What is it like to love? To lose something, that I know, but love i have never really knew. My parents I didn't know them long enough to call it real love, more like a friend I've come in contact with like Life and Death. Is this how I was going to remain? Unknown of the emotion? I've had chances, there is Lizzy, but I really never liked the thought of loving someone like her. I don't understand why, we were engaged to be wed, shouldn't you love the person you are marrying? Why didn't I?

Wasn't love when your heart beats quick whenever they are around you? When they talk to you or touch you your body heats up? What about if they are gone from your side, don't you wish they were with you at every moment? Aren't you supposed to love every little thing about them including their faults and weaknesses? Is that what love is? When you share a feeling for someone who was important to you?

"Bocchan?" A knock to my office door. "I've got your tea."

"Yes come in." The door opened wide with my butler rolling in a cart topped with a tea set. He was important to me, but not in a love sense, he was going to take my soul. Sebastian had faults like scheming and keeping things from me, but I never hated him for it. Sebastian doesn't really leave my side, but when I'm all alone kidnapped or away from his own body I keep wishing for him to hurry and find me so I'm not alone. When he undresses me I feel my cheeks turn red with my heart beating rapidly, but all those things doesn't mean I love him does it? It couldn't be.

But...Even if I did, Demons don't fall in love with humans. Humans fall into traps and that is exactly what demons are, an emotional trap. Sebastian, is what I feel for you love, or just another whole for me to fall and pull myself back out of again?

"Bocchan? Is there something on your mind?" His question startled me, had I just been staring off in front of him?

"No, nothing Sebastian." I quickly responded.

"I see." He walked up behind me and placed his lips next to my ear. "Does the young master, like staring at me so intently?"

"I was doing no such thing." Trying to ignore him I picked up my paperwork and continued on with my work attempting to get out of this conversation.

"My mistake" Sebastian commented. Suddenly I felt something soft press itself to my cheek, then disappear as quickly as it came. What the hell he kissed me? Smiling he pulled away and with the cart made his way to the door. "It must be my imagination. I will be back soon with your dinner my lord." I watched him gleam a bright smile as he left my study.

If I did fall into your trap of so called loveSebastian ...would I ever want to escape?


Authors Note: This Story was complete boredom, I'm not tired enough for sleep so i decided to freewrite a fanfic...I wonder how it turned out...Please Review, and srry if there is any bad spelling...and such. :)

-Jokersmiles:)