Don't Your Mem'ry Ever Sleep At Night?
A/N
I started this during a Teen Titans phase, this (hopefully) the first in a series, this shares the name of one of my favorite Ronnie Milsap songs. R&R Please!
Disclaimer: Seriously, I don't need to tell y'all this one, I don't, I repeat do NOT own Teen Titans OR the rights to any of Ronnie Milsap's songs, this was gonna be a songfic and I changed my mind.
Chapter one – a good way to start the day
Dear journal,
I don't know how much longer I can do this, I feel empty without her
beside me, I seriously wanna just throw caution to the wind and ask her
out, but every time I think about it in my head, there are always so
many things that go wrong, most recently she blew up my face. Not a
pretty picture.
Dude… My slightly irrational side says. When are you gonna stop thinking about her and actually do something? Just ask her out!
Then I see two different looking versions of me appear on my shoulder… any more of these stupid hallucinations and I'm gonna have to go see Oracle… No! You can't ask her out! She'll only reject you, and after Terra… I look at the one wearing a lab coat, wow, I think to myself privately; so they can't hear me. A labcoat, that's new. Anyways, I look at the one in the lab coat and start the death glare contest that always inevitably happens when I start thinking about asking Rachel out. Then the one in a… bathrobe -Wow, a bathrobe, that's interesting.- starts talking. Who are you kidding Changeling? He only thought he loved Terra, he really loves Raven! I feel a sting of pain after that the other one, apparently called Changeling, starts yelling at the other one, and I can't say what he did, I didn't know I knew such language, anyways, I had to yell at them to shut up, right at the point when my friends were walking into the common room.
"Uh… Hey Gar, you feelin' ok?" Robin, AKA Dick Grayson asks, eyeing me cautiously .
"Yeah," I mutter as I start to leave for my room.
"Hey, mind if I walk with you?" Raven, AKA Rachel Roth, asks as she starts walking beside me like she doesn't care what I says, she's gonna walk with me anyway.
"Umm, no?" I reply, a little weirded out by the friendly gesture; not common from her.
"Cool, so…"
I blink at her a couple times.
"So…?"
"I was picking up some pretty conflicted feelings from the common room before we got there, mostly anger and hostility. What's up?"
"Uh, nothing, just…" I sigh.
"Yes?" She looks up at me expectantly, almost as if she's searching for the answer to an unspoken question…
"Um, it's nothing, just forget I ever felt those. See ya later," I say as I start to retreat into my room.
"Well, there were other feelings mixed up in there…" She looks at the floor, like she's trying to hide something…
"What were they?" I come back out, my curiosity piqued.
"Um… never mind, it's nothing."
"Yes it is, they're my feelings, even if I can't tell what they are."
She sighs and looks up at me cautiously.
"Love, happiness, sadness."
"Oh, yeah. Those."
"Gar, what were you thinking about?"
"Uh, I don't really wanna talk about it…"
"Oh, it was Te- it was her wasn't it?"
I nod. I don't need to tell her Terra was only thought of passingly.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked."
"No, Rae, it's fine, appreciated actually, you don't usually come up and ask me how I'm doing. It's a nice change of pace."
I chuckled a little.
She smiled at me, not a very big smile, but a smile nonetheless. It was kinda surprising.
"Woah."
"What? Is there something in my teeth?"
She suddenly looked worried, and started checking her teeth for the nonexistent debris.
I laughed, then thinking to myself – She's adorable! How have I never noticed that? – whoa, where did that come from? Then another thought – She's really kissable right now, I should just lean forward, and kiss her. – WHOA! Where in heck did that come from?
Apparently I was frowning at her. She noticed.
"Gar? Did I do something wrong?"
"What? No! No, I… I was just thinking."
"Oh, well, I felt some interesting emotions while you were glaring at me, by the way, and your face started turning into a tiger's."
"Really? Wow, I didn't know I could do that, cool party trick huh?" I grin at her.
She chuckles at me then smiles like she's unsure of herself and says "I felt love before you started glaring, and then annoyance when you started…"
"Yeah, uh, about that. It w-"
"Who were you thinking about, and who were you annoyed at?"
Crap, I have to tell her now, and besides, this might be my only chance.
"I... before I started glaring, I was thinking about –"
"Never mind, I shouldn't pry."
"It's fine Rach, I was thinking about you."
"Me? As in, me?"
"Yes, you, at first, then myself when I got annoyed."
"Wait, I felt love, does that mean…?"
Then I kissed her, and when we broke apart, she was staggering with surprise and, while I'm not an empath like she is, I knew that she felt an odd mixture of extreme happiness, as well as anger, and embarrassment. Then I went into my room, leaving her there.
End of part one. My first full-fledged Teen Titans fic. What'd you think? R&R Please. I except flames as constructive critisism, as long as there's nothing explicit. Thanks for reading!
