So I just watched the episode where Alex gets shot and I figured I would try and figure out what was going on in Olivia's head. So here is my attempt.

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It happened so fast. One minute we were walking down the street figuring that this case was over. Then it happened. Alex and I were talking, Elliot was ahead of us. We said goodnight. In my head I was thankful that she had dropped the case against Rafael Zapata Gaveria. After the threats on her life I think we were all thankful when she dropped it. I caught up with him for a second when it happened.

Maybe if I had been with her it wouldn't have happened. Maybe it would be me instead of her. A SUV pulled up and started firing. Soon as it started it was over. Elliot had pushed me into the cold New York cement. But Alex, Alex. My brain just kept repeating her name as I saw her on the cement.

I went over to her as Elliot ran after the car. No NO NO!! My brain screamed as I stared at her. Dropping to my knees I placed my hands over the wound in her shoulder. Hot red blood that seemed black as onyx began to seep through my fingers and stain the skin. Alex seemed to be staring at nothing above her. Maybe she saw an angel or someone who she lost years ago because she was perfectly calm.

I noticed that her breathing was becoming shallow. Shit shit no don't do this Alex, I pleaded silently.

"Somebody call an ambulance!" I screamed to Elliot, the empty New York street, the people in the buildings, God if he existed at that moment. I pushed on the wound harder trying to stop the onyx flow beneath that dripped through my hands.

"Stay with me Alex," I repeated over and over until the bus arrived. I tried to go with them but they stopped me. Elliot took me back into the station and explained that she was gone. No she's still here I screamed at him in my head but I nodded mutely. I knew I would ever see her smile again or hear her laughter as I shuffled to the bathroom.

No matter how hard I scrubbed I could still see the blood. My mind traveled back to high school where I had to read Macbeth. The famous line of Lady Macbeth seemed to repeat over and over again.

Out damn spot out! I heard myself and her cry in my head. Tears steamed down my face as I sobbed silently. It was the only thing I could do that moment as I gripped the bathroom sink and cried. A little while later I was back in my desk my hands clasped in front of me while I thought about her. And if there was a way I could have stopped IT.

All that kept replaying in my head where my last words to her.

I'll see you tomorrow… And now I will never say that to her again. I'd never be able to say that again. I'll see you tomorrow continued to play over and over again.

Sad face!!!! It my first SVU unit fanfic so tell me what you think