regina offered while slowly pulling the zipper down.

Emma's mind could only register the warmness that Regina's body was bringing and the slightly unsteady breathing that tickled her neck. She was struggling to stay standing.

Regina finally got the zipper all the way down, and slowly and sloppily helped Emma out of the dress. Emma tried to cover her breasts but Regina held her hands tightly and spread them wide to her sides.

Emma could feel a blush slowly rising to her cheeks under Regina's searching gaze, but when she looked up to Regina's face the only thing she could see was pure adoration.

That made a wide smile form on Emma's face as she got more comfortable under Regina's appreciative eyes. Slowly she freed her hands only to run them up Regina's arms to her cheeks. Regina lifted her own hands tightly on top of Emma's to hold them securely in place.

Emma leaned down to attach her lips to Regina's in a searing kiss that left them both lightheaded. Slowly Emma brushed her hands down Regina's body to reach the hem of her shirt. With a steady hand Emma slowly lifted it over Regina's head and dropped it onto the floor.

Emma could hear Regina's breath quicken when her hands made their way back down to unbutton the slacks Regina insisted were her 'casual wear'. The slacks hit the floor softly, revealing smooth toned legs.

Regina stepped closer to wrap her arms around Emma's neck in a tight embrace. Emma sighed contently and wrapped her own around Regina's waist to bring her impossibly closer. Every part of them was touching the other and it was difficult to say where the other person started and the other one ended.

Ever since they became friends Emma started to randomly hug Regina. After the first surprise hug Regina punched Emma because no one had ever showed her affection like that other than Henry. Not caring about the punch Emma kept hugging Regina until she finally got used to it and started returning them. Nowadays they hugged each other often and those hugs brought such security and warmth to both of them. This hug was not any different.

Then a quiet voice asked:

"Regina, what is happening now?"

Regina knew that voice well and it made her heart ache painfully. Emma only ever used that voice when she was both confused and scared, and she didn't use it in front of anyone else but Regina. Thinking about that made Regina's heart swell alongside the ache, because this showed how comfortable Emma was with her and how much she trusted Regina.

Regina was brought back to earth when Emma squeezed her tighter, getting even more confused with the long silence.

"I don't know." Regina answered truthfully.

"Can we go to sleep?" Emma whispered, tightening her hold around Regina.

Without saying a word Regina started moving them towards the bed. Emma would not let go even for a second which caused them to fall into the bed together. When Regina's full weight pressed Emma to the mattress she finally let go, feeling surprised. Regina scrambled quickly under the covers but Emma didn't move.

She looked at Regina like this was the first time she saw her. Perfectly cut dark hair which was now slightly mussed, but in a way that was so completely adorable that it made Emma's heart hurt. Pair of red lips that were now kiss swollen Emma noted smugly.

And those eyes. Emma was sure that Regina's eyes held answers to all the secrets in the world. So brown that not even the most wonderfully made chocolate could compete. In those eyes you could see everything that Regina was feeling if you just knew how to look.

While Emma was deep in thought, Regina was getting more and more restless and insecure while sitting under the covers. Emma had not moved from her position from the end of the bed where she now sat cross-legged, staring at Regina, but obviously deep in thought. Every passing second had Regina more convinced of the fact that Emma was gonna run. She was gonna realize what had happened, and she was gonna leave her. Any minute now…

"Emma?" Regina had to break the silence, she had to know what was going on in Emma's head.

Emma's eyes focused instantly on the worried face in front of her. Emma could not figure out what had made Regina so worried but she couldn't help but smile widely at the woman.

Emma was under the covers faster than Regina was able to register and without saying a word she snuggled close to her side.

Regina closed her eyes to let out a loud puff of air she hadn't realised she was holding. She clicked her bedside lamp off and laid down to cuddle close to Emma.

Neither of them said anything for a long while but even despite the darkness they knew that the other one was awake. They foreheads rested lightly against each others.

Once again it was Emma's whisper that broke the silence.

"I will remember what you said in the morning."

That made Regina close her eyes tightly, to keep the tears at bay. How she wished that was gonna be true. She could not handle Emma's rejection. Not after this.

"I hope so…" Regina breathed out so quietly that Emma would have missed it if they weren't basically breathing the same air.

"I will." Emma's voice was sure and strong.

Regina hoped that was gonna be the case in the morning. Her eyes were still closed when Emma pressed her lips lightly against hers in sweet kiss of goodnight. Regina could feel Emma's breathing even out as the younger woman fell asleep.

Regina tightened her hold around Emma, wishing from the brightest star that this was not the only time she got to hold Emma like this.