Everything about you now,
I~ love but that's a lie
But what happens actually...
I love that part of me. The part inside me that's meek and timid. The part that couldn't hurt a butterfly. That couldn't crush a flower. The part that can make people smile.
Everything about you now,
I~ hate but that's a lie
Because I actually...
I hate that part of me. The part inside of me that can't say what she wants to. The part of me who goes along with whatever others say. The part of me that can't express love, who'll just blush and pass their love without saying a thing. The part of me who will give up her own happiness for others.
These are the same.
I can't speak honestly
It's too challenging for me
So I keep on lying with a catty hat
I don't know when she came, but I feel her inside of me
e-to I~ said e-Toeto
The part of me that won't say what she wants. It feels like I'll be selfish if I do. This part continually grows inside of me, but when I try to suppress this, I think of the gentle part of me being lost in an abyss forever. I thought this was started when I felt the light pink color of love blossom inside of me but, as I think back, I question this. Was it when I started to love, to have the need to express myself, or when I was just growing in my mother's womb?
What's important to her, she can't communicate it. That's her name, Tōĕtō
She is a timid girl, too shy to speak to you, so that's her Tōĕtō
She has hidden herself now
This part of me named Toeto, She keeps me from saying what exactly I want to do with my life, who I love, what things I believe in. Rarely when these things surface, she can run and hide. She can run from my mind.
I really want to tell you my~ feelings from the heart
Hesitantly, Tōĕtō said no to that proposal
I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said
Sometimes, Toeto will take over my entire mind. Ruling it regretfully. I can say want I want to say in my mind but, my lips are clamped shut, refusing to open.
Red-faced Tōĕtō
She is regretful and she begins to cry
"It's all because of me" she said. Tōĕtō
There is no such thing, you know. Please stop crying Tōĕtō
I love that part of you, from~ head to toe
Toeto will sorrowfully leave my mind, thinking that that it's all her fault that I couldn't express these feelings. Part of it is also my fault. I can't muster up enough courage to ask the gentle part of me to leave. I love the gentle part of me. From head to toe.
e-to e-to, I mean e-to, hang in there Toeto
At the time I really really want to tell you how I feel
Hesitantly, Toeto will also bravely reach you
I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said
I wish I could tell you how I feel. Just to get it all out. I want to at least say I want to be friends. Or maybe even have a chat with you sometime. Toeto will do her best to be there for me but, I fail to even speak a word. On only the fault of my own.
ĕ-tō ĕ-tō, I mean ĕ-tō, hang in there Tōĕtō
There she is inside of me
Hang in there Tōĕtō
