My eyes turn foggy

And here comes the tears

It's hard to see things like this

I'm filled with regret

For not being able to say those things to you

I know they're simple

But it's become a daily thing for me

Good night

I love you

I miss you

Sweet dreams

Hun

I miss you so much

I wish I could see you

I wish for everything to be the way we want

And it's not your fault

So stop saying sorry

It's not your mom's either so don't blame

I know it's gonna be another two weeks

But still

At least it's Valentine's

It's a good time to go on a date

Our first one

Please don't be sad about this time, look forward to the next

I promise it will be perfect

I'll bring 50 and you bring 10

You'll pay the bus and I'll do the rest

We'll sit around borders and read

Or we'll buy something at the candy store

Eat lunch at a restaurant

Do anything else we want

Go see Myah

Then go back home

It'll be fun

I promise you

Not like we ever do but;

No fighting

And Not like this happens when it's just me and you but;

I'm not gonna cry

Unless you make me so happy that I can't help it

In Borders I'll take you to the corner of the second floor

And I'll give you my Valentine's gift

It's not much, but...

I don't think a flower would make it...

Although I might get you a fake flower

The most beautiful one I can find

But even that I cannot compare to your beauty

You're so wonderful

And I'd kiss you until you fall asleep if I could

But I'm always the one to fall asleep first

It's probably because I stay up all night the night before just for you

But I don't mind

As long as it's for you

I promise you our first date will be the best I can give you right now.

I'd give you a normal date, dinner and a movie.

But it seems too bland.

I also thought about heading to the cemetery and having a picnic there in the summer for dinner as a date.

But...I thought you would think I'm a freak for that.

So downtown works,

I guess,

I just agreed because my idea of a date is...stupid.

I'm sorry for being a freak.

I love you so much.

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