Looking back, I never realized how pain can really be felt. I never knew how a heart breaks or when someone you really love leaves you. I just write down poems from different experiences.
I sat down and began to play the piano in the music room, crying my compositioned song out. At that moment, I knew what pain really felt like. I knew how a broken heart feels. I knew what leaving means. I started to play, feeling like no one was there to judge me.
Why can't I get through the night Without another fight I'm tired of the hurting Is it really worth it?
Am I all alone again?
Cause I am kinda feeling like I'm screaming With my mouth shut When it's really open.
Through the song, I was ready to die. Thinking through the bad times I've had, I thought I already died during Freshmen year. I only had one friend, and one close friend very dear to my heart. Chad, my best friend and neighbor since 5. We would play fake concerts together in my backyard. He helped me out with the music and all was up to me. When we were 14, he got really handsome and then, one night, I stared at a recent picture of us realizing how I much I liked him.
In my time of need, he helped through my dark days. He was always the one who was there to comfort me while my best friend Lucy, was moving. He cried with me when I cried. When he broke up with his girlfriend, I was there to be the one to help him.
I finished playing my song. I wiped the tears off of my face and sniffled my nose. I looked down and closed my eyes for a moment of silence.
My silence broke off when someone's clapping interrupted. I looked behind and saw Chad. He was smiling at me, still clapping his hands. I smiled back and laughed. He began to walk towards me and when he came closer, he sat down beside me.
"I was looking for you" He said while being silly with the piano keys.
"Well, you found me so that's good" I replied with a smile at the end. "That song, amazing. I hope more of those will come" He said back. "I'm sorry but that was my last song. I swore to myself to stop writing after what happened during the talent show, but i still write about the things that is happening to me" I said. He seemed disappointed. "That's too bad, I really like your songs" He complimented me. "Thanks. Thanks for everything you did with me. Those moments I will treasure." I said while wiping all of the tears on my face. "But there is one more moment needed in there" He replied. I was confused on what he said. But then he came closer to me, he was trying to kiss me. I also went closer to him to kiss me.
The next thing I knew, his lips were touching mine. Like every sappy movie, they say sparks really fly when you kiss, but the kiss we had, had sparks but not like you think. I was kissing my best friend, the best friend who was helping me through my teenage years. The best friend who I had feelings for since we were 14 years old. We stopped slowly and smiled at eachother. In that moment, we knew we had the same feelings for eachother.
"Dont let this be your last song because I now know you have another to write" He gladly replied. I smiled and giggled while he kept glancing at me.
Then we played more with the piano, knowing that we'll be together at last.
